We are inclined to believe those whom we do not know because they have never deceived us.
--Samuel Johnson

This is a scary thought. Are we all prone to deception?

i have moved dwellings 21 times so far in my life. here are two of them, on different contintnets. i wonder if 21 would be considered a large statistical number, average, or small in comparrisson to the world's current nomadic tendencies. i also wonder what sort of effect it has on physical, emotionall and mental health. i wonder if moving a lot is more natural to our bodies, in reference to historical gene evolution. i suppose partly it is, except for all of the super time consuming permanent dwellings we leave behind after we move.

i have laryngitis. this makes me want to talk even more than usual. since i can't even squeak today, i decided to write in paint. then in my blog. i went through all of my entries in here (didn't read all of them, but browsed through). I can't believe that i have been blogging since 2002!! that was one year after i graduated from college. i have been blogging off and on for five years. that is a long time. i didn't say much. looks like i mostly complained about my jobs, and posted other people's poetry. i have all of this time now to mess around with paint and write and read. i do miss the fact that i used to be a lot more descriptive in my language. i might be that way again, by the time i get my voice back. being forced to write out my thoughts instead of spit them out of my mouth.

not being able to talk makes you feel dissconnected. i think several people thought i was being rude. at the grocery store the cashier said hello how are you...the usual, but she wasn't really looking at me, and i forgot i couldn't talk and said "hello" in an ultra quiet whisper. this happened several times. but each time, i didn't feel like waving to get their attention, to whisper out the fact that i have laryngitis. i was supposed to go and see two great films this week with a group of people, some of whom i jusst met recently. this was one of those weeks i was looking forward to for a long time. but, i went to the clinic yesterday, and was told that i would be contagious until my symptoms were gone. so i cancelled both film events for myself. then i read on the internet, that the type of laryngitis i have isn't contagious! who do you believe? the internet, or a doctor?

oh well, i have two films arriving in the mail. lonesome jim and mirror mask. hope they are good.