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| I've been wanting to post, but I haven't had anything worthy to write about. I still don't, but the link below is worth checking out. www.kiva.org Check out the 'about' section. It's an interesting concept, and while a lot of people who hear about it probably won't participate (including myself, though you never know), hopefully it can provide some sort of inspiration. | | |
| Over the past couple of days, I've wanted to post about a number of things. As I opened xanga and a new entry, I found that I just didn't care enough to talk about the issues. Putting them into written word was just a way of manifesting any negative feelings (as well as positive), and as a result of that, those words would inevitably come back to me (I would hold onto those negative feelings). In the end, I was sitting in church on Sunday with my family and Mark. Everytime we recite the Lord's prayer particularly (as well as other recited/memorized songs, etc.), I try to give to think about it rather than blindly repeat from memory something that has become meaningless. To make a long story short(er), "forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us" kind of flashed a light to me. In the end, this period of college in my life is closed, and I can take from that period what I want. My friends, my memories, my brothers, etc. I don't have to take what has recently been weighing me down. There was (and still is) no need to specifically address anything, because I've let it go and won't let it bother me.
Another note-- Justin and I went to the Lake yesterday and had a wonderful time. We both bought things for our new places. It was really fun to hang out with him, because it's so carefree. I'm looking forward to a fun summer of random trips and exciting memories.
New note -- similar to the first note. . . i feel like those times when doubt fills your mind and questions start bubbling to the top of your conciousness provide a forum for a reaction which indicates the status of "it." "it" being whatever you want it to relate to. My ability, in this situation, to allow the questions to come and go without holding onto them or worrying about them was a great signal for the future of "it."
Anyway, I'm looking forward to a great summer. I hope to spend a lot of time with my friends in town and really want to make some trips to visit friends. If it all works out, I'll be in San Francisco and other parts of Cali, Orlando, and DC. Then I'll have a friend coming in from Manchester in late July!!  A fun summer indeed. peace and love.
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| Graduation in just a few days, and it's about time! I'm looking forward to it (obviously), who wouldn't? Reflecting over the past four years, there have been a lot of people who have influenced the shape my path has taken. Some have played the role of mentor, offering me suggestions, guiding me in the right direction, etc. Others have been the catalyst of emotional and personal evaluation and relfection, reminding me it's okay to love and to be hurt, reminding me that life isn't always clear, and above all, reminding me that through hardship (though that term is used loosely) and pain come something better. There are friends who were with me for all four years and others who were in my college life for just a short time. In the end, I appreciate everything everyone has done for me.
I am very happy with who I am, where I am, and how I represent myself.
There will be some big changes in my life coming very soon. Though they will only affect me, I'll be sure to keep y'all in the know. This summer, I will be (hopefully) in D.C., Orlando, out to California, and visited by a dear friend from England. Hopefully the remainder of this week will be filled with fun times and good memories.
To all of my friends who are graduating or who have graduated this year... congratulations. Hopefully I will see you all this summer as well.
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| This past weekend was amazing. I went to chicago w/ my capstone class to attend MPA. Presented my poster and attended some sessions/talks, and I also spent some amazing time with my frined Catherine Hannaway and a couple of other friends as well. found a couple of good buys, and just in general, had some really fun times out. It was a nice way to ened the year. Flew home on saturday morning to go to mark's brother's wedding. it was a fantastic time. i honestly love his family to no end. they are absolutely amazing, and i just feel very lucky. Now i'm floating on til graduation. I have one paper to finish writing by Friday. otherwise, i'll be enjoying myself like no other.
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"my life" billy joel
I don't need you to worry for me cause I'm alright
I don't want you to tell me it's time to come home
I don't care what you say anymore, this is my life
Go ahead with your own life, and leave me alone
I never said you had to offer me a second chance
(I never said you had to)
I never said I was a victim of circumstance
(I never said)
I still belong, don't get me wrong
And you can speak your mind
But not on my time
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| We're going to make it after all. . .I know the title has been the same for quite some time, but today it means something quite different. A couple of people last night really helped me out when I needed it, and my mom sent me an amazing email this morning. I love the people in my life quite a bit. Thanks for all that you do! xx | | |
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