so i thought i was over xanga and moving on to myspace...yes i also jumped on the bandwagon. but i am here updating for joy and my sister. :)

i am here at usf (university of san francisco). it's been good. classes are alright and the people i've met here are awesome. i came to college to change, become a better sarah and i think these people that i met will definetly help me do that. this is an exciting time in my life actually and i'm having fun. of course i miss my family and friends back home though so much-more than they know. ooh and i miss pho, real korean food, zippy's, etc. yes yes sarah the fat pig, i know. but i'll be able to eat all of that in december! whoo hoo.

well that's it for now. i love when you guys call me up to fill me in on what's going on back at home so keep it up! :)

i'm out...

so i'm here at california. orange county to be exact. left yesterday morning. wow, that has got to be the hardest day of my life-leaving my family and friends. i cried a river and so did my friends which hurt my heart even more. but i'm so glad all of them were there. actually, not all but hey what are you going to do, right? man, i miss all of them so much. little things remind me of them and it hurts. i know that this whole college experience is going to be awesome and i'm going to grow so much-with its ups and downs but i'm just missing everyone and everything so much. i feel like people have changed though, already. i guess this experience of leaving has shown me who my true friends really are-the ones that i miss and think of everyday. then there are those that i thought were my true friends but really aren't which is hard but i can't do anything about it. life's a bitch, what are you going to do? but the friends that i do miss, i miss a whole lot. as psycho as it sounds, sometimes i can even imagine hearing their voice. lol scary i know. i know these next few weeks are going to be the hardest but i know when i go back in december, we'll all be back to our "retarded selves" (thanks tabatha :)) again and it'll be awesome. good luck to everyone going off to college. let's all definetly keep in touch. it's going to be hard but we're going to have so much fun and grow so much. it'll be okay.

alana, diane, sarah, angela, twin: thanks for the letters. i cried while reading them on the plane. they were so sweet. :)

so my mom just called me. she said that she cried last night in my room while looking at my picture cuz she missed me and she couldn't stand being alone at home because my dad was working late so she went shopping by herself. poor thing. but she's coming here on saturday so it'll be good.

i miss all of you so much! keep in touch! i'm out...

wow. i haven't written in a long time. let's recap...

-graduated from high school. whoo hoo! it was great seeing everyone. project grad was fun too...much better than i thought it would be.

-grad parties right and left with mine on july 10. it was great. i was happy to see everyone and hope everyone had as good a time as i had. told myself i wasn't gonna cry but i so did when i said my speech. sherilyn, you were right.

-went to 2 church camps and learned so much about God, others, and myself. decided to make some changes in my life which is good timing with college just around the corner.

-diane came down from south carolina and having fun spending time with her. she changed a lot but hey who didn't, right? been going out with her and the other girlies.

-been hitting up the beach and getting my tan on, major. i love it. i'm trying to get real dark cuz i know i'm gonna get white at san francisco. i think i'm succeeding but not where i want it yet.

-i found out who my roommate is. i think she's haole but i dunno cuz i'm just assuming cuz her name but she could be full on asian for all i know. either way, i don't mind as long as she's not a bitch, doesn't smell, doesn't snore, doesn't steal, etc. damn, i'm scared. lol

-so it's july 19 and looking at the calendar, i'm leaving in exactly 2 weeks (august 2) for california. i have mixed feelings....excited/scared out of my mind/and mostly sad to be leaving hawaii and everyone here. sometimes when i'm at church or with friends, i just sit there and watch them and it makes me sad to know that i'm not going to see all of them until december after i leave. and even then, things are going to be different besides the fact that i'm going to be 15 pounds heavier. lol but seriously, i know college is going to be an awesome experience but i just can't help being sad cuz i'm gonna miss everyone and everything including zippy's and fruit punch and the beach. i can go on and on, trust me. lol

well gotta go so i'm out...

wow, what a weekend. it was off the heezy fo sheezy. lol did that for you, alana and i know you love it. :) seriously though, it was fun. love my friends sooooo much.

friday: last day of school....sad and exciting. rhea sang awesome (as always) and brought the whole senior class to tears. went to moanalua grad...saw lots of people, saved an abandoned child (ok sounds so much better than what really happened lol), etc.

saturday: dinner for cousin's grad.

sunday: went to dinner with jess and twin which by the way was awesome....always fun. so gonna miss you two when we go to college. oh wait, twin, you're stuck with me in san fran! lol i remind you that all the time but you love it! then we went to "jon's hotel party" aka my surprise bday party! how exciting. was greeted by keri and tabatha who blindfolded me. and boy oh boy, in the room got a lap dance from demetrius. one word-wow...not in a good or bad way just wow. lol then the drinking began. actually, it began before i came obviously from the million empty bottles on the tv but i just joined in. more people came whch means more noise. then dun dun dun (dramatic music), the security guards and cops came. ok i'm being a drama queen but hey it was very scary. they threatened to call our parents, send the under 18 year olds to jail, etc. but in the end, nothing happened except we had to leave and our alcohol got spilled out. ok so that's a lot but hey this is drama queen sarah so deal. the rest of the night is kind of a blur-drove around, did something i never ever thought i'd do (quote tabatha-"nothing sexual, you pervs"), saw a lot of old friends (felt like a holy family reunion), had sex talks with nickster and shaun (very random and funny lol), and ended the night sleeping at shaun's house. fun times, guys. thanks sooooo much everyone that was there. i appreciate it sooo much, seriously. i love you guys so (to the power of infinity) much. i have pictures but so don't know how to put them up on xanga so maybe next time.

-graduation on saturday!!! whoo hoo! so excited... be there at 6:00-6:15 if you don't have a ticket. at blaisdell. be there or be square...lol lame sarah i know.

i'm out...