| Because of tonight...As I drove home, right after my curfew (which is midnight), tonight, I got to thinking about things, as one does when alone in a car and moving out of the house in which they have lived for most of their life and away from the curfew-inflicting parents they've known for eighteen years in under two weeks. So anyway, I'm driving home and thinking, and I had the first thought of "I don't want to leave." It's not even that I don't, but it seems like I'm just now developing some relationships, and it seems like I haven't experienced all I should. As I think back, I regret, just a little, not taking a couple more risks throughout high school, and especially this summer. A good friend told me tonight that I should "grow some damn balls." It's true now, and it has been true for quite some time; I suffer from a general lack of balls 9 times out of 10. It's something I need to work on. As I think on things, I'm going to miss my friends. With some of them, we'd grown apart a little in the semi-recent past, but definitely come back together, and I'll miss them as I leave. Some have been steady friends, who I'll miss as well. Others I've known for a while, and are now becoming much better friends with. Still others are people who I see rarely, but I always enoy being in their company. At this point, I don't feel like I'll miss my parents much. I think, though, that once they're not breathing down my neck at nearly all times, I will like them very much more.
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