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- Let Me In

life has been pretty busy lately.  school, social, school, extracurrics, schoolwork, etc.  and i'm going to clemson this wknd for the first football game of the season.  i've never been to an away game, and i heard this game is sold out.  i'm really excited -- LT and i are going, making this part of Double Trouble's exploration of our surroundings (in this case, the "tour of the south" leg).  i have tons of reading to do, and my problem is that in order for me to remember what i'm reading, i have to write stuff down.  but when every chapter is over 100 pgs long, and every page is standard 8.5*11, that's a lot of writing.  so i'm going to try typing instead of writing by hand.  otherwise i can't mentally steel myself to sit and concentrate hard enough.  maybe Im ADD.  i wouldn't be surprised; i have the attention span of a fly and the memory of a goldfish and fidget like crazy if i'm not being entertained.

downer of the week: going to the gym.  ok i haven't been in awhile, so i finally decided to go, and the exercises i used to do a million reps of were pretty difficult, and i couldn't get on one of the elliptical machines b/c the stick girls were hoarding them for hours on end.  i reserved one and then when the girl on it FINALLY gets off, this other stick girl sneaks on while i'm not around.  the "reserved" sign is there for a reason people!  i was already in a foul mood b/c i have never felt fatter in my life being surrounded by those barbie dolls, and i was mad that i wasn't as fit as i used to be, and honestly i felt too intimidated by the stick girl to go up to her and demand my machine back.  not good.

it's time for Juvie now, so i'm going to wrap this up and pretend i'm not 40,000 lbs.    

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- Damaged

ok so i'm in the midst of exam week.  and no i'm not stressed, which is quite strange considering the environment.  i only have one more exam tomorrow, poli sci, at 2pm.  poor maggie has 2 today and 2 tomorrow.  crazy.  so after tomorrow i'm not leaving till saturday cuz the rents can;t make it down before then, which is fine b/c i need to do a room cleanout and i'll have some sweeeet party time between wednesday and saturday AM.   

once again there was no reeeeal point to this entry, i just felt like procrastinating.  again.  damn i have to get going on the xmas shopping...stupid empty bank accounts...ooh i have to go tomorrow to get our Suite Love secret santa presents.  my gag gift is going to be HILARIOUS.  i have yet to decide what to get for the real gift...  and i really have zero ideas for what to get other peeps (i.e. the fam).    so this break i'm going to try real hard to stay out of trouble, but i always seem to be in it...  but hey it keeps life real interesting.  someone here was like "yeah you kind of look like ur always in trouble" hahaha!  i'm quite tempted to take that as a compliment  

so LT aka DT 1/2 and i have come to the conclusion that wake accepted an entire class of puppy dogs.  lovesick puppy dogs.  poor things.  she suggested the electric collar idea, where any of them that get within a 5 foot radius of me gets an electric shock.  oh well all u can do is shake ur head and smile.    once again it keeps life interesting.  u know life is exciting when a friend u haven't talked to in a while IMs u and says something to the effect of "so i wanted to hear some of ur crazy stories, i miss hearing about robyn's wildness" haha.  awesome.  so yes, next semester should be oh-so-fascinating on the male front...

i need  new year's plans.  yes i'm getting dressed up and yes it will be insane.  but no, i have nowhere to throw a party as of now.  maybe ang's place that she's housesitting...that would be great...but we'll see.  i ALSO need birthday aka spring break plans.  i'm turning 21 over spring break and i have no idea what i want to do, slash who i can celebrate wtih.   any ideas??  leave a comment.  possible ideas: utter insanity in miami, staying in dc and renting a stretch escalade to drive me and my friends around to various clubs/parties, renting a club for a party, beach time, etc.  holla with suggestions... and let me know if u wanna come cuz ur all invited! 

ok well it's time to finish/start studying for poli sci...wish me luck...

much love to my boyz and girlz and my baby
*~Robyn~*

p.s.  i miss Jamal.  a lot. 

p.p.s.  random props to TLC.  i've been missing those girls.  RIP lisa left-eye lopes.

i know i'm kind of strange to u sometimes, don't always say what's on my mind, u know that i've been hurt by some guy, but i don't wanna mess up this time...i might look thru ur stuff for what i don't wanna find or i might just set u up to see if ur all mine, i'm a little paranoid from what i've been thru, don't know what u got urself into...and i really really really want u and i think i'm kinda scared cuz i dont wanna lose u if ur really really really there, and maybe u can hang thru i hope u understand it's nothin to u...i'm so much to manage, i think u should know that i've been damaged, i'm fallin in love, there's one disadvantage i think u should know that i've been damaged...

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- Wanna Get to Know You

ok so one more week of school.  YAY!!!!  then xmas break!! for ONE MONTHHHHHH YAYYY  i will probably sleep for 75% of that break.  i'm so tired.  i have to take a nap in a bit but for now the schedule is :  put loads of laundry on, take shower, transfer laundry to dryers, nap, take laundry back to room, nap, go to work, do homework, learn dance for final tomorrow in social dance.  yay

last night i had one of the best conversations i've had in a long long time with someone.  so i wanted to thank you, i don't even know if u read this, but thank you for everything even though we sort of just met. 

my anthro teacher gave this mini speech at the end of class today, since today was our last real class meeting and thursday we're just having the "final" which is basically a regular test and non-cumulative (another yay).  she was so sweet and the stuff she was saying really made me think.  she was acting like a mom, as if we were all her children, giving us advice about the future and stuff....almost got me a little teary-eyed....

i got a ticket last night for the Xpress Step Exhibition on saturday, which i think will be really good.  the one last semester was incredible and its not very often wake has stuff like this so i really want to go.  also that day LaToya and i will be doing the whole recruiting thing again like last time with Randle-El's lil bro (marcus, who was real cool), except instead of 1-on-1 time it'll be the recruiting assistants with like 15 recruits, so i hope it'll actually be ok.  i like the personalized trips, but i guess with a larger group it's better in case the recruits and their fams don't talk a lot so it would be less awkward.  but it hasn't really been awkward thus far, the recruits and their parents that i've talked with so far have been more than willing to chat. 

my roomie's boyfriend sucks and needs to get his act together before he gets REAL sorry. 

ok gotta run --- peace

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- This Woman's Work

another interesting weekend...so much for not going out at all and staying in to work on my paper...oops.

i just got off the phone with my mom and sister, and actually the converstion w/my mom went pretty smoothly till the end when it was kind of rough,but it's ok.  i'd take that over the last 4 phone conversations we've had.  i really hope that thanksgiving goes well, esp. with Jamal coming over. 

my sister's a stud.  she's trying to rent out this hot new club in DC for prom called Club Daedalus http://www.clubdaedalus.com/  which i think is owned by a bunch of Koreans.  they have Azn Nights every week!  it's SO hot and it looks just like the kind of club that i wanted to start eventually.  look thru the pics and u'll see Busta Rhymes, Charles Barkley and that announcer from ESPN, Johnny Tran from the Fast adn the Furious (tran's not his real name,...i don't know his real name but he looks hott in his pic, ) also there's one of patrick ewing, who actually lives in the neighborhood next to mine.  i can't wait to go.  i might go over thanksgiving break and check it out.

so i'm still very very uneasy in certain situations and i keep thinking that i'm ok but i'm really not and i can't keep making myself think that i am.  but i know the front will always be there, but at least i'm aware that it's a front and that it's not the real me.  that's a step in the right direction. 

ok well now i gotta research the SARS outbreak and the chinese govt's response to it as well as the economic ramifications of it.  and write 10 pages about it.  not a problem, i wrote something like 25 pages in one night in high school.  time to go into SOLDIER mode.

much love to my girlz and boyz,

*~Robyn~*