Somedays I dont know where I am headed.Other days im halfway there
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Friday, September 05, 2003
 whud up everyone, not that anyone reads this anymore, but still..hehe  so im in school and thats amazing exciting stressfull...i cant believe im already in my second year!!!!!  thats kick ass...im pracitcally a nurse, and thats like, wooo scary scary...  and im single and loving it... well austin is around but i wouldnt classify him as my boyfriend, just a friendly friend... hehe..   there are a lot of things that i miss now since i have been at school.  like my family... before they used to drive me crazy, now i love and respect them more than ever.. and ev i  miss him bunches...  and heidi how we used to not be able to be away from each other, now we cant be together.. although she was such a good friend and i wish i never would have lost her, and ill never get her back...i wish her the best of luck w/ aaron...   and then theres rae who i loved dearly, but things got in the way of other things and other things got in the way of more things and it was a big ol mess... and i miss adam reed and vince, we grew up together and its sad to see how we got seperated over the years....   and now here i am, at 20 years old and im in college missing those ppl at home, but greatful that i left home.   and chose not to come back every weekend, if i hadnt picked hocking i would never have met jessica and i know and she knows we were destined to be friends as soon as we talked the first time... its almost like falling in love, but w/o the sexual feelings.....  and i look back from all the things i have accomplished in the last two years, and it is so rewarding now to see all that i have struggled with and all that i have survived through, wether it be my fault or someone elses...and from now on im postin here too, so holla
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Well rach, I just want to get all this out of my system.  I love you more and more everyday, your words inspire me.  I dont know what it is about you.  I mean we were destin to be in college together, living together, breathing together, and it all came crashing down on my shoulders.  It hurt me so bad what went on between us.  I know I need to put it behind me, but it just hurt so fucking much, like i felt like  i lost a family member.  I dont know why, but it did.    I just hurt, i felt like i couldnt trust you, like our friendship meant nothing to you, and like when we lived together I just felt like when you wrote in your journal, it was all about me, just the hatred you had built up dealing with me. 

I just want to say, I am SORRY for leaving, sorry for being a neat freak, sorry for annoying you, sorry for creating problems between you and others.  I just dont ever want anything to happen between you and I again.  NEVER LIKE WHAT OCCURED BEFORE!!! 

Everything that went on while we were down there together was the best times of my life.  I si t back and think about what i gave up.  What I could have had if I stayed down there.  But I know the decision that I made may affect me in the long run, but It seemed right at the time.  I know in a few years I will have my RN and be on my way to success, but  it wont be the same, I wont have tons of memories, tons of new friends. Its just hard, i want to be down there experiencing everything you are.  Experiencing all your friends, sharing good and bad times, beating jason up when he attacked you, being down there when you were well u know... And well I just wish I would have been there for all the bad that has happened to you in the past months. 

Rach, I seriously cherish our friendship more than you know, no matter what anyone thinks, I love you dearly, and cannot wait to see you. 

love you

evan

Posted 9/6/2003 12:58 AM by king_whoadie - reply


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