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ok heres what happened tonight.......we go to dover downs and eat....and i'm wearing my ramones shirt.....because i wear it all the time but thats besides the point.....anywho....

guy behind the counter: "hey at least you have a good taste in music"

so....i'm thinking what the hell is that supposed to mean.....what am i like extremely ugly but at least i like good music?  or am was he just trying to make good conversation.....well the hell if i know.....

yep so thats my day......

oh yea....Richard is grounded because he ordered anchoives at a resturant....nooooooooo lies........i was there and i witnessed this.....who grounds a kid for eating anchovies.....i mean honestly?

annnnnnnnnnd highland (richards band) is done......they are now either longdale (darias hometown) or room without a window......just let me know which one you guys like.....i like longdale because they got the name highland from beavis and buttheads hometown and since daria came from beavis and butthead...it would kinda be like a continuation?    but who listens to me....i'm just the guitarists girlfriend.....my opinion definitely doesnt matter cause i know nothing!

Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
And if we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means

And I've got a twenty-dollar bill
that says you're up late night starting
fist fights versus fences in your backyard
Wearing your black eye like a badge of honor
Soaking in sympathy
from friends who never loved you
nearly half as much as me

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable...ohoh

Well I can't regret,
can't you just forget it?
I started something I couldn't finish
If we go down,
we go down together
best friends means,
well best friends means

You never knew
well i never told you...
Everything I know about breaking hearts
I learned from you, it's true
I've never done it with the style and grace you have
But I've made long term plans
based on these mistakes

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Is this what you call tact?
I swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call,
and end this conversation
there's nothing worse...
(that's right he said, that's right he said it)
I swear, you have no idea
The jealousy that became me thinking
(that's right he said)
that you always had it way too easy

Broken down in bars and bathrooms
All I did was what I had to
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's just what anyone would do
Take the time to talk about it
Think a lot and live without it
Don't believe me when I tell you
it's something unforgivable

Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve
Best friends means I pulled the trigger
Best friends means you get what you deserve

Best friend thinks I pulled the trigger!!!
Best friend thinks you get what you deserve!!!

ok.....this is gonna be a really emo entry but i definitely dont care anymore.  I have come to realize that I have really let myself go lately in that of caring what people think of me......if that makes any sense...?  From now on, i plan on going back to my original self....the one who was always happy and could always look on the bright sides.  From now on when my boyfriend tries to kiss me, i will no longer turn away...From now on when people tell me to act my age, i will tell them to fuck themselves in the ass....From now on i will be.....ME....and thats basically all i can be.  i'm tired of dumbass acts and pretending to be happy.....i want to be happy and i finally am beginning to reach the state and discover the true meaning of "happiness".....and i like it.  its amazing.  Its amazing to have you're boyfriend call you and your whole conversation is based on how much you love each other.  He is amazing and i love him soooooo much.  more than he or anyone else will ever ever know.  i cant put words to any of these feelings.  He himself is the most defined definition of perfect.  there is no other words to explain him.....just perfect....and i love him with everything ive got.  We argue over the stupidest things.....because we are too much alike....and most of the time thats not a bad thing.....because we end up laughing about it an hour later.....but i hate arguing with him.  Hes been through so much shit.......sooooooooo much and i really dont want to add on to it though i do....and i cant stand it when i do....but it just happens and i cant help it.  i have really been concentrating on improving this and i like to think i have made somewhat of an improvement....but i am stubborn and i am a complainer and it will take some time.....slowly but surely i will make it.  Oh well....life sucks but thats why they made....super mario bros. and pizza places right down the street from you that are named after luigi....the little things in life are always the best........yes...the little things....like when you wake up in the morning and you get those eye boogies and you think back to when you where younger and those stories of the sandman......or when you and your friend have a sleepover and you watch scary movies and you think back to when you used to be so scared to go to the bathroom cus you were afraid of "bloody mary".....or when the only way you can tell summer is almost on its way is when you smell the fresh cut grass, the blow up pool toys, and the smell of chlorine....and you know....its coming.  Lifes little things actually end up amounting to major parts of your life and most of the time none of us even realize it.  we always live for the major things in life and completely disreguard the surprises around the corners.  we should all take a moment to settle down and live for the moment......because we would all be alot better off.....live like this day is your last.....it'll be great.