about to go to work.  got my paycheck yesterday.. about $50 higher than i expected.. very good.  going to get it cashed today and tonight will be INSANE. 

where did the comments go?  i liked them..

plan for today:  2 egg whites, 1 bell pepper, salsa.  update with thinspo later.

intake:  3 egg whites, 2 tbsp salsa, handful champagne grapes.  somewhere around 100?

i know yall don't care about that, but i need to keep track.  im ungrounded today and so happy.  ooooh.  i cant wait to roll. 

short but sweet.  love you guys.

handful of champagne grapes so far.  salad for dinner.  maybe 150 cals? 

this weekend is going to be incredible.  im hanging out with this badass girl in my ceramics class.  uber-excited.  my once-close friends are being bitches.  don't you hate girls?  honestly. 

ive started budgeting my paycheck so i wont binge when im not home.  for example, 80 for drugs, 30 for italy, 40 for a down-payment on this really amazing jacket at maisson weiss.  i saw it at neiman marcus when i went to houston and fell in LOVE with it.  of course, i thought i'd never see it again, but was ECSTATIC when i saw it the other day at maisson weiss.  its embroidered cord and beautiful. 

what kind of diet pills do you use?  do they work?  quick results?  long term?

today went very well.  about 200 cals total?  rounding up.  i really encourage yall to drink green tea.  you can get it pre-sweetened (artificially, of course) by the gallon from arizona tea.  its sooooo good.  fills you up, speeds metabolism, tastes good.  mmmm. 

im so paranoid that my parents are going to find this site.  i know they go through my e-mail, but i don't know if they go through the sites i visit.  would they have found it by now?  do any of you know how to delete the history of websites you've visited on aol?

working is so good.  making money, staying busy, burning calories.  i just have to resist the temptation to eat the cookies.  cause they're so good.

MK looks so much healthier in her recent pictures.  im glad shes "getting better".  psh.. we all know it'll be with her for the rest of her life.  but at least shes ok for now.  i really wish i could have a conversation with her.  (me and half the american teen girls...)  i want to know how she does it.  does she ever eat?  does she work out?  is it the coffee?  the cigarettes?  how does ashley feel about it? 

leave comments.  they take away my appetite. 

stam... just because i love her.  that b&w is so beautiful

hello beautifuls.

sorry i havent updated in so long.  i kind of slipped into a "healthy" stage, where, even though all i ever thought about was what i ate, i ate normally.  i can't do it anymore.  i'm just happier with ana in my life.  well, i guess she was always there.  i just don't want her to have to hide.  i'm going to start wearing a red bracelet.  i'm going to keep track of everything. 

and now i have someone to support me locally.  she e-mailed me the other day.  i guess you're reading this?  well, she lives near me. i'm kind of embarassed for her to know who i am.  i'm way too fat for anyone to ever guess i have an ed.  well... theres only one way to change that. 

i rented a documentary on andy warhol tonight, and have yet to watch it.  it looks really interesting.  superstar.  anyone seen it?  i can't wait.  

i'm going to italy over spring break.  ooooooh... i can't wait.

i get ungrounded in a week.  (got grounded for staying out all night.  have been grounded for at least three weeks.  friday will be the fourth.)  so i get my life back.  not to mention my drugs.  which, by the way, i never quit.  figures.  i can't wait.

i am in so much love with the fall proenza schouler collection.  <33.