hey girls. I'm back!

okay here's what all has happened since I last posted.

I told a couple of my really close friends about my problems...that I had been purging several times every day and even if i didn't eat much...I would purge out of habit.

one of those people that I told turns out to be this -amazing- guy I've grown pretty close to....okay, so he's my boyfriend. I love him so much. I really do.

he has done so much for me...he makes me feel like a goddess. like my weight doesn't matter.

and while he was here I felt so  h a p p y .

but he's gone away for two months in China. it's just...so hard. he's actually only been gone a few days, but the pain of not being able to talk to him hurts more than anything.

I'm slipping back into my old habits. I have been eating NON STOP. I can't control it!

so today I have decided to stay here in my room. I am not going to let myself pig out all day...instead I will do something constructive and support other girls and be helpful.

and drink a gajillion glasses of water

so that basically sums it up!

I've lost some weight at the beginning of summer, only because he and I hung out so much we would forget to eat. heh :]

leave me comments and support! I'm not looking to stop eating alltogether or to make myself sick...I just want to be sane again.

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