And, after all, what is a lie? 'Tis but the truth in a masquerade.

My shower offered one temperature this evening, ice cold.
I typically enjoy showers, but this one consisted of screaching and
jumping around, and avoiding the water touching my skin as much as
possible. And after i stepped out of the shower all naked, miserable
and shaking, i sort of felt better after all the unpleasant things that
happened today. Cold water makes you forget about people making fun of
you while youre standing right there, and computers that dont work in
your favor, and not having the courage to have normal conversations.
It works, at least for a little while.

im going to see tegan and sara in Tulsa with Bran and Mel on friday,
and i am pretty excited, basically because i was convinced i had no way
of going and it was a nice little surprise. Im not looking forward to much lately.
I doing a writing sample for Sophiezine on a fabulous artist, birdsacrosswater
you should check both of them out, so i am looking forward to two things i guess.
the only thing i dont look forward to is standing for so long at this show, i hate standing
because my lower back gets all fucked up.


today when some guy told me "i wouldnt know, because i dont know you"
i think i saw the whole world, and everything made sense for a second
but then i kicked myself again

im going to get so free writes together soon, be prepared!

oil on wheels stops creaking spells, if only for a moment.
while chewing up words so beautifully, they just come out a mess.
a game of "see food", so they all just put their hands over their
one giant face

i have a fever im faking to stay in bed,
they all say okay and put their hand over their gaint face.