| *12 weeks pregnant* i have officially decided to start writing a journal on how the pregnancy is going, and where else but xanga? hehe =) well these past 12 weeks have been absolutely horrific. Eating has never been so hard for me. my god. I never thought in my life, would i pass on KFC. but even the thought of chicken, makes me want to barf. That's not too fun. I havent had much quality time with my toilet, so that's a good thing, i guess. Food has just become, unknown to me. I might eat...a half a meal a day, and snack on pretzels or chips and icecream. water has become my bestfriend, and so has milk. Hopefully this all will end soon, and i can eat as i wish. The other thing, is sleep. Well not much this week, but since the first night i found out i was pregnant, i only slept maybe...at most 4 hours a day. that sucked. For some reason or another, i couldnt sleep at night. i had to sleep during the day, and when i was working, i can't sleep during the day. So i liked my days off when i could stay up all night and sleep all day. hehe. nocturnal pregnant woman. A lotta drama happened in my first couple weeks of prenancy, including some with stefan, and even some with work. But hopefully, all that is over and done with, and i can be close to worry free. at about 11 weeks, i went to the doctor for my first exam and he let me listen to my baby's heartbeat. that was the best feeling in the world. a week later, i felt like something was wrong, and i needed to find out so i went to the doctor again, and he gave me an ultra sound. i got to see the little guy, and i started to cry. i can be such a baby hehe. he told me that nothing was wrong, and baby was completely healthy and growing at a good pace. He told me that i should be due on or around january 3rd 2008, considering his size. hopefully we get a pretty accurate date, so that stefan is here at a good time. I'm starting to show a little bit. i can feel a little bulge in my tummy, and i know that it's baby. i already feel so attached to him or her. i call baby a he, because i guess i want a boy, and everybody is telling me that it's gonna be a boy. so i either say, "baby" or "him" i never refer to baby as a girl. hehe. watch, it's a girl...=P that would be good too. as long as baby's healthy. I never understood why pregnant women got so attached to something they've never even set eyes on. something that's been kicking them, and making them nauseaus...now i know. it's a connection that you feel. a protective instinct, i guess...to love what you're growing. just like people who plant flowers. they plant a little tiny seed into the ground..wait weeks, months...before they even know that it's doing good. and finally, after waiting for so long, they see the little stem growing from the ground, and they love it, because they've succeeded in growing something beautiful. and they'll continue to take care of it. it's a beautiful thing, it really is. and although i'm young, and inexperienced, i believe that all women can be mothers, whether they're 13 or 65. we all carry a natural instinct that guides us to doing the right things. well that's the end of my spiel. =) until next time. <3 |
