I will be back until I feel I have lost the amount of weight I wanted.

Thank you for all the comments and all the warm and thoughtful e-mails. You guys mean a lot to me. A lot of you e-mailed me and asked me some questions so I'll answer some of them before I leave.

I'm 5'7. My highest weight (before ana) was 130. I was toned and healthy due to my tennis training schedule. I competed internationally and turned pro so I had to eat to win. Once I became a purging anorexic (you restrict & purge what little you eat) I weighed 93 pounds with a BMI of 14.6. After fainting a gazillion times, I was forced into the hospital. Tennis stopped for me. I couldn't compete so I didn't get any prize money and my endorsements stopped. My tennis coaches agreed if I gained enough weight and my BMI was healthy, I could come back. So, I gained the weight, was discharged from the hopsital, started tennis again. Ana never left me and now it's worse than ever. I have stopped playing tennis because I don't have the strength anymore because I have stopped eating.

I want to weigh 50 pounds. As of right now, my scale says I'm 90 pounds (lower than my hospitalization) I have 40 pounds to lose until I'm 50. It's going to take a lot of hard work and focusing to reach my goal weight. Right now, my back is hurting because of the lack of nutrients and so I always have to hunch over. I can't sit for a long time because there's no meat on my butt. My head is constantly throbbing. I'm constantly feeling faint.

Inspite of the fainting, hurting, and pain, I love ana.

Because

I LOVE BONES. I LOVE TO RUN MY BONY FINGERS OVER EACH AND EVERY BONE!!!

Please continue to e-mail me and let me know how each and every one of you is doing!! Stay strong, and ANAs & MIAs, please be careful.

i have an obssession with bones. i want to see every bone in my body.

each time i post, i will post a new picture of one of my bones.

my collarbones. NOT sucking in.

NEWS OF THE DAY

losing weight, feeling good
my size 00 are way too big for me
my ex-friend said to me yesterday: you're too bony & thin

50 pounds here i come
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i'm feeling weak & tired -- i need some sf red bull

FAT girls attract UGLY, GROSS looking guys

THIN girls attract HOT, RICH guys

the THINNER you are, the HOTTER your guy

NOONE likes FAT girls. FAT girls are lazy, stupid, ugly, and a loser

if you want to lose weight and be thin, QUIT EFFIN' EATING!!!!!! why on earth would you stuff your face with nasty food & complain that you're just not getting thin?

QUIT EATING AND JUST STARVE YOURSELF, BITCH!!!

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I DO NOT need food. Food is for the WEAK. Food makes you FAT.

I didn't eat yesterday, I didn't eat today, I'm not going to eat tomorrow.

I'm only going to be drinking water, tea, and fat free milk until I lose 50 pounds.

Yeah, I'll weigh 50 pounds but I'll be thin and beautiful and perfect. I've reached every single goal weight, so I know I can weigh 50 pounds!!!

I'm going to be the thinnest girl you've ever seen. i'm going to be the thinnest girl when i start college in august.