i finally got the aforementioned new modem. not much different lor. am feeling quite cheated. i think my house is cursed with sucky internet connection. not to mention i paid for a premium brand. anyone wants to buy a new modem router complete with wifi capabilities? i promise to sell cheap cheap. like cheaper than market price cheap! really.

i am suppose to be sleeping actually. more like i was. until my mom came in and shut my computer. like hello. no privacy ok. computer also she simply shut down. what if i was downloading some important documents? i had loaded all my drama sections ok (yeah they are not important documents but thats not the point). but i was too tired to watch them so i thought i could watch them tomorrow morning when i wake up. but hell there is nothing now. and i have to go through the painstaking process of loading them all over again. ugh. as if you dont know my problem by now. and because i am too angry cos she shut down my computer without my permission, i couldnt sleep and here i am. i foresee a quarrel tomorrow morning.

oh as i was modem shopping yesterday evening, i popped by the mobile phone stalls to check out the price of the mobile that i wanted to buy. and my oh my. i saw my future phone (i was gonna say dream, but its not my dream phone la. i was talked against buying the phone that i really liked but i am happy with the one that i am looking at now. plus its within my budget. ppl like me are too stingy to buy nice expensive phones). in RED. yes, you read me right. in red. OMFGTHEYACTUALLYHAVEITINRED?! (cos it wasnt on the webpage). downside, its AP set and my mom is quite against it. i managed to check out the original set price as well. its only about rm100 difference. which i am willing to pay, but... but... BUT. NO RED LEH. no more in production. so it was like limited edition i think. shit. plus they said they cant source it for me anymore *cries*sulks*. like wth. how can they have such a nice colour but no more in production?! i bloody want a red phone (no pun intended). i would have quietly be contented with the boring colours if i have not seen the red version... but now that i have seen it, i reallyreallyreally want the red one. how?! original versus red. shit la. does anyone know anyone who sells original sony phones or works at sony who can help me source for my red phone? its a K530i btw. thanks. but actually i know i wouldnt get any replies cos most (almost non) of my handful of readers are from asia. they come from the weirdest  (and furthest) of places. but no one from home. or even the same continent. damn weird. hello you people from the furthest of places *waves*.

rant over.

someone please. help me get the red sony ericsson K530i. thank you.

i have a new love .

unfortunately i was busy having fun with him that i forgot to take photos with him .

at silent nights like this, i wish he is here to accompany me . instead of me playing several songs on repeat to kill the silence. even my sister dont want to layan me.

will show you all a photo if i remember to take them the next time i meet up with him. if i am not too busy having fun.

my blog is looking very flat lately.
but i really have not been taking any photos!
its like the moment i left exeter, i left my love for photo taking there as well. i need you yng!!!

i didnt take photos when i was in bangkok, when i was having dinner at zen, with cousins, when i met up with fifi, when i went to jb/singapore, when i met up with jane, when i was providing free manual labour at my aunts sandwich making 'factory', when i was enjoying my chocolate vitasoy, when my mom heartlessly paid someone rm10 just to cut off my papaya tree - i screamed and shouted my heart out at her on this one - something that was done in a matter of seconds , when me and my cousin spiked our orange juice with vodka and both of us got a bit sleepy after that -not the first time. that previous time, we made sangria. omg, we have such a good sangria recipe! the same thing happened  - hahaha, shit i swear i cannot have any bit of alco in the afternoon its either the alco made me sleepy, or i was tired, or maybe her house is just very very nap inducing. and of course when i was enjoying myself with my new love.

bleh. i want to take photos!!!
i wished i took photos to remember these little moments.
i shall be more hardworking and dig out my camera the next time. nothing like photos to forever capture these moments in memory.

bah. i finally loaded all the photos since i was back in exeter when i finished my exams! ugh. long tideous process. but as of now, i have some photos to lace my posts

tea with davina on saturday.
we were there before it got busy and left when the buzz settled down for dinner! i was just glad we werent shooshed out!!!

cant wait for more outings. call me lar people!!!
oh yah, i gained back some weight since i came back! shite. seriously. even my aunt noticed the difference. and its only been 3 weeks! i still have another 11 weeks to go!!!. shit. shit. shit. there goes my 9 months of work wasted in exe.

i have such a happening family.

when one calls to go hang out,

the whole kampung will be there .

i love family outings and they are cool cos i dont have to foot the bill  plus we have tons of laugher, gossip and bullshit. well with the exception when i am the eldest la, thats when i am needed to foot those bills . but they are still mighty fun . my cousins never fail to entertain me.

i just realised i have blogged for about 3 weeks now.
lets just say i have been up and about with things to settle....
alot of things have been going on and i havent really have the time to settle down and start blogging again.
will try to make time as soon as i have settled things.

since arriving back home in pj, all i am experiencing everyday is horrible afternoon headaches without fail. 3 days in a row. and all i want to do in the afternoon is sleep with all i might and trying to evade my mothers naggings. these are one of the many moments i wished i was back home in exeter. internet is so slow i almost grew moss. and when i called streamyx to ask them to upgrade the home subscription, i was told it will be done in 7-10 working days. i almost had a heart attack. and i thought if i have to suffer another 24hrs of this shit, its the end of me. not only that, i suspect my laptop was attacked by some weird virus because i had some problems with windows and java and flash. all good now after viciously backup-ping my files and such and had it reformatted to factory settings. imagine my pain.

will be back with some updates of my last few days in exeter before i came back home after i clean my room which is in an absolute mess and as my mom and dad call it 'dogs shed?/pig farm' and conquer back some room space from my sister.

to people who are in kl, gimme a shout out when you want to meet, or i will get in touch after i am done settling down. btw, i am still using the same mobile number. ta.

i hate you,
i hate you,
i hate you.

you, for you always trying to inflict emotional pains in me. but you know what? i am proud to say that this time i dont feel the pain. be it because i have totally forgotten about it, not wanting to 'lose' to you, or simply because i am doing a good job pushing it away and hiding it. but i have to say i will go with the former.
you, for you always say that i conflict myself.
you, for you always make me doubt myself.
you, for you always question me.
you, for you always make guesses and talk me into spilling things i dont intend to.
you, for you never fail to make me defend myself in every way be it humourous or momentous.
you, for you always make fun of me.
you, for you never fail to call me lansi while you are the lansi one.
you, for you almost never fail to make me laugh at your lame words, sentences and replies.
you, for you once in a blue moon send me a text with just my name and expect a reply.
you, for you never fail to make me reply your nothing to reply texts simply because if not i will be the lansi one.
you, for you never fail to make that much needed small call when i am in distress and self doubt.
you, for you always advise me.
you, for you allow me to talk things out with myself (and you).
you, for you always provide that much needed listening ear to my peasy stupid self doubt and sometimes self made distress.
you, for simply being there/here when i just needed someone.

but in all i have to say a big thank you.
so, thank you, you.
bah, looks like i dont hate you so much after all.

p.s. i swear if you ever shun me after you read this and knowing my history, i will hunt you down.