| A promise to love you foreverI never expected it to happen. He just came to me, like he was sent here to change my life. Funny thing was i wasn't even interested i just needed a change to get out of a bad situation. Maybe that's what you call fate? someone coming to you at the right moment at the right time? I stood in front of crabtree and evelyn at he mall, just goofing around. I pulled him over and said "promise you will love me forever" He looked back and me smiled and said "i promise i will love you forever". and couple of days later we were playing around at the mall again. He says to me "come over here i want to show you something..." i run over standing right where i did a couple of days ago in front of crabtree and evelyn. He says to me "Rachel i promise i will love you forever..." and he presents to me a beautiful bracelet and puts it on my wrist. the bracelet eventually broke but the promise didn't. I don't consider myself the best girlfriend, but i do try. I don't apologize enough.. I cry and whine. All i really want to know though is that its real. you cried when i cried. you covered my head when you thought i was in danger. you pick me up whenever i couldn't get up myself. you... are always there for me. i didn't see it coming, i was just going to have some fun, i just wanted to leave what i was going through and find something to consume my time. But you saw something in me.. something no one found before. Nothing else mattered to you. All that mattered was me. i don't have anything else to give you.. because you already have my heart except for this... A promise to love you forever. |
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| Hello again XangaI've had this xanga since 2003, I never write on here anymore really buy I come from time to time just to read my old weblogs haha just to see how much has changed or how much ive changed. My last days at south, the crazy Edison Chen phase, starting ku, AASU, poz passing away, Steve, it all seems so long ago....
Well I haven't written in a long time so I have lots of stuff to mention. (mostly because I believe a couple of years from now I will once again read my weblogs)
Sadies finally closed last summer. I currently work at starbucks now and its okay I don't hate it. But I miss sadies and Andy sometimes. I don't really hang out with Bo Paul Christine and them anymore we have our own lives.
I don't think I ever mentioned Vecherack but he was a guy I talked to or dated a while ago. He's a cool guy, good friend. But right now I am going on year and a half with Devon. Sigh Devon... Honestly sometimes I don't even know how we made it this long. There isn't a day when we don't fight but what can I say. I can't really see life without him now. I'll get into this more later
Jiez moved back from Hawaii Sibyl is now currently attending KU law. They both live here now. Its nice having them here.
I moved out into a crappy apartment with Khanh and Devon. I hate it honestly. The apartment is horrible, the situation is horrible, I would say this aspect of my life is what I dread the most.
But love comes in unexpected ways... In the form of 2 darling puppies. Rocky came to us from Steve. He is a bit fiesty but a good doggie. MeiMei is my baby girl. She always has to be the center of attention and loves to be loved. Sometimes throughout the whole day they are the only ones that make he smile.
All in all things have changed quite a bit. But at least I have xanga to rely on. Well actually no. Isn't all this new stuff confusing?! |
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| so i was going to write this huge long post about how angry i am and how i have no friends and no one really cares.. blah blah.. wah wah. what can i say. i'm basically a huge baby. things might never go the way you want them to and as much as i would want them to change i can't. especially when there is nothing to fight for anymore. starting a new chapter in your life is always scary because you don't really know whats going to happen. i had a crazy idea once that when no one would be around i had this person, my best friend.. he would always be around. but i guess people change.. or both of us did. whatever because it doesn't even matter anymore. be happy because that's what i always wanted you to be. someone is standing in front of you. looking at you and asking you to love them. they think you're beautiful, protects you from the people that try to hurt you and, and tells you that you are perfect.... what else could someone want right? so yes can someone tell me what the fuck is wrong with me? what more can a girl ask for?
And.... If I'm the one whose selfish and greedy... How come whenever someone disappoints me, breaks up with me or betrays me... I'm the one trying to be friends again? Boy am I stupid |
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| so i haven't written on here in a while. but everyone should know i am still alive!!! yay!!! |
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| sigh... lil sis Christine is leaving for Cali tomorrow!!! i will miss you soo much!!!!
Have ALOT of FUNN!!!!!!!!!!!
work will be so sad without her....
summer has been so boring.. all i've been doing really is working.. my daddy is coming back on the 5th... so i need to prepare for him to come back.. all i've been really doing is playing games.. kekeke.. Steve got a job!!! congratulate him.. www.xanga.com/soccermommy!!!!
happy Birthday to christine!!!!
that's it for now! buh bye! |
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