Yesterday was a great day. Justin and I finally found a church that we are excited about and really want to get involved in. There are teaching the word and the word alone. It is beautiful and hard to find here. Well so we joined a small group starting this week going through the book of eph. I am stoked.

So after church, at out apartment they had a big grand opening for our pool after remodeling. We had nothing else to do and so we went and hung out all afternoon with our buddies that live in our building. So the party is ending. Justin and have left with a $25 starbucks card and a $50 mastercard gift certificate. It was wonderful.

Well we started talking to this guy named aaron that was in the pool all afternoon and he said "well it helps my hand." I didnt even notice anything until I saw several scars on his chest and arm. We proceeded to ask him what happend. He said that on Valentines day he was hanging out with his buddy who was cleaning his gun and it miss fired and shot him through the arm and through his chest and it is a miracle that he is alive. As the hollow point bullet went through his chest his heart contracted making the bullet just missed his heart. He was in tears. He said he was debating the existence of God before this happened and that now he has no doubt. He said that as he laid there waiting for help he felt like he was falling into darkness and that he felt God craddle him down and hold him. His dad is now a christian because of all of this. He said colors were so bright and life is so precious. He feels like everyday is a bonus round.

I was truely inspired and remind that we are not promised another day. That inspired to truely look at Gods life around us and treasure every moment in his presence. What a great God we serve.

OK so I have been in Hollywood over a year now and I still dont like. I am trying to learn to love it but it is just not working. I know God has us here for a reason. Justin loved film school and I love the job I have now but I am having a hard time loving the people.

There has been so much going on in my heart and in my mind it is hard to explain...I am not doing jack a work so I will take the time to try to expalin what is going on.

We were so excited to come out here and experience Hollywood and reach it for the Lord. Well that was all well and good until about a month of being out here and to be honest we closed our hearts. People are so angry and hurt here that I just stopped talking to people and stayed in my little hole and wondered why we werent happy. I was stuck in a horrible job...Justin was liking school...but was gone all the time. I could not find one friend that would share my faith and hope. So I lost hope that there was anyone out here who even cared about their life.

We went to church a few times but could not connect. I read my bible and stayed home. It was so not me as most of you know. So all I thought about was Ohio and wanting to be back at the Vineyard with the youth and and my family! God woke me up with the realization that comfort is not always good. That I need to get over myself.

I grew up wanting to change the world and go everywhere. So here I am in california with people that are hurting and need Jesus. So the last 6 months or so God has been softening my heart up and seeing the hurt and seeing the hope that God has for them. People here want to deny God and his power and they just fight him with everything that is in them.

Justin and I have a new lease on life that we are meant to be here and meant to touch the people here. I realized that I  love people but I can only do it one person at a time. Just pray for us and the people that their heart would see God for who He really is and what he wants to do in their lives and mine.

Pray for the Scientoligist. They are so blinded by fame and the popularity of the "religion".

I love everyone and I miss you all so much. I dont know if any of what I said makes sense but that is the best way I know how to explain what is happening.