ChangesGood morning to all!
Life is so full of changes. I have alwasy known this, but latley I am begining to really learn what this means. I am a creature of habit and I DO NOT like change. It's hard, uncomfortable and takes a lot of energy. So, I avoid it at all costs. However, this year is different. God has placed some good sized changes in my life and I have not done well thus far in dealing with them. But, I know that my God is a God that has a plan that is better than what I can see. It may seem to me that He is crazy and doesn't know what He is doing, but this just isn't the case. This year I am going to try and have a few less commitments and have more time that is planned for just me and Jesus. This will be hard for me, because I am a person that likes to be busy and have responsability and I am a sucker that can't say no to anyone. I have committed to myself and God that this year or at least this semester I am going to be more faithful to taking care of me and having time with Him.
My favorite song to sing is Sanctuary, the words go something like this....
Lord prepare me, to be a sanctuary.
Pure and Holy tried and true. With thanksgiving I"ll be a living Sanctuary for you.
That's my prayer for me this year. I want to be a Sanctuary for Jesus. I want my heart to be focused on Him and not me. I want people to see something different in my. I am praying that God will give me more faith. And I believe that He is. Slowly. That doesn't mean everything is going to be easy, but it does mean that with all of these changes I can better trust Him.
You can pray for me that I will have faith like a child. And pray for me in all of these changes. .....
My parents got a divorce. I know that many of you do not know this, but I was so busy at camp this summer, that I didn't want the focus to get too far off so I didn't tell anyone. This has been hard to swallow and it's been very different coming home and having to schedule time with both parents. God is working on healing my heart and the hearts of my family members.
Also, I have moved out on my own for the first time. This is a big change, because I have always been with my family. I have never had all the bills that I now have and well, it's just different. But, I am excited about it and I know that I have a great roomie that is going to be great to live with!
Camp, I have worked at camp a lot these past few years. But, this year it's just not going to be as big a part of my life as it has been. I know it will be a part of my life, but I just don't know yet how or how much.
Ministry and church, God is still showing me the full picture of what He wants from me, but it's going to be a big change. Please pray for me as I seek Gods direction!
God is good and faithful and He has a plan. I don't know what it is, but I can trust that He has it under control. I want to challange you guys that if things are hard. It's ok to hurt, to cry, to talk it out with a friend. But, talk it out with Jesus first. Lean on Him. Know that He does have a plan even if it seems crazy to you right now.
Let me know how I can be praying for you! |