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Name: PC Gender: Male
Interests: speaking, writing, reading, drinking coffee Expertise: I rarely bring expertise to anything...I typically bring experience to everything Occupation: ministry leader Industry: church
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1/4/2004
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| 4 yearsDavenport, California, population about 350, staying at the Davenport Roadhouse Restaurant and Inn. It is a great little tiny town on the Highway 1. It's our 4 year wedding anniversary. I sit out on the deck on a handmade rocker while Tonya takes a shower, and what a great moment this is to be so reflective while using up the last few pages of this journal, which has actually taken me a couple months short of a year to finish!
I am not sure it has ever taken me this long to fill a journal, but how great it is to look back through one book containing so much of life as I've seen it throughout the course of several months!
I was looking back through it before we went walking around the beach earlier, and I am amazed by all the things I have walked through over the last several months. I have seen my life be really turned upside down and I have seen it come to great blessings in a completion only God could provide. There were so many moments I wondered what the hell God was trying to do in my life, and why he seemed to keep great things from happening in my life; things I completely intended to glorify him greatly with.
Then I look at where I would have actually been if he had simply given me what I wanted at the time and simply placed me where I was sure I was supposed to be. I look at things as they are now and see God's amazing protection in place. I would be so destroyed right now if I were where I thought I was supposed to be. I would be burdened and heavy-hearted if I were doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing at that time.
But now, I cannot deny my Abba's love and protection in my life. I was SO SURE of what I was supposed to do where I was supposed to be, and I was confident that God would be glorified and honored by the ministry I would have been able to do in his name, but my Abba was there to protect.
I think of a child who wants more and more candy. It's so good! How could something be so good and be withheld with such assurance? But the Father knows that candy will rot your stomach and bring you pain. But my Father knows I would have only known more pain if I were where I was sure I was supposed to be.
And now, I find myself doing what I love. It is my furthest long-term goal up to this point. I am still happily married to the girl I've always wanted, and I still give my God all the credit, honor, and glory for it all. My Father is very fond of me, and nonsensical protection and provision has proven that with more sense than I could write a hundred books about.
As I look down the long dark highway 1, I realize how incredibly long that road actually is in either direction from where I am at this tiny Davenport point upon it. For miles behind me that brought us here, and for miles ahead of me that I am not intending to take at this point. All along it, though, there is phenomenal beauty and magnificent mountains to enjoy.
4 years of marriage behind us and numerous ones ahead, but there will be beauty along the way. More importantly, there will be an Abba Father all along the way who always knows what is best even if I cannot understand or recognized it. All along the way there will be my Abba father who will lovingly allow me to make choices I am sure will hurt me and others in my lifetime, but I am confident that same Abba Father will protect and provide if I choose to obey and trust, even when that trust cuts to the bone of my own personal hopes, dreams, and ideals.
My Father God is very fond of me, and...
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| Question: please answerWould you still read my blogs if... ...I moved everything to a different site. Now I don't want to sound like one of those awkward "would you still love me if..." conversations, but as friends have begun using different blog hosting sites, I am being intrigued. Some of you may even read that question and think, "I don't even read this one." (Of course, if you ARE thinking that, you aren't reading my statement saying that you are saying that.) I have been looking into some other sites, though I have loved xanga for a long time (as it is my very first blogspot ever). But the question remains... Would you still read my blogs if I moved my writing to...perhaps wordpress? Or somewhere else like that? | | |
| kids these daysA xanga buddy of mine (tx_christian) recently wrote about so many of the things that will be very different for kids growing up now from what we have known growing up. SHe mentioned things such as not knowing about being able to buy cold medicine without proof of ID and fear of heavier drug use, not remembering a time when families could wait with someone just before they boarded a plane, and various others. It was an intriguing post (to which most of the comments were not related for some reason), but it made me start thinking about a few as well...and this was my response: Kids of tomorrow will not remember when the greatest problem school teachers would complain about was not throwing their gum away in the trash can instead of the various problems with violence, weapons, and drug use.
They will not remember what it is like to have dinner and parties with their neighbors as our society grows more and more individualistic with time.
Someone already mentioned the difference between the icons of our culture verses the icons of old, but I am not sure those people (Sinatra and Elvis) were much better role models once you read more about their lives, but our kids certainly will not know of a time when those sorts of details were not as exposed in culture via different media outlets, which ultimately means they will not remember a time when we weren't as obsessed with the lives of people we deem "celebrity".
On a lighter note, I just look forward to making my kids listen to the "oldies but goodies" station because I want to hear my coldplay, dave matthews, and various others and emphatically declare, "Now THAT was music!" And they'll groan from the back seat about how horrible it is, and we'll battle over the radio as they try to get me to listen to whatever is so popular then. WHAT ARE SOME YOU CAN THINK OF? | | |
| Metal DrawerI remember an old metal desk I once had when I was much younger. Green. Shaky. Short-lived metal desk with two small drawers. I don't recall what ever happened to the desk, but I remember having one of the drawers years later. That drawer may even still be in an attic somewhere in Wisconsin for all I know. The drawer was very important because it contained treasure.
It was the place I collected only the most important things to me at the time. To most people, it would have been filled with worthless junk. In fact, I am not too sure I would want any of it NOW (I don't even know where the drawer IS.) But each item in that drawer was well thought out and discerned with care of its worth and warrant as determined by me at that time. I was careful to think long and hard about what should make its way into my drawer. All other items were unworthy of the drawer.
Whether or not the items are of any value now, they were important enough to be sure I kept hold on the drawer even after the desk was long gone; even after several family moves later. I was devoted to taking care of that drawer because it contained important items, and those items made all the effort worth the work and care.
I remembered a little metal drawer after reading through Philippians 4 today, specifically verses 6-8.
The last couple weeks, I have read my Bible a lot, but I cannot say I have really "come to God's word" today. I have been disciplined at reading a book the last couple weeks, but not disciplined in connecting with God in that reading or much of anything for a couple weeks. Philippians 4:6-8 has struck me to the heart to realize how important that time needs to be.
My heart and mind are little metal drawers, and that time I set aside to read through scripture or do ANYTHING needs to be approached with that in mind. There are all sorts of things that pass through my heart and mind in the course of a day; thoughts and ideas about God, myself, others, the world... Which of those things make their way into my heart's drawer?
"Because," says Henri Nouwen, "in this useless hour in which you do nothing 'important' or 'urgent', you have come to terms with your basic powerlessness...you will find out that your many projects, plans, and obligations become less urgent, crucial, and important and lose their power over you. They will leave you free during your time with God and take their appropriate place in your life."
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| listogthats list and blog put together...okay, I made it up.
Here is another blog consisting of some update lists for you all...
MUSIC I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO: - City and Colour - Death Cab for Cutie (Narrow Stairs) - Flobots - The Glorious Unseen (yes, still)
BOOKS I'VE READ RECENTLY - The Shack (just ordered...on its way) - Simple Church (most recently) - They Like Jesus But Not The Church - Death by Meeting
MOVIES I'VE SEEN RECENTLY (dvd and theater) - There Will Be Blood - Baby Mama - Horton Hears a Who - Semi-Pro (just rented it today, haven't watched it yet)
TV I'M WATCHING A LOT NOW - So You Think You Can Dance - Hell's Kitchen - Heroes (season 1 on DVD)
ANTICIPATED ALBUMS - Coldplay - Mute Math
MUSIC I WANT - Griffin House - Trace Bundy - Trevor Hall - Mogwai
BOOKS I WANT TO READ SOON - Open Mind, Open Heart - Jim and Casper Go to Church - Inner Voice of Love
MOVIES I WANT TO SEE - Step Brother - Black Gold - Expelled
THINGS I WANT TO DO THIS SUMMER - Move into a house - Raft - Camp - Speak at least one place outside the normal - Get 5 non-Christian friends - Start a new journal (thats basically a given)
PLACES I'D LOVE TO SPEAK SOME DAY - Anderson University - All the college and young adult groups in the sacramento area - Wherever you are
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