ex just called.didn't really wanted to talk to her that time cuz i was in the middle of crying.ask my friend mj to talk to her for me and cryed the whole time.she had to lie for me saying that i was in the bathroom when really i was right next to her crying my heart out.hate is when other people see me like that its not a pretty picture.god dont know really.dont want to cry but it just hurts like hell that i can't help.:*(   :*(   :*(  all i want to do now is just cry some more so bye people hope you are having a more fun and happyer live than i am.:*(

FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just so want to crash and burn right now.FFFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hearing the person you love most saying giving another person heke hurt like a fucking hell.Even when we was going out we didn't do that and we went out longer.FFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD PLEASE NOW IS THE RIGHT TIME FOR YOU TO ANSWER MY QUESTION.PLEASE GOD HELP ME PLEASE.I AM CRYING AS I SPEAK.PAIN PAIN HURT SO FUCK BAD.

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WHY???????WHY?????WHY???????I ASK WHY IS SHE DOING THIS TO ME?DID SHE NOT LOVE ME AS MUCH AS SHE SAID SHE DID????DID SHE NOT MISS ME AS SHE SAY SHE DOES OR DID SHE JUST NOT REMEMBER ME AT ALL???WHY GOD WHY??WHY IS THE ONE MOST IMPORTANT MOST LOVE OF MY LIFE DOING THIS TO ME???WHY GOD WHY???WHY GOD O PLEASE TELL ME WHY???:*(   :*(   :*(   :*(   :*(   :*(   :*(   :*(   :*(  

CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING INSIDE.............WANT TO SREAM WANT TO YELL BUT MOST OF ALL JUST WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PLEASE GOD JUST SAVE ME FROM MYSELF AND JUST TAKE ME AWAY FROM ALL THIS PAIN.SAVE ME FROM WHAT I MIGHT DO.SAVE ME FROM MYSELF GOD SAVE ME.CRYING IN AND OUT.

JUST ONE QUESTION(?)

   HOW COULD SOMEONE YOU LOVE SAY THAT THEY LOVE YOU BACK BUT STILL JUST GO ON AND DATE SOMEONE AFTER YOU TWO JUST BROKE UP WITHOUT GIVING DAYS TIME TO COME.OR EVEN JUST WAIT FOR THE PAIN IF SHE DOES FEEL ANY TO GO AWAY.WHICH IS WHAT I AM DOING.ANYWAYS JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYMORE JUST GETTING HURT EVER SINGEL SECOND MY OF LIFE.JUST ENDED CRYING AND JUST STARTED CRYING AGAIN OVER AND OVER.:*(

This is my prayer to god,

Dear God,

     I never did think that you were real.But now that I know you are I come to you for help me with something that is really important to my life.I cry to you whenever noone is around.I cry to you all of my heart ace and problems.I ask you what to do and how to get throught this.

     I cry to you for help but no answer.Trying my best to do as much as I can myself but still need your help.I turn to people around me for advice... nothing.

     So I ask you please help me because I really don't know what to do.Everything just falling apart.You know how I feel cuz I cry them out loud to you every chance that I get.This is the one thing that I ask you thats imporant to me.To give me the answer and the love of my life back to me.I may be asking to mush but now thats the only way that I know I can get through life.

     I know you have meanings for things to happened so please tell me what is my meaning for losing the love of my life.Or please I cry to you please to help me find all the answer that I need to give me the strength to move on.

     PLEASE GOD PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

     I REALLY NEED YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                       Amen.

Cry myself to sleep every night.Can't stop thinking of that one true love that got away from me.Too many things going on don't know what to do.My heart wants to just go there where she is and work things out but the other just don't know.

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