I’ll try not to cry

I’ll try not to cry,

When your walking towards me,

With that number across your chest.

I’ll try not to cry,

When you look me in the eye.

I’ll try not to cry,

When you tell me it will be alright.

I’ll try not to cry,

when I touch that thick plastic between us.

I’ll try not to cry,

When we talk about our childhood.

I’ll try not to cry,

When we reminisce about the weird stuff we did.

I’ll try not to cry,

When you hang up the phone and they call you back to your cell.

I’ll try not to cry,

When the family is together without you.

I’ll try not to cry,

When someone says they miss you.

I’ll try not to cry,

When its all over,

And I’ll get to hug you.

I promise,

I’ll try not to cry.

for my cousin

I’ll try not to cry

I’ll try not to cry,

When I wake in the morning.

I’ll try not to cry,

When I hear your name.

I’ll try not to cry,

When they are talking about you.

I’ll try not to cry,

When I hold a friend close as they weep.

I’ll try not to cry,

When they ask if I’m ok.

I’ll try not to cry,

Because I know your watching over us.

I’ll try not to cry,

Because I know you love us.

I’ll try not to cry,

Because I know I’ll see you again.

I promise,

I’ll try not to cry.

for paul

I want….
How stupid am I,
For wanting you?
Wanting you to be my all?
Wanting you to be my everything?
I guess, every.
 
I want,
To be your first call in the morning,
And your last call at night.
I want someone to call mine.
I want to be the one you hug and it means the most.
 
Standing alone,
Wanting all of this.
I find myself alone,
Under this rain cloud called
Loneliness.
 
As the rain falls,
My tears fall faster.
 
You may ask if im ok,
Ill answer,
But it won’t be the truth,
Because the truth is,
NO!
Im not ok,
Im not.
 
I want to be your all,
I want to be your everything.
I want you to look at me, like you look at her,
But it would be useless to tell you.
So, I’ll just say,
Yes everything is fine.
 
How stupid am I?
So stupid that I have to lie?
So, stupid that I just cant tell you?
Yes…
i will always want you..
you'll just never know.

His Threats
You tried to walk away,
But the threats they still remain.
Threatening your loved ones,
In your eyes,
You really had no choice.
Just go along,
Like it’s a game,
A very cruel game.
You know your doing wrong,
But his voice replays in your mind.
 
Hesitation is the game,
Your trying to play as slow has you can.
 
The days comes to an end,
As far as you know,
It’s all over,
But,
The gun shot rings in your ears.
 
Now you’re lying in that cell,
Cold and confused
Not knowing what’s next.
 
But his voice still replays,
It just won’t stop.
 
How could a friend do that,
Obviously he was corrupt,
And not all there,
But just remember
The truth is within you!

Lost
Lost in your mind,
Thinking of things unknown.
Its quite amazing,
How a mind can be so lost.
Every word is a blur,
Every thought is incomplete.
Not knowing what is next
Drives you crazy.
Whats really quite amazing is that people don’t see,
They don’t see that the lost mindm
Is there own

Me
A teenage girl,
Who wants everyone to be happy.
A teenage girl,
Who is the fixer of all drama.
A teenage girl,
Who stares are the stars.
A teenage girl,
Who prays every night.
A teenage girl,
Who is under stress.
A teenage girl,
That just wants it all to go away.
A teenage girl,
That doesn’t know whats next.

One Night
That night,
A night in cold February.
My emotions went crazy.
So tired and confused.
I did the only thing I knew,
Holy shit,
Do I regret it.
The pain,
It hurt so bad.
I felt so stupid,
My heart racing,
Tears falling from my eyes.
The scars still remain
From that night,
That stupid night,
In the cold month of February. 

 
Outside Your Window
Sifting slowly through the shadows
On your wall.
Trying to figure out,
What they mean.
Listen carefully to the tapping
On your window.
They are calling for you,
But you don’t dare get out of bed.
Just lay there,
And stare out the window.
Trying not to blink,
But you do.
They shadows disappear,
You’re so relieved
But they’ll be back.

Little Girl
She always wears a frown,
Poor little girl.
So sad and alone.
She comes from a broken family,
Two houses down.
The place we call,
“The house from hell”
 
Poor little girl
Always out,
Making up excuses not to go home.
 
She sits two seats away in school,
Doesn’t have many friends,
If any at all.
 
One day she wasn’t there,
Poor little girl
I never saw her again.
 
Now she’s a happy little girl,
And she always wears a smile.
 

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