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| Wow I haven't been this tired for a long time!!! It's crazy. I'm just
happy I have the next two days off! Yay! And tomorrow is payday but
more importantly it is Color Guard!!!!! YAY!!!!! *dances* So yeah,
here's how life has been for the past couple of days.
First
off, they've been exhausting. Lol. But that doesn't mean they've been
bad. Other then work, I haven't done too much. Been playing Fire Emblem
for Gamecube, that's pretty fun. I've been texting Megan, Alex, and
Nick a lot, so that's awesome! Between mainly those three, I've racked
up at least 800 text messages! Lol. Thank goodness I have unlimited
everything, or I'd be screwed!!! Lol. But last night has probally been
the highlight of the week so far.
I got off at 5:30 and then
went to Julie's and hung out with her. I went over there at 6 and
didn't go home till like 10:30 lol. Just hanging with her reminds me of
what used to be. I mean, I know that her and I still have something,
but she's with another guy, so that sucks for me, lol. But hey, she's
happy, so in some wierd way, it makes me happy. But the guy that she's
with is a lucky guy.
On the hand of who I like, it never
fails that the ones I do live far away!!! Her name is Megan and she
lives by Pine Creek. Met her through Winter Guard (yet another reason I
love Guard, I met a lot of cuties!!!) But yeah, there is the distance
factor. x.x/// I don't want to get in another long distance
relationship, because in the end I always get hurt. So I know it's
easier that I don't go there. So yeah....sucks
Then there is
another factor that I've been thinking about A LOT!!! I don't wanna
talk about it too much here, because I'm not fully sure yet. Some
people already know what it's about, like Julie. But yeah, I think I
know what my decision is going to be, but I'm not sure.
Last
night I had a dream, and I actually remember it! It deals with what I
mentioned in the last paragraph, so yeah. It was a good dream, I woke
up all happy and stuff. It was wierd, because the person I was with,
well we haven't talked much. It was wierd. What makes me wonder about
it though, is that I remembered it crystal clear. Like every little
detail! And usually when I do....they come true! Wierd I know, and some
people don't believe it and all, but I am a little physic, lol. So
yeah.
Well that's about it! So yeah, I'm out for now, I'll post again later!
Much love
-=Seth=- | | |
| Not really, but still. I'm used to working 20
hours a week and this week I'm bumped up to 32 hours a week. I'm not
mad or anything, I'm really happy. It's really gonna give me some
backing to pay my cell phone bill for a while if I don't get a new job.
I'm hoping to get on at Safeway, but I dunno. I'm waiting for them to
call me and stuff, so yeah.
So yeah, besides working, life has
been great. Colorguard has started and that's awesome. Our next meeting
is this Thursday which I'm going to be able to go to!!!! I'm so happy
about that!!! ^_^ It's only for weapons and that makes it that much
cooler!!! Geoff is going to be there to help teach us some stuff so
that also adds to the awesomeness!!! Lol. So yeah, that's what I'm
looking forward to for this week! That and payday of course! The cell
phone took all of my money! Yuck, but it's worth it!
Talkin
about the phone, I'm extremly glad that I have unlimited everything!
I've had it now for like three days and I've already sent and recieved
300 text messages!!! Crazyness!!! But it's all good!
Time for some suckyness... I'm suspicious of my mom for the time being.... I think she might
be seeing him again. I pray to God that she's not, but here's why. It
started last night, the suspicion. A cop dude called at midnight and I
took the phone to her and I listened to them talk. I heard her say
something like "No, I didn't call him" So I was like "hmm..... Please
no....." After she hung up I asked her what that was about and she
wouldn't tell me. She kept saying to got to bed and stuff... So yeah.
Then the house phone rang at three am under a "security screen" I
answered and then whoever it was hung up. (Pretty sure it's demon) So
then the smorning I asked her about it and she claims that all she did
was call and tell Edna (demon's mom) that demon owes her $3000 dollars
for all the stuff he made her buy. (Complete bullshit, she shouldn't of
bought it in the first place. Don't get me wrong, I know he played a
huge part in the purchases, but she shouldn't of been so stupid.) So
then I go to work and when I get off she brings me home and says she's
going out for a while. I have no clue where she went, couldn't of been
bingo because I got off at eight and it starts at like seven or seven
thirty... I dunno, but I'm just hoping and praying that she's not
seeing him......
So yeah, that's about it, ttyl!!
-=Seth=-
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| Well, lemme start this off with the fact that I have to go to court. I have
to go or else I go to jail, simple as that, lol. But yeah, it's not
against me so no worries there. I get to go to testify against him.
Finally I will get to voice my feelings on everything that has been
going on. Finally my words will viciously attack him. Finally. And
demon, if you are reading this like you did last time, my time to
strick at you has come, and I will not let it go to
waste, so prepair yourself. I will not allow you or anyone else to beat
on my own flesh and blood like you did. I will make sure you regret it.
So yeah, now that that's over, lemme move on to the subject of my
recent choices. Yes, I will be moving towards being straight, I've
gotten questions on that. I'm sorry to those who think that it's
bullshit or whatever, but it is my decision, so back off. I'm also
sorry to those that are hurt by my decision. But it's just how I feel,
I mean, I'm not going to lie to myself or to anyone else just for the
sake of not hurting people. I mean, I hate the fact that I am hurting
people, I always do, but there really isn't anything I can do about it
now...
Now don't get me wrong or anything, I'm not forcing this on myself.
It's just happening because I just realized that it's just not for me.
Sorry Aara, for confusing you!!!
But yeah, that's about it for now, I guess. Soooooo I shall talk to you all later!
-=Seth=- | | |
| Wow, I haven't written on here in forever!!! But yeah, I'm gonna work
on it so from now on when ever I post a blog on myspace, I'll post it
on here too, ok? But here's today~
Today has been really good. Started off slow, with my mom yelling down
at me that she got her job (I knew she would). So that was interesting.
Then we went and got an oil change and I watched my mom get in a bitch
fight with the bitch working there. I looked over at this teen girl
watchin and mouthed "Wow..." so that was interesting as well. Then we
came home and nothing really happened.
So then I got online
and Julie and I started talking. Then she ended up coming over and we
talked for a while. Then she said she wanted to go and try and get a
game from her brother who was spending the night at his friends. I
decided to go with her cause I was bored and wanted to hang out with
her more. So we went and she didn't get it back, which is good for me
cause if she did I wouldn't be talkin to her right now, lol. But then
we went to the park for a little. Then we went to Safeway cause I was
out of soda, lol. After I got my soda (grape, yum!!!) I saw some energy
drinks. Julie pointed out the Rockstar one and I got it. Omg it is so
good and it works rather well! I'm really hyper. But then I walked her
home and I came home.
But yeah, I bet you're wondering what I
decided tonight... Well, I was just thinking about it for a while now,
and just talking with Julie and stuff made me decide, I'm not really
into guys anymore. Lemme explain
I have messed around with
guys, yeah, that's given. I was never really sure if it was for me or
not. But it took me to go "all the way" to realize that it just really
isn't for me. I just, didn't really like it. Now don't get me wrong,
I'm not suddenly going to go "I'm straight now!" Cause I know it takes
time to change. But by the end of summer, I highly am expecting me to
be straight. I just have always liked girls a lot more. So yeah, I'll
be changing over the summer!
So yeah, that's that I guess.... What do you think?
-=Seth=- | | |
| Hey guys, sorry it's been awhile since I've posted, but here's what's all that's happened.
I did leave my house and lived with Crystal for a week. It was nice,
but way different from what my usual life style is. I've very thankful
for her and her family and all they did.
I came back home on Monday. It was alright, my mom and
<i>him</i> went to bingo, so I was home with Kathleen and
the pets. I still can't believe that she is so fucking (excuse my
french) stupid and going back to him. I had a <i>long</i>
talk with her about it, and I explained the whole abusive relationship
that she is in. I know that it affected her somewhat because she was
almost in tears. I don't know if it's because she knows I am right or
if it's because she finally realized that I'm no longer a kid and I
know how the world works and could make it on my own. Hopefully I'll be
able to have her come to her sences and give him the boot. But she
knows that I'm not going to take any of his crap ever. If they get in a
fight, I will be there to tell him to get the hell out. I
<b><i><u>will not</b></i></u> let
him hurt her again.
I had the AMI last night and it was great. Unarmed did amazing and I
was lucky enough to be part of it! I got an award and a metal from The
Military Order of the World Wars!!!! It was so amazing!!!! Yet another
great AMI!!!
I just got back from a job interview from Albertsons!!! I am positive I
got the job cause they're having me go in for a drug test tomorrow!
I'll be starting off at $6.81 (wierd amount, lol) which is over a
dollar more then when I was getting at McDonalds ($5.75) so that's
great! I'll be getting at least 20 hours a week, so that's cool too! I
think it'll be a great job!
So yeah, I guess life is ok. I mean, it won't ever be better until
<i>he's</i> gone, but it's still ok. My relationship life
is going fine as well. There are a couple of people who I'm crushing
on, so that's cool. But I'm just gonna sit back and see what happens,
I'm in no rush to get with anyone! ^^
Much love guys,
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