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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

  • Just posting

    People frustrate me. I need advice and instead of people giving it to me they just ignore me. People say "I'm here." or "I'll help you." but when i go to them and ask for advice they ignore me or they tell me something but it doesn't answer the question I asked. I know that relationships (dating) is hard to help with sometimes but yet I need advice on it and no one will help. My heart breaks and no one is here to help.

    I can't go to my mom because she is just as screwed up as I am when it comes to dating relationships. My brother is going through a divorce. My dad is in a marriage that he is unhappy with. My aunts and uncles have the attitude that relationships aren't meant to be hard.

    I'm confused and don't know what to do. It annoys me when people say "I'm here if you need me" and then when I need them they are no where to be found. It annoys me.

     

Monday, July 07, 2008

  • Goals for my life

    I have some goals for my life. Some are stupid, some are health related, some are just my goals.

    Here they are:

    I want to get a breast reduction, I know that alot of women want big breasts. And its not that they are big that bother me, its that one breast is so much bigger than the other.  I can't wear normal bras. I wear sports bras. I feel like a freak.

    I want to get a lap top.

    I want to have lazer eye surgery. My contacts are driving me crazy and I'm blind without my contacts or glasses.

    I want to get a some poems published. I love to write and read poetry.

    I want to lose weight. I'm not huge but I'd feel better if I lost weight.

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

  • Want to scream

    I know that no one is perfect. I get it. I get that we all mess up and that no person is perfect. I guess that it just frustrates me. I get tired of my mom giving me speeches about how I'm a bad person or daughter because I make mistakes but yet she makes mistakes too. So I guess I just don't have the patience for it.

  • When is enough, enough?

    I've always been the kind of person to help others and put everyone first. But here lately and it really hasn't been recent...I've felt this way for a while but its gotten to its breaking point...I've gotten annoyed with taking care of people. I know I do it to myself. I allow myself to be walked all over and treated like crap and I get that but what bugs me is that people go ahead and use me. They know that I'm tired or whatever and yet they use me. They go ahead and it knowing I"m exhausted. Its just hard. I've always been a giving person but when is enough just that, enough. If someone asks me to do something and I say no then I feel bad because I feel like I"m being selfish but if I say yes I get annoyed because I'm doing it. I guess I'm just wondering when enough is enough.

  • People say smoking is a choice. But if you’re addicted to something, doesn’t that rule o

    Its just another sales ploy to get you to buy them.

       

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