Every part of me that wars for my attention falls silent before the Lord, my God, my maker.  That thought has been stuck in my head for a long time but I don't know why.  It's that part about every part of me warring inside of me.  I feel like that's how I've been feeling recently.  But I don't want that anymore.  I desire God's peace.  I want to know that my life is in his hands.  I need to remember that he knows the path I am walking on and he knows the bumps along the road and he places them there to teach me lessons.  I know that I have grown up so much just in the past few months.  There have been some pretty hard lessons to learn, but ultimately good.  Like the lesson that I am never alone. God has been teaching me to see his hand in my life even when I feel lonely and misunderstood.  He's teaching me to rely on him instead of other people.  And I've learned that I can.  I can rely on his comfort, his wisdom, his love when everyone else has abandoned me.  It's real.  It's not some figment of my imagination.  It's the realest thing I've ever felt.  I thought I was truly loved by my ex-boyfriend but that pales in comparison to God's love for me and his understanding.  Speaking of the ex-boyfriend, I realized tonight that there are a lot of things I need to apologize for in that relationship.  Hmm...I don't really know how I'm going to do that.  I guess I should pray about it.  Anyways, I guess this is kind of personal stuff to be posting online, but I don't think anyone really reads this (except maybe one or two people).  So yeah.  I don't know what else to say so I'll stop there.  Good night.