| Our Relationship is like..a yo-yo.
& through the ups & downs we always manage to make it back to where we first started.
& whenever we get stuck or tangled in situations we find a way to fix things.
& time will bring us back together.
until we get caught up in something & it separates us forever.
note: this blog is not directed at anyone special. |
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| Hey You..stop fucking with my emotions. i truly & honestly don't appreciate it at all. i'm going to try to forget about you now. but that'll be fucking hard to do. thanks a lot. for everything. really. |
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| EverytimeIt seems like every time I talk to you the feelings I had for you four years ago rush back to me & I end up liking you again. Even after all the time that goes by, even after not talking to you in months, even if you give me a hard time, even when you come back with your smartass comments.
"Tough Love"....right ?
I miss you. |
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| happy fourth of julyhappy ? oh yeah. i feel comforted...i feel a little better & i feel like everything's gonna work out for the best. everything happens for a reason right ? or at least that's what everyone says.
i've been back from cali for 4 days now. i got back on monday. i hate nebraska so much. i wanna move to cali one day...one day when i'm rich i'll be over there bankin. haha =).
i have a lotta pics up from cali...if you know my myspace then you should go check them out.
i went to my first rave in LA on june 28th. EDC was the shit. basically.
i don't feel like typing anymore but i felt like giving an update so fuck it...i'm done updating. |
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| Apologize..I've been doing a real shitty job of keeping this together & writing in this. Ha. It seems like writing doesn't help all that much anymore. But it could be the lack of things to write about. Actually no...I know that's it.
For the past two weeks I've been trying to get my ass together & keep my grades up & trying to make them even better. I've been somewhat successful. In algebra I have like a 1- (89% in Schu's class). In multimedia I finished my project early so I've been basically doing random shit for two weeks. If I get like 117/118 points on my chemistry project I'll have an 89% in that class. I basically gave up in government. I just can't seem to get myself in all the election shit going on. It just bores me & on the real note I don't give a shit. Singers has been amazing. I love it. If I didn't have work on Tuesday or Wednesday (I don't remember which day) I would audition for West Connection but unfortunately I don't have the time to audition since I have work & all. I wish we knew like two weeks ahead anyways. Even if I tried out I don't know how that would work with my schedule since I'm gonna have all those computer classes. I'm so excited for those though. English is easy for me. I love Goodman. She is tight as shit. I have like a 95 in that class. & My last class is Personal Finance and I have like a 90something in that class.
The school year ends this week. This Thursday to be excact..I really gotta start thinking about what I want to be. This is getting quite ridiculous. I feel like I'm one of the few people that don't know what they wanna be when they're older. That feeling sucks ass. I mean it's not even that I don't have a direction in life. Because I mean I do..but it's like there's a million directions. I think I'm kinda leaning towards computer programming. But I say that now when I don't have any experience with computer programming. I'm taking a java class next year. I forgot the other classes I'm taking but it deals with that.
On Friday my english class was in the career center & we were handed this like little magazine of college shit. There was this one ad for a college & I checked it out online at uat.edu --- it looks pretty interesting to me. Like forreal. But too bad it's out of state....My parents said that the only way I'm going out of state is if I get a full scholarship & that seems somewhat impossible. I mean I know I'm supposed to like think positive about those kinda things but it's true. I admit I slacked off for three years of my high school years. My grades weren't HORRIBLE but they weren't all that great ya know ? So yeah UAT is in arizona. I'm probably gonna end up at UNO. Which isn't totally horrible. But I want to go to a school that specializes in computers.
So this is kinda really random but I really want a guitar...I'm kinda thinking that making music can be like my type of therapy. It'll relax me. & I could possibly relax some other people. That'd be really cool.
Something I really want is to be someone's inspiration for something important. Not just some lame thing. Something big and well known would be exciting. I'll inspire you. I can be good at it.
I ran out of things to say. So whatever. |
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