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Name: Chris
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Raleigh
Birthday: 8/29/1986
Gender: Male


Interests: Playing drums, working on cars, playing basketball, playing soccer, hanging out with friends............
Expertise: I know alot about drums and volvos. Im good in math. When it comes to things that I dont know about Im pretty dumb otherwise.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Media


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Yahoo: Kazoo31605


Member Since: 4/29/2005

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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Where Am I?

Lost not knowing where to go,

Looking around for someone to help me,

but i stand all alone.

Running straight, not knowing where i will end up

just hoping that it leads me somewhere i know.

I see a sign but am unable to read it

"where am I?" i ask myself as i run

I feel like ive been here before

but i had someone to guide me through this place.

Its starts getting dark, and i cant even see my hand infront of my face

All of a sudden i hit something and fall........and continue to fall

..............................

..............................

Then i wake up, and realize that it was only a dream.

but i look on my pillow and theres blood,

i reach up and touch my forehead and realize that im bleeding

I guess it wasnt a dream after all.

Then i fall back onto my bed, and close my eyes

to sleep and dream forever, never to wake.


Thursday, March 30, 2006

I just wanna kick myself

Has something ever happened to you that seemed like it was someone else who did something.  Then later you come to find out the reasons behind what they did, and you just want to kick yourself for being so dumb.  Well, that happened to me and last night I found out what the reasons were behind what happened and I feel so dumb now.  All I had to do was not doubt her and everything wouldve been fine.  But im glad that i found out what the reasons were.  I just hope that someday she will be able to forgive me for being a jackass and not trusting her. 


Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Cried Myself To Sleep

Well, last night i literally cried myself to sleep.  My girl friend broke up with me, she had a good reason too.  I feel empty inside now and wish i could turn back time to change things.  I was being clingy, not intentionally, but i drove her away from me.  I hope and pray that I can fix my problem and that we can possible get back together.  I feel like there is not meaning to life without her.  I just shouldve let things go the way they do and not messed with anything.  It seems like everytime something great happens to me, I always find a way to screw it up.  I only got about 3 hours of sleep because of this.  It makes me so mad for what i did.  I shouldve seen what i was doing and stopped before this happened.  But like usually i didnt.  I would do anything to get her back.  I know its not good to think this way, but i feel like it would be better if I was never born.  Then i wouldnt have to go through this and I wouldnt have hurt the woman I love.  My life is a wreck right now and all i can think about is what and idiot i was to not have seen this happening.  I feel sick, my heart hurts.  All I can do is wait and pray.


Tuesday, December 06, 2005

HURRAY!

Im done with finals, this semester is over.  It was alot harder than i imagened it to be, but i think im getting used to college now.


Friday, November 18, 2005

FINALLY, i was able to finish my three papers that i had due this week.  Im SOOOO happy that im done with them.  i just cant wait until Thanksgiving, im gonna eat so much. 



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