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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 23:23:51 GMT

Alright. So someone please tell me that I'm right here.

I don't understand how people can claim to think a certain way and believe in something, but then agree to disagree. I can understand with the small things in life, but not the important ones. If you truely have something that matters to you... And no, I can't continue being friends with someone that disagrees with me on an important issue. "Every has their own opinion" or whatever... But if you logically think about, if it's related to an issue based on fact, not opinion, there IS ONE RIGHT ANSWER. There is a right and a wrong. And I can't justify continuing a friendship with someone that is so wrong and in such a way. I cannot tolerate being cordial with someone who thinks that "freedom and democracy" are what it's all about. I'm sorry, but I don't think having an economy with cheap gas is important enough to kill innocent people for. Life is sacred. ALL LIFE. No exceptions. I don't see how someone can claim to be a Christian and support such policies. Say that they would never vote for a female candidate for president because "the Bible says its wrong, and says men are supposed to be superior to women."

A woman would be just as qualified for president as a man. The only thing that separates male from female is a penis. I don't think anyone should be chosen for president on the basis of whether or not they have a penis attached to them. I don't know about everyone else, but I think using my brain. Not my genitals. I don't consult my vagina to find my answers to decisions.

And to say that women are made weaker (emotionally and psychologically) than men. I think that reflects YOUR CHARACTER as the one saying it. I don't need to run to my man for support for everything I do. I don't need a protector. I am capable on my own. If you can't say that, maybe you need to take a good hard look at YOUR life and yourself as a person. Being a woman is not a handicap. I am a PERSON, equal in capability to any other person; male or female.

And you wouldn't vote for Hillary Clinton soley on the basis of her having stayed by Bill after he cheated on her. If you can claim to be so devoted to the Bible, how can you support WAR?! "Thou shalt not kill" is just as much as a commandment as "Thou shalt not commit adultery." They are COMMANDMENTS. Not guidelines. There's no exceptions. There's no little asterisk that says in small print "only in certain situations." Love thy neighbor as thyself.

I can't excuse hypocrisy.

I can't help but abhor anyone who thinks that cheap gas and cheap luxury MATERIAL GOODS are worth it. I just can't stand the thought of a friendship with someone who thinks that way. In my mind, they may as well be an accomplice to murder, not the kind of person I want to be friends with. I dont see how anyone who claims to passionately believe in any important issue can suspend their core values in such a situation. I try to be open minded, but on some things, I don't think it's morally right to "live and let live." Ican't, and I won't.

Of course, if you're the TYPE of person I can't stand, and you hold the set of BELIEFS that I think are incredibly wrong and immoral...how can I help but to hate you?

Why doesn't anyone understand this?

Don't tell me not to be upset over it either. I feel passionately about it. Of course it will upset me. I'ts going to hurt me. I have a heart and soul. Period.

How decieved, ignorant, blind, propagandized, doctrinized, ethnocentric, greedy, and weak you are. I wish you could see what I see.

Friday, August 04, 2006

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 23:45:32 GMT

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im so bored of waiting. the highlight of my day is getting the mail. u should see me. really. i'm worse than that blues clues freak. :(

somebody call me and ask me to hang out. :( anybody. i'm a friendless loser. and very bored.

edit: i'm so bored im SINGING ALONG to a JEWEL CD

edit #2: and might i add, i'm sounding damn good

edit #3: thank buddha for Freecell

edit #4: "pleeeeeeeease dooooooon't bring me flooowers. They only whisper the sweeeeeeet things yooooou say..." lalalalala. my poor parental units.

edit #5: i woke up at 5:30 in the AM today. i was bored.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 00:02:36 GMT

In response to crazy-flippin-adam-hayes, the-koolest-person-in-antietam,-altho-im-not-quite-sure-if-its-still-antietam-or-not-but-he's-still-the-koolest :

#1) "and it'll seem more like a song and less like its math......" i dunno quite exactly what that means or if its a lyric or what, but here's my thoughts. math is icky. calculated, cut, solid, black and white. strict boundaries. i took ap calc this year....math is a brutal viscious weapon weilded by innocent looking geeky teachers against ur unsuspecting bystanding GPA. a song on the other hand.... free. open . emotional. releasing, mesmorizing, reminiscing, inspiring, evoking.influencing, freeing. fluid. changing. my interpretation? it = life. life will seem more like a song, and less like its math... where its math is the reality of life, the hard harsh parts behind it that are glazed over by the song. but, my question to this statement is when? it seems as if there's a condition involved here. "if...., then it'll seem more ...." or "when you....., then it'll seem....." so answer me in my comments. fill in the blank of my if/when/how "and it'll seem more like a song and less like its math"

#2) "which is mores extravagent your body or your senses yourrr..............." right. so... im not sure if this is an either/or question or if its supposed to continue and im supposed to answer with anything thats mine...... but, at any rate i'll answer it both ways. if im choosing between my body and my senses, which is the most extravagant? hm.... well... dictionary.com says : "extravagant =

Given to lavish or imprudent expenditure
Exceeding reasonable bounds
Extremely abundant; profuse
Unreasonably high; exorbitant:
Straying beyond limits or bounds; wandering.
Unrestrained
Recklessly wasteful

so..... in that case, i'd say my body most of the time.. however, where would my body be if not for my senses??? i don't know the answer. this is a goood question, so that's you alls task #2, comment ur answer. ;) <3always, sunni

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 01:51:27 GMT

finally done with high school. . . graudation was weird. knowing full well that that was the last time i'd see or speak to certain people. ever. but still saying, "we'll keep in touch, i'll c ya around" knowing its a lie. i'll really only miss a few. i wish i had gotten to kno better. was also weird getting so many hugs.... dallas moved in.....finally got his liscense. working on the whole job./car thing. im satisfied for now. my dance recital was the 17th. that was uh... interesting. wow, we did bad. u couldn't tell really tho. i felt so self-conscious the whole damn time. it didn't help having ppl tell me i look like a 12 yr old and refusing to believe me when i tell them im 18. fuck. i hate that. but i understand. i do look like a fucking 12 yr old when im not wearing much. my orientation thing for college was weds and thurs.... was fun.i think im gonna actually like KU a lot more than i thought i would. i had so much fun @ orientation. we played this game called huggy bear,.... beware the misnomer, its totally survival of the fittest, every person for themself. i sustained a pinched muscles, and multiple bruises. much fun tho. it was addicting. this one chick who's the captain was trying to recruit me for the women's rugby team. haha. sounded good until she was like, "and then we get totally smashed/wasted after the games" lol . that's not for me. im glad im not dorming. #1) 5th floor, no AC. im not usually the AC type but wow. even I was warm for once. #2) im not that much of a 24/7 party person. i have my days of solitude and silence. i'd rather snuggle up in bed with an old-attic-smelling book than go to a bar and get drunk and get hit on by skeezy frat dudes. eeew. and i saw an old friend, matt, while i was at orientation. apparently he's the editor of the college newspaper. shaun koch was there too, and it was high school all over again hearing them try to attempt his last name. haha. there was even a piano in the dorm lobby. :) and ::::::KU has a cycling club!!!:::::::: im so pysched. 2 months...i can't wait. my graduation party was saturday. it miraculously didn't rain except early in the morning. my madre was freaking out majorly. nobody showed. practically. only like 50 ppl mayb. so that sucked. we were expecting around 200. .....

BUT LYDIA WAS THERE, SO THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS

so there's a ton of food in my fridge right now. like crazy i tell ya. i have a serious phobia of my stomach exploding. (really) so... i got like $800... i hope i get more cards in the mail or something from the ppl who didn't come to the party. i was hoping for more. :( lol . my cousin kara got like close to $3000 when she graduated..... lisa was betting $4000, my aunt barb betted $3500 and my mom said mayb around $2000... . i got ripped offf. i kno it shouldn't b about the money, but c'mon. everyone knows graddy parties are about the money when it comes down to it, besides, its fucking college, i could really use it. makes me feel like graduation didn't change anything, im still the forgotten one, and the one that doesn't fit in with the rest of the fam...... so that felt shitty. none of my friends came.

EXCEPT LYDIA BECAUSE SHE FLIPPIN AWESOME LIKE THAT

it was me, dallas, my cousin allie, lydia and we called dan borgman to come because he's kool like that. im such a friend-less loser. :( .....steve came tho!! :) he blew off his gf and came to party with me. that made my day. and i guess it was good to catch up on news with ppl and fam that i don't see that much. and my aunt wen got totally drunk, which is always good. i love her so much. and my aunt barb and lisa. those gals make me laugh. i left my party around 10 ish to go pick up mat and then we (mat, me, dallas) all went to kodo's party then. ya kno, to say goodbye b4 he goes off and dies. i gave hima hug and told him not to get killed. haha. i was hoping his party would be fun, but it was mostly dead by the time we got there. o well. so if anyone's still having a good party soon, tell me. i will come. :) so... i think im gonna start doing some more freelance writing. . . cash is good. i should really just b a stripper or something, lots more $$$. lol. but it'd be weird if i saw someone i knew from hs or college. that would be really awful. prolly the only reason i wouldn't. hahah. so hung out with mat with one t on sunday. we all went to jam at cody's for a bit. much fun. so i was working at some stables for a lil while, in exchange for riding lessons but Old-Lady-Saggy-Boobies* was kinda weird, some i'm not doing that anymore. (*thats not her real name, but i don't kno wt it really was. she told me like 3 different name 3 different times. i think she was schizo) but atleast i got some nice toned arm muscles. :) i wish it would stop raining. i desperately want to ride my bike. im excited for the upcoming saturdays. good parties coming up. i can't wait. my aunt mim's 4th o july party, storie and greg's party, my cousin kim's graduation, and tod n kim's annual bash - - bonfire, fireworks, pools, food, bands, dancing, usual stuff, camping --im so psyched for that one. they charge $20 admission, have parking, wristbands for liquor if u turn ur keys in.... lol...... its so great. i can't wait. so i should go to bed or sumthing... no one cares wt the hell i say anyways. g'nite all. if anyone wants to be my friend, call me, call my cell, email me, send me a letter....(i'm NOT pathetic, am i?? lol) just lonely. <3 sunni

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Wed, 10 May 2006 21:52:56 GMT

fuck everything.

Monday, April 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 21:04:06 GMT

spring break was good. im looking forward to vaca to virginia beach n dallas moving in. my book is now available to read to whomever is the first person to tell me "i love frog poop." biking..... what else is there to say? im happy. call my cell. drop me a line. <3sunni

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 02:30:21 GMT

hey. im updating. not much is new tho. thinking alot about my summer plans..... i want a kool job. im getting scared, money blows. if anyone is interested, i will be your MAKE-PRETEND whore...as in you pay me $200 and PRETEND that u actually paid me for something. hehe :)~ aside from that, im counting down to spring break, and then finally, salvation aka graduation. my mom's throwing a prom. since tics are like $60. but its just gonna b a couple of my couples. hah. i crack myself up. anyways still gonna be fun. had some freaky dreams last week. old fat guys yelling "HEY!" hah. ask me and i'll tell ya the whole thing if ya really want. other than that, i am a shitty shitty shitastic friend. but all my friends r still amazing and wonderfully nice to me, more than i'll ever deserve. my dog has taken to sleeping with me. my allergies aren't slaughtering my weakling ass yet... (hoorah!) speaking of such, im thoroughly dissatisfied with ass lately. i can't wait to go biking, i wish my allergy medicine would kick in fully so i can. and i wish the weather would get warm .. again..... did u dudes and dudettes check out the flippin snow this morn' ? ridiculous i say, ridiculous! so.... yea.... im done. g'nite mates. <3sunni

Monday, March 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 23:20:07 GMT

HAPPY SPRING!! i had a geat weekend. caught up on some VERY much needed sleep hobo-style. :) hehe. doing clockwork orange for senior paper... read it b4 but i dont remember if i ever finished it all the way. im in a very reading mood today. i think im about to go on a reading binge. and perhaps fasting this week. (the remainder atleast) im psyched about a colin powell speech march 30 @ KU 8pm. :) :) :) i made a biggg list of books to read today. i might be a PR Coordinator with the parks department but i think the position might b already taken..... but if not, maybe i will be the "Dance Coordinator" not as kool.... but its easy. just teaching some lil'er kids to do a dance routine. i could do that. im psyched about the fashion show, altho anxious and a lil frenzied, but still excited. u all should attend. amelia chaney is amazing. u all NEED to go to uptown espresso sometime soon to see her art. i think its still there. i feel so untalented. meant to go biking today.... but ah well. sunrise tomorrow : 6:05 AM sunset: 6:16 PM. can we say zzoooom? ah. mayb i shouldn't get my hopes up, but we'll see tomorrow morning. :) my seamonkeys were born at 10:58 this morning. :) i saw one today. its so itty bitty tiny. NEAT! :) im uber tres excito. my email was being retardo today. ugh :( anyways. well im gonna go work on some stuff. <3sunni

edit: i got the following email from a family member as a forward. i can't fucking believe that other ppl actually are this damn ignorant. kill me. and incase its not clear, im just copying this here for reference, I DO NOT AGREE WITH ANY OF THE FOLLOWING. its just here as was sent to me.

>DOUBLE AMEN
>>AMEN ANDY ROONEY !
>>
>>Right on, Andy Rooney!
>>
>>Andy Rooney said on "60 Minutes" a few weeks back:
>>
>>
>>I don't think being a minority makes you a victim of anything
>>except numbers. The only things I can think of that are truly
>>discriminatory are things like the United Negro College Fund, Jet
>>Magazine, Black Entertainment Television, and Miss Black America.
>>Try to have things like the United Caucasian College Fund, Cloud
>>Magazine, White Entertainment Television, or Miss White America;
>>and see what happens...Jesse Jackson will be knocking down your
>>door.
>>
>>Guns do not make you a killer. I think killing makes you a killer.
>>You can kill someone with a baseball bat or a car, but no one is
>>trying to ban you from driving to the ball game.
>>
>>I believe they are called the Boy Scouts for a reason, that is why
>>there are no girls allowed. Girls belong in the Girl Scouts! ARE
>>YOU LISTENING MARTHA BURKE?
>>
>>I think that if you feel homosexuality is wrong, it is not a
>>phobia, it is an opinion.
>>
>>I have the right "NOT" to be tolerant of others because they are
>>different, weird, or tick me off.
>>
>>When 70% of the people who get arrested are black, in cities where
>>70% of the population is black, that is not racial profiling, it is
>>the Law of Probability.
>>
>>I believe that if you are selling me a milkshake, a pack of
>>cigarettes, a newspaper or a hotel room, you must do it in English!
>>As a matter of fact, if you want to be an American citizen, you
>>should have to speak English!
>>
>>My father and grandfather didn't die in vain so you can leave the
>>countries you were born in to come over and disrespect ours.
>>
>>I think the police should have every right to shoot your sorry a--
>>if you threaten them after they tell you to stop. If you can't
>>understand the word "freeze" or "stop" in English, see the above
>>lines.
>>
>>I don't think just because you were not born in this country, you
>>are qualified for any special loan programs, government sponsored
>>bank loans or tax breaks, etc., so you can open a hotel, coffee
>>shop, trinket store, or any other business.
>>
>>We did not go to the aid of certain foreign countries and risk our
>>lives in wars to defend their freedoms, so that decades later they
>>could come over here and tell us our constitution is a living
>>document; and open to their interpretations.
>>
>>I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.
>>
>>I know pro wrestling is fake, but so are movies and television.
>>That doesn't stop you from watching them.
>>
>>I think Bill Gates has every right to keep every penny he made and
>>continue to make more. If it ticks you off, go and invent the next
>>operating system that's better, and put your name on the building.
>>
>>It doesn't take a whole village to raise a child right, but it does
>>take a parent to stand up to the kid; and smack their little
>>behinds when necessary, and say "NO!"
>>
>>I think tattoos and piercing are fine if you want them, but please
>>don't pretend they are a political statement. And, please, stay
>>home until that new lip ring heals. I don't want to look at your
>>ugly infected mouth as you serve me French fries!
>>
>>I am sick of "Political Correctness." I know a lot of black people,
>>and not a single one of them was born in Africa; so how can they be
>>"African-Americans"? Besides, Africa is a continent. I don't go
>>around saying I am a European-American because my great, great,
>>great, great, great, great grandfather was from Europe. I am proud
>>to be from America and nowhere else
>>
>>I PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO THE FLAG, OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA,
>>AND TO THE REPUBLIC, FOR WHICH IT STANDS, ONE NATION UNDER GOD,
>>INDIVISIBLE, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL!
>>
>>
>>I was asked to send this on if I agree or delete if I don't. It is
>>said that 86% of Americans believe in God. Therefore, I have a very
>>hard time understanding why there is such a problem in having "In
>>God We Trust" on our money and having "God" in the Pledge of
>>Allegiance. Why don't we just tell the 14% to Shut Up and BE
>>QUIET!!!
>>
>>If you agree, pass this on, if not delete. .
>>
>>I AGREE

wow....... just kill me ...... ignorance.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 23:25:09 GMT

soooooooo tired. its been so long, i feel like im gonna pass out from exhaustion. i shouldn't be driving in this condition. :-/ <3 sunni

*im not brushing my teeth until i kno how many cals are in toothpaste

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 00:32:20 GMT

aloha lovelies. so. im updating since i haven't done that in a while. so. . . apparently like a million of ya'll have told me that "i voted for u for the most unique for the senior bests" ... . yea ... about that. haha. isn't unique just a nice way of saying weird? eh. whatever. i always thought i'd be voted the biggest procrastinator or sumthing. haha . mayb most likely to leave topton and never come back. but i guess unique wouldn't b so bad. thanks guys. so... my dad is loosing his job. they cut him back to 3days a weeks right now and basically said that he's only gonna have a job for about 3 more weeks at most. kutztown university here i come. :( eh. i dunno. w/e. im scared. mayb everything happens for a reason tho. so thats my update i hope u all enjoy it. haha. not much else is new. except im working on a 6pack. hahaha. ill kick jesus's ass anyday. :) <3333sunni

p.s. my cousin allie is cooler than u are!!