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( may 14, 2008 )
okay, so i know i said that i would only open the site once i reach the goals, but whatever. screw that. 'cause i know that if i wait for the goals to be reached, then i wont want to have this site anymore. so i'm starting anyway. i have a lot of stuff already on my site so you can look at everything. any questions that you have could be answered in the faq section. if the answer to your question is not there, ask me the question, and i'll answer it. i hope everyone had a great mother's day!
QUOTES : i want you all to know that these quotes are not made by me. i do give credit to the sites that i take the quotes from, but will only give credit to the newest quotes that are on my site, considering that i will eventually have about 200 quotes. if i ever do write one of these quotes, i will say that i wrote it, and if i did, please give me credit! otherwise, if you'd like to give me credit, that's great, but im not going to track down the people that used the stuff on my site. that's just dumb. if i have a quote that you think i might have taken from your site, tell me so i can give you credit. also, some of the quotes on here might be from my previous sites, so i'm obviously not going to give credit to my old site. duh. ICONS : just like the quotes, i do not make these. i find them, save them on my computer, and the post them. i do give credit to the sites that make these / the sites that i found the icons from. if you made an icon and i didnt give you credit, tell me! also, if an icon is not showing up, you can right click on it, and then click : "show picture". if the icon still doesn't show up, please tell me so i can try to fix it! and like the quotes, i get some of my icons from previous sites of mine, so i might not know who made it. dont flip out at me if i didnt give you credit, its just because it's from my old sites where i didn't give credit. GRAPHICS : i get graphics from all over xanga. i try to get a certain type of graphic, usually bright and colored graphics, not black ones. i do not make these graphics, therefore, i will not be able to take requests. also, i save these graphics on my computer, and if people just some and copy them, then eventually, you wont be able to see the graphics anymore, so save the graphics! cause once the graphics are gone, they will probably never come back! PICTURES AND POSTSECRET : the pictures are mostly from my old sites, so i dont have any credit to give to people. if you see that one of these pictures are yours, then tell me because i would like to be able to give credit to the people who took these pictures. as for the post secrets, i get them at postsecret.com every sunday, so if you come and tell me that i took a postsecret from your site, i will know that you are lying. postsecret.com is updated every sunday with tons of new secrets, so if the only reason that you are on my site, is for post secrets, then check back sunday! PAMPHOBIA : 'kay well basically the name explains everything. but some of you may not know what pamphobia means, which is : the fear of everything. no, i am not afraid of everthing, but if you are, you shouldnt be at this site, since this site has everything. get it? basically, i try to find everything on xanga that is cute, and if i dont like it, it's not posted on my site. simple as that. if you have a problem with what is on my site, leave. it's that easy. HELPING : there are a lot of things that everyone could do to help me make this site a great site. you could, first of all, leave me a message with quotes that you would like to see on my site. you could have made them or you could have found them, it doesnt really matter to me because you would still get credit. if you dont want to leave a quote, then you could comment and subscribe! that's easy enough for anyone to do and it only takes 2 minutes. another thing that you could do is tell me where to find good sites that i could use their stuff for my site. and layouts. i am always looking for a new layout, so if you have a good layout site, or you know a good layout site, please tell me! UPDATING : i will tell you how many comments and subscribers that i need for me to update again. i think that it is a waste of my time if no one is even commenting and subscribing. since i do have a laptop, will probably be able to take it down to the shore with me during the summer, so i can still update. while i am waiting for the amount of comments and subscribers that i want to be able to post my next entry, i will be working on my next entry, so when i get enough comments and subscribers, i can post it right away, without you having to wait. FRIENDS / SISTERS : many people on xanga have sisters or v.i.p.s. on my site though, i dont have that. i dont not put people on my site because i dont like their site, its just that if you subscribe, you will be added to my list. i dont even have to be put on your list, 'cause i dont really care. im just advertising all of the people that like my site and subscribed to me! if you want to be added to the list but you dont want to subscribe, then dont even ask to be added. and if a someone subscribes, then un-subscribes, i will remove them from the list. 
( one )
I believe in true friends, in arguing, in jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in smiling until your cheeks hurt && laughing until you cry. & I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up. ( two )
That's the thing about letting old lovers go You don't stop loving them. There are a couple you love no less than you ever did. You're not going to try and make it work again, but if they needed you, you'd drop everything. ( three )
Only 1 in a 1000 knows the trick of
really living in the present... most
of us spend 59 minutes an hour living
in the past, with regret for lost joys or
shame for things... badly done (both
utterly useless & weakening ) or in a
future we either long for, or dread... there
is only one minute in which you are alive
this minute, here & now. The only way
to live is accepting this is an unrepeatable minute,
which is exactly what it is. ( four )
So I'll blast the stereo loud tonight,
just to show you that I meant it;
in this place where people rarely say what they mean,
I wouldn't mind being one of the exceptions. ( five )
One summer day I fell in love with you.
Gave you everything, heart & innocence.
You sadly had to go a thousand miles away for college.
I got call after call everyday from you.
You convinced me you were in love.
You sure had me fooled.
6 months later you were home but only for a week.
Spent everyday with me,
reassuring my heart, I was the only one for you.
4 months went by, you were still at it.
Feeding me lie after lie, excuse after excuse.
10 months after our first day
you stopped the calls, stopped the lies
& broke my heart.
I got used to your lying & your deceitfulness.
It sure would have been easier on my heart if you kept at it.
The summer's here again, what a change from that one I spent with you.
You gave a whole new meaning to the saying,
"I'll give you a summer you'll never forget." ( six )
I like not being a double zero in jeans unnaturally; skeletons just aren't my thing. So what if I jiggle a bit, confidence will give me all the happiness I need. It's okay if I'm not the hottest girl around, as long as I have a decent personality, I'll be fine. I've lived, I've laughed, I've loved. Maybe not in the ways people would appreciate, but it's been more than enough for me.
-Chloe Higashida
( seven )
We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick;
without wanting to, without believing it,
against our will & unable to defend ourselves.
And then we lose love exactly the same way. ( eight )
It may seem that I haven't been thinking of you & that this memory of you I've held in my heart, I've finally been able to let it go. I'm just trying to give you some space, give you some time to realize how much you mean to me & hopefully you'll pick up your act & come back. You & I both know that deep inside this thing we got going on ain't ever going to stop. Because as much as I cry, fight, & stress about you, I wouldn't do it if I didn't think that you were worth it. Whoever you decide to let take my place, just remember that it won't be for long because even though we're not together, please don't doubt that it was real. I don't know what else to do but to wait, wait for better things, better days. A better time for us so that this time, we're gonna make it. I don't want a fresh start; I want to learn from our mistakes together. You know I'd do anything for you, I wanna see how far you'll go for me. There's a lot of things I want, & you're not one of them. I need you. I keep trying push away these feelings & hide the underneath anything that will keep me sane for the day. Me & you, we're just the 8th wonder of the world. I'm dying inside because I hope what I'm saying isn't too late. Ask anyone that knows me well; the best part about me was you. ( nine )
I've gone through 8 boxes of tissue,
7 hours of music, 6 pints of ice-cream,
5 seconds of a slight smile, 4 minutes of reading,
3 full movies, 2 best friends staying by my side,
& it's only been 1 day </3 ( ten )
He paused & opened his mouth slightly, like he wanted to say something else, but no words came out. She just gave him a little wave & stepped away. As her Mary Janes took her farther & farther away from the boy she thought she loved, she wasn't even tempted to turn back.
( Unforgettable by CecilyVonZiegesar ) ( eleven )
Love is such a strong word. When we were just little kids, we always thought love was just about hugs, kisses, & happiness. But as we grow, we learn that it's not just about happiness, it's also about learning to accept rejections, tears, & heartbreaks. That's where I come to help you up, wipe those tears away, put your heart back to one when you're hurt from love. And when I say, "I love you" you'd better believe that I mean that with every fiber of my being. ( twelve )
There's a girl that'll never talk to you because she's too shy. There's a girl who never smiles because her teeth aren't 'Hollywood White'. There's a girl who's insecure. There's a girl who looks in the mirror & wonders what people are talking about. There's a girl who believes she isn't thin. There's a girl who believes she isn't beautiful. There's a girl who's always just the 'best friend'. There's a girl who's never good enough. There's a girl who's too mature. There's a girl with a broken smile. There's a girl that realized that fairytales are never coming true. There's a girl who wonders what it's like to be pretty; to be wanted.
©destination__unknown ( thirteen )
She's got love in the palm of her hand,
but not a strong enough grip </3 ( fourteen )
We make our relationship the way we want it to be. We could make it so there are regrets & second thoughts, we could forgive but not forget or not forgive at all. We can be selfish or we could compromise. We can agree or disagree. We could cry or smile. We could make up or break up. But at the end of the day, everyone just wants to be happy. So we do what we could to keep it that way, even if it means sacrificing a little, because you know they'd do the same. I've done what I could, so now let's see what you're capable of. ( fifteen )
Friends & family are like condoms;
they're your protection when things get hard.
Thanks for being my Trojan ( sixteen )
Maybe it was always true that someone had more power in any relationship, & the person who had less power would always feel a little insecure, a little frayed around the edges.
( TaintedLove by MelodyMayer ) ( seventeen )
She has always been like this when she's sad, like she wants to be pressed to me but also distant, next to me & far away from me at the same time. Like she is practicing being gone. And I don't really get it, how she can turn from me when she's at her most miserable, times when all I want to do is hold her & never let go. It's like the sadness pushes me, pulls her. And her pulling away makes things worse, way worse, for me, but I can't ever tell her that, because then she's even more sad, for hurting me. Too many layers of hurt, & it starts to suffocate us both.
( Scrambled Eggs At Midnight by Brad Barkley & Heather Hepler ) ( eighteen )
You said friends forever, but I guess forever isn't as long as it used to be. ( nineteen )
I didn't even care. Let them see what happened when you let yourself care about someone. Let me be a cautionary tale. Something good should come out of my crap-ass life.
( Inner Circle by Kate Brian ) ( twenty )
"And years from now, when we don't know
each other anymore, you'll think of me
& you'll call me," she joked.
"That won't happen!" I said,
"We'll be friends forever!"
The words sounded hollow, even to me. ( twenty - one )
Writing a poem is like seeing shapes in a cloud;
the person next you hardly ever knows
what the hell you're talking about. ( twenty - two )
If the sun were to set in the east
& the tears would roll back up my cheeks,
My heart might heal a little faster. ( twenty - three )
Falling in love is like falling into a deep black hole; you can't see & you can't force yourself to stop. It might feel like you're flying for a while, but you don't know when you'll land or if someone will be there to catch you or how much it will hurt when you hit the bottom. You never know, you might just die from the pain of it. ( twenty - four )
you wish you were my homework
cause then i'd be doing you on
my kitchen table. 
question: have you done any volunteer work?
if so, where?
my answer: well recently, i havent just cause i've been busy and all. but two summers ago my sister and i both volunteered at the animal welfare association (a.w.a.). it's not like we had to volunteer for any reason though, it's just that we wanted to be around the animals, i guess. haha we're so weird. 
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