| | sup you guys!!!!!!! I know, I know, it's been forever.
but I'm baaaaack.
I'm not gonna mess with throwing up this time (cause I tried it and even if I felt that it worked, it made my skin look beyond shitty) I would rather be fat with perfect skin than skinny with hideous acne.
I weigh.....alot right now. I'm probably getting close to 160 X_X. haven't been that high before.
my self esteem, however, is not at all down the drain. I just really want to be thin is all. Other than that I feel fine :]
gotta drink lots of water and leave the chinese food alone. Or atleast just pick the healthier stuff. I mean I work at the chinese restaurant, and I know damn well what things are good and what things are bad for you, so I'm just gonna go with the big plate of light food, or if I honestly can't stand it, the teeny tiny plate of bad food.
-shrug-
You know, I was gonna try to just stop eating, but that's just so damn hard. (not that losing weight is supposed to be easy) This needs to start off slow, plus I know that my family is going out to breakfast tomorrow morning before my driving test. I would normally order some massive plate of nastiness, but I've made up my mind that I will only have a crepe or two with fruit. crepes can't be so bad, right?
I feel that I can make myself beautiful at this point. My skin isn't blowing up, I'm not obese, and I'm relatively tall and well-proportioned. Granted, I have my trouble spots....but hell, everybody does. and I should just concentrate on working those to my favor! I'm not gonna be the skinny girl with no butt and big boobs. I'll be just the opposite, and I have to learn to live with it.
anywho, hello to everybody! if you need my support or anything, please comment or IM me at ttkayxd
I'm always willing to talk, and I just want everybody out there to know that I support your goals (so long as it's not...you know....past ridiculous)
:D
I LOVE YOU GIRLS
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| | Posted 4/3/2007 11:02 PM - 0 comments
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