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[ i swear if i lose a second chance with you, i wouldn't know what to do, i'd prolly check myself into some kind of clinic..]

this week has been okay. no drama for once. yesterday i went to the mall and got all of my winterball things to go with my dress except for one thing i want for my hair and plus i got will his birthday present. [= i'm excited i hope he likes it, his birthday is saturday but i won't see him so i'm going to leave it on his car when i'm at lunch because he leaves early for co-op. i'm nervous i miss him so much. i talked to jeremy today in history last period and learned some interesting things that made me smile, i thought i was going to cry actually..he told me that the other day him and will were chillen and will like broke down and started talking all serious and they basically had a heart to heart and they were talking about ex girlfriends and all kinds of things and jeremy said he didn't have one thing bad to say about me it was all good and one thing will said was the when we went out on the weekends he would always chill with his friends but he would always come chill with me first and as long as he came over for alittle i didn't have a problem with him going out there and he loved that about me, that i let him be with his friends too. i thought i was going to cry. plus i told jeremy he needs to find me a boyfriend [will, wink wink] and he said alright i'll see what i can do and then he i suppose said something to will and will just said i dont know which is great because if ya'll knew will you'd understand how great that sounds to me..i'm wishing, hoping, and praying things work out. i need this more then anything <3

If I Had One Wish.

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[..we would run away, making love all day, have us a baby..if i had one wish.]

i've been lazy latley plus really tired so i haven't gone to the gym since friday which sucks. my fat ass needs to hit that shit up and lose major weight. i hate being fat. so tomorrows plan is go to school, eat nothing until lunch and drink lots of water, then at lunch eat an apple, then hit up the gym after school and work out as long as i can manage. and yes before anybody says anything to me i do have a problem with losing weight, it consumes my thoughts and it's what i think about alot. i count calories, sugars, fats whatever it's a problem but i don't care i want skin and bones. [=

i need to go to the mall tomorrow but i'm still waiting to see if my mother will take me because i don't want to drive, no money for gas sucks. i need to go get will his present with the nonexistant money i don't have and then i wan't to look for a pair of shoes for winterball to match my dress. i can't wait to winterball, it's going to be so fun me and matt b. have the whole day/night planned. party hardy [;

welp i suppose that's it, doing alright in school, doing all my work and actually going. very proud of myself so far! lates <3

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cuz it's you & me.

i feel so fat. i shoud be losing weight, i've been going to the gym and trying to watch what i eat latley, but i feel so huge. i feel that if i tried to put something on right now id bust right out of it. all i want is to be thin. which means more working out and i've dedicated myself to no more soda or juice just water. maybe, just maybe i'll become so thin that i'll become invisible to the world. oh how i wish. ]=