actually i lied... this is for sure my very last post on here... love ya'll!

*Cara

this may be my last post for along time... i quit getting online because certain people decided they would harass me everytime i got on about stuff that isnt any of their business... sorry if you ever actually read this and ya... thats about it!

*Cara

hey what up? ya its was a pretty good day today... I got my puppy and she is the cutest and sweetest thing ever... still havent named her yet... but thats ok... but ya i dunno last night was interesting... ended up having a few drinks even tho i said i wasnt going to... anymore... but i had a few anyways... nothin bad happened i was just being dumb...i hate that... i hate being a weak person... i really do... im starting to miss having one single person to depend on in my life... i really really am starting to miss having a special guy in my life... just having a guy to spend time with and to cuddle and have fun and be silly with... oh well i guess ill live... what a great post huh? ya um ya thats it... lol puppy play time... night night

*Cara

hey whats up? ya much needed convo i guess with joy tonight... um ya i thought ciy was gonna help me change and all that good stuff but really all it made me do is quit smoking and drinking... ive really struggled with being the person i used to be... nothing would make me happier than to be that silly, caring, goofy, fun Cara who tried her hardest to please everybody... why have i given up on caring about people?? i am curious to know... i mean i care about people  ALOT but i stopped caring less about my friendships and more about myself...  im tired of being so darn selfish and i want to do better... so ya im sorry to anybody whos had to put up with my crap and so forth... just let me know if you guys ever need anything! love ya'll

*Cara