WOWWOW. it's been a loooooong time since i xanga-ed...
What have I been doing lately? geez. time flew right past me and i didn't even notice it. I need a break from school & such
ORIGHT.
so, i got my wisdom tooth pulled and everyone keeps calling me a chipmunk. I just got my other one pulled the other day and it hurts alot right now and that is why im at home and not at school getting my learn on. All those pain killers are killing me... hrmm.. ironic.
I went to disneyland last sunday for my baby sister's 5th birthday and i realized that i wanted to become a kid once again and never ever ever grow up.
One night, i dreamed that i had cancer and i was totally freaked out when i woke up because i realized that i haven't been living my life to the very last bit. what would i do if i really had cancer?
i think i really miss my friends ... especially that fat headed girl with fat eyes ... and walnut. and sometimes i wish i could just go home, even though i have no idea where home is really.
all i've been eating for the past 2 weeks is yogurt, ice cream, and jello. gross. i think i'm going to be vegetarian. meat just isn't so appealing to my taste anymore.
i want to go to taiwan right now because i'm so hungry and everything in taiwan is really good. i really miss my grandmother's home-made stuff to eat. i miss my baby cousin's inability to wipe his own butt even though he's already 4 years old.
sometimes i wish i could change the world and everything that was so screwed up with it. last night, i was sitting on the couch being drowsy and ended up watching bruce almighty. oh man. if i was God for a day, i would not know what to do first. there are so many things i want to do. i wish there was something i could do to help the lost people in the world. then again, i feel lost sometimes
i really miss those people that aren't there anymore. i suppose most people do miss people that aren't there but i really really really do miss them.
i wish i had the ability to turn back time. maybe i would turn back time to a certain moment and then just freeze it. i mean, how cool would that be?
sometimes i wish i had the power to read people's minds or their thoughts. everytime i'm stuck in traffic, i wonder what all those people waiting there on that same highway are thinking.
to be frankly honest, although this might sound cliche-ish, you can die at any given moment at any given time and there is no way you can stop it. those final destination movies are ridiculous. i mean... kids that escape death, they eventually die right? OH OF COURSE. all but one survives his or her destiny. i think humans are absurdly stupid because they know they can die at any given moment yet they still live as if they have a lifetime to do whatever it is they please.
someone told me the other day that he thought i was really fake and i have a stuck-on smiley face. he even said that i lie to myself alot. hrmmm... is that just .. ? wow. i can't even justify that myself.
"As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects a man"
i want to go back to disneyland. i remember before entering disneyland, there was a sign that said " Here you leave today and enter the world of yesterday tomorrow and fantasy" wow. walt disney must've had some imagination. he said that there really were "...happily ever after..."s ... i wonder if he lived one in his lifetime... well, you know what they say, "Forget the past, they do things differently there."
swell. the end.
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