XolilbabiJenxo: ..just take the chance, your gonna get hurt in life..thats just how love is..but its better to have loved and been hurt than to have never loved at all.

i lovee jennifer velloza with all my heart...
good thing u actually got hot..thankgod u dont look like u did in 7th grade or i doubt i would be able to be friends with an ugly motha like ureself...= )

haha i lovee you..peace out cubscout..one lolol

wow what a day, jesus, did i even go to class?? lol...nahh i just skipped russian physics and gym basically but like went to the end of gym. Wow seriously i was really upset like the entire day about something with person a but like im not going to get into that because i'd rather not to respect this person's privacy. But like okay mrs. dybdal had me call person a and we talked for like 2 periods straight or sumthing like that and it was just an amazing conversation because it was the first time in awhile that we actually sat down and talked about things and it was just really good, for the both of us, i believe. So yeahh i wont tell you what its bout either lol sorry privacyy but seriously i just have a really good feeling about us, or maybe its wishful  thinking, i dont know ill let you know after i call them tonight. Wow im seriously like still shocked by all of this like the entire day yesterday i was depressed as fuck and today also like during the first couple of periods i couldnt like do anything but think about person a hoping they were okayy. Nothing really else happened..I got  a 92 on my report card which is good i think...my mom was like wow good job lol but she was being sarcastic because is ne thing good enough for her anywayy??..um i dont know im just really mixed with my emotions right now..i gues they willl be confirmed tonight..

untill then im guna go..i hav to go eat...(more) lol
i'll catch you laterr...
i lovee you

whenn happiness is based on liess...

you cant wait...
stop expecting change hes just a lost cause that your waiting on. Take a look around you can have anyone so leave undeserving him. It only hurt, at first but then you'll find someone that will give you evertything you want, try not to go running back to him.

and im not sure that your sure of anythinggg....
anymoree.

thanks for waiting this long to show yorueself
cause now that i can see you, i dont think your worth a second glance.

so its safe to say that we've been here before,
heart torn out, down for the count and still come back for more...

this lesson is learned too well though
only unlearned by the time your wounds have healed...

time to say enough is enough. You'd be so better off.
You love him, but tough cause its not comming back from him.

dont let it go to your head
boys like you are dime a dozen
your a touch, overrated. . .
but these grass stains on my knees
they wont mean a thing

well okay today was the best day of my life lol. So todayy was my model searchh thing day at the mall and we went, me dayna jenn and josephh that it. so im waiting on linee and juss looking att all the people walk trying to figure out what im guna do and okay so i get up on the runway and i have to fucking walk in front of the wholee mall staringg at me lool. So i did it but i was bad lol i never walked on a runway before and i was staring at my feet and i was soo nervous and it all jus came at once and i was just really nervous so i didnt win. They announce the winners at 6:00 so im waiting there with dayna and jenn and joe and then these kids from tennesse start talking to us. Wow let me tell you people i have actually found the person i am supposta be with. But gues what (person b) we'll call them lol..person b lives in tennesse...heellooo? am i stupidd..i fall for person b who livess in tenneeseeeeeE??? i swear to god this is my newest favorite state. so person b and i are talking and wow suchh eye contact and suchh vibes and wow it was rele awesome and person b won and so i didnt and then i was rele upset but happy for person b. So i go to person b's friend and give them my screen name and im like jus giv it to ure friend and the girls are like okkayy suree of coursee...so then we see person b again and person b goes to say goodbye to all of uss and omg person b stared me strAight in the eye lolol it was suchh a penetraiting look but suchh emotion was there and now person b is in jersey with their cousin, visiting, and then person b leaves for tennesse after the big show on saturday and now i rele dont know what to do. How could i fall for someone who lives so far away????? ahhhh! Now i rele just want to be able to talk to person b online (by the way person b imed me already once they got home seriously i got home and like 2mins later person b imed me and i was all happy which i havent been for awhile) but u kno once one door closes another opens, but this door opened to fucking across the fucking united states lolol. I feen to like talk with person b online and then ughh person b gavee me their numberr but now i had to go fucking lose it and now person b is guna be like wow he dosent like me and noww im rele madd because all i wana do is talk with person b on the fone tonight for like a long time and like seriously every night wen they leavee and online and then ugh to build the suspense until next time person b comes here...ughhhhhhh why doess everything havee to be so complicatingggggggggg...oh and person b wants to go to college in new york and ught thats soo amazing even thought im prob. not guna go to school here..but still ok..im done i cant tlk bout person b ne more because seriously i fell for person b the minute we started talking because ughhhh peerson b is soooooooo niceee like amazing and sooooooooo cute like person b is rele like absolutly perfect.

fucikingg tennessee..why must u be soo far awayyyy??? = (

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Currently Playing Dirty Sexy Knights in Paris By Audiovent see related

heyy all happy easter..

im eating like madddd choc. and im likee gettin sickk u havv no idea lol. I jus finishedd watchin the titanic which is an awesome movie and ok i know im a pussy but it was rele good since i havent seen it in awhile..soo today was an awesome day because i finally found my gay best friend. lol dayna is having a field day withh all this gayness she dosent know what to do with her self lolol. Im in suchh a good mood u havv no ideaa. I had a big ap bio test to study for today so that took like 4 hours and then i drank soooo muchh coffee its sad...updated my xY some more..and then came online where i am right now..i know pretty boring but it put me in a good mood for sure. I lovee riane soo mcuh..shes awesomee..i dont know where that came from..im jus tlkin to her right now and ugh ure soo amazing i absolutely loveeeeeeeeee thiss girl.

wow i rele dont feel like writing ne more..i cant wait for swimming because i rele am gaining soooo much weight..i think im going to go running s0on because i need to let out some anger.

i believe that maturity is startign to set in with me and embed itself into my attitude and personlaity..heres why. OKay so today in church i was of course not paying attention because i tend to lose track of time and thought as i sit in church, aas do most people. and as im sitting there, theres this little girl and she turns around and she looks at me straight in the eye and is standing there for a good 5 mintues jus standing there until her mom motions her to move from eye contact with me. but as she stands there looking at me in the eye, i dont see some kid looking up at an older kid i see a girl, a daughter i see her like in a couple of years, i see the person she is going to be become and the person she is going to wish she was. I came to the realization that i do want a daughter(son) and i want someone thats part of me..i want someone thats part of my life..thats parrt of me and i relaized that, that might not happen for me and might never happen.i dont want to adopt and care for a child not my own, although if put in that circumstance i would them as my own, but having a child that is part of u and that u created and that will look up to you for advice and that will always be by ure side relying on you for the smallest things and in your eyes u see him or her as the most important asset to your life. If everything came down from underneath you, u will always have this one constant thing, this person who will always make u smile, no matter what age..and this person who will always make u proud no matter how many times they may fail.

maturity is a bitch lol i rele think its wierd that i have feelings like this maybe its because i feen for someone of my own to be with and hold hands with and jus have in my life as the love of my life..but i dont..so i will always look for that one person who gets me and someone wants me for me and will always be there to support me wen i fall. i want someone who i wont have to chase and some who likes to be fuckign liked..

fuckk you, you little shit