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Saturday, May 17, 2008

Steven and I watched "No Place Like Home" and other Neil Cicierega and Ryan Murphy vids, giggling until almost midnight. Posted it here so they can have it later if they want it. I wish it was easier to find stuff on this blog. On Blogger, it's still quite a difficult task to do a search but somewhat easier to reference certain dates or timeframes. I may have to take the time to figure it out. I definitely know I need to take the time to save all of this to disk, I'm just not sure when. Probably after I clean the attic, my summer project, which will be after Summer Camp outside, which will be after we slow down a little at the shop and/or after the damned rain stops.

My sister-in-law had her second mastectomy recently for something they called pre-cancer. That's what they called it the last time, too. Doesn't that seem a little extreme? I'm a little uninformed about doctors and medical procedures, but it seemed to me to be a little radical (no pun intended). I'm not sure what I would do myself though, with something called pre-cancer, because I would guess that cancer would be inevitable? I'm not sure. I think about asking my brother and sister-in-law more about it, but I don't want my curiosity to seem as if I'm questioning or judging their decision. I also am not sure I want to open that door with my brother. Speaking with him on most levels can be really taxing, which is too hard to explain, so I won't bother.

My dad, who I call Pop, or Jim Sr., took me to lunch yesterday at the little cafe where my oldest sister Linda works. She's a registered nurse, but seems to enjoy working here more. The pay is meager, and the drive is far, but she is helping out a friend who is now floating in the ethers, so I think that means a lot to her to continue to support the husband and children who plod on here while working at the coffeehouse.

They started the business a few years ago and I would imagine it must be a dream come true. It's lovely inside, surrounded by art, music and wholesome foods. They just don't seem to get a lot of business. I'm not sure why, but it might have to do with the Christian propaganda they first had lying around when they were getting started. I think they've settled into being regular people with a regular business though. 

Anyhoo, Pop picked me up from work and we travelled to enjoy lunch and tea with my sister while she worked. He told me about his work, he's 73 and still selling real estate sometimes, and after eating, he drove me to a house that he sold last year to a client whose family he has been selling homes to for the last few years. He gave me their entire history and I listened. I talked to Cin about it last night and we wonder if it is just about him telling stories as his life is winding down. I'm just not sure, because sometimes he seems more vital than ever. And his heart is more generous each week that we speak or spend time with him. Sometimes it's like he's getting a second wind, sometimes it's like he's wrapping things up. He appears so youthful, it's hard to recognize him as elderly, but I think I might be in a bit of denial about it all. I resolved last night, Dearest Sister, to pay closer attention to him, to squeeze every last drop out of that ketchup bottle. Remind me.

Theresa and I had lunch this week, like we do. We usually have an hour, but this week we talked for two.  Sharing a spaghetti and meatball, breadsticks, but we each get our own salad. One or the other of us pays, whoever has the money. This week she paid. Thanks TLK :)

Beautiful Boy went to see Opeth last night, I put them up on my player (but this is one of the only really mellow songs of theirs, they are most often growling). He is not returned, yet. Worried, just a bit.

I have more, but no more time. The shower is mine, MINE, MINE


Friday, May 16, 2008

No Place Like Home

Part 1:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHV9TnvHo2A

Part 2:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5qZNmWSciw&feature=related

Part 3:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3D0f84Y5B4&feature=related

Part 4:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JuDq_K0VyY&feature=related


A conversation with a neighbor this evening reminded me of something I thought about this morning on the way to work and wanted to post just to recollect it. His daughter is working and living in Maine at a kind of retreat. I'm not sure the name of the program, but she and a handful of other people spent 6 weeks in rural Maine sleeping in the mountains in tents, learning to gather their own food, etc..

She did this on her own which is really impressive. She worked to pay for it and found the means to get there and when she left recently to come home, the director asked if she would return in a few weeks to help initiate the new group who was coming in. Up to this point, the place where she'd decided she might want to go to Maine, she'd been mostly uncentered and uncertain about what she might want to do with her life... not that it's really necessary to know that, ofcourse, but it's good to, at some point, recognise yourself in the chaos and to know that there is a place for you in the whirling shuffle of things.

I was thinking this morning about the effect on me that comes from being in nature, whether through gardening or journaling, watching, walking or studying. To have learned that I am not the master of it, which I was led to believe in Judeo-Christian teachings, and, to my understanding, is a far cry from the truth, because it separated me from it, physically and psychologically.  As I moved back into more earthy rhythms as an adult, what developed in me was a quiet confidence that comes from realising that I am at home right here in the matter of the planet with a deep, innate connection.. no, not just a connection, it is more than that. It's to walk into the wildness in assurance knowing I am an expected part of it.

The temporary measured existence of me separated from nature and I am negligible and alone, but the smallness of me directly unified with nature, a component of the whole, and I am abundant.

Ok, so this is where Julie Andrews breaks into song people:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LwMFcI71tuQ

Julie Andrews


Thursday, May 15, 2008

Circulatory

A breakneck pace

of a hungry dog feeding on limited marrow

savoring the small bone

A fortune of effortless breathing

but a numbered heartbeat

A thrum of pulse iginiting the sequence

miles of hills and valleys, the careening stream

movement..movement..movement

An epoch, faint gentle hands pushing through the gate

gate after gate after gate

Opening to the next meandering expedition

toward an inevitable grief

A brain synapse reminds of the impermanence

each moment a variation of the last

Tick..tick.. tick...

A going, a return

 


Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Stopping by to say

HI.

Busy week, but not overly so. Well it is, but I'm maintaining my sanity and not taking any of my repressed stress out on my beloveds. Yet.

How are you?



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