| Speed bump?What the phuck happin’d??? A strain? A torn tendon? Come on!! I can’t friggin sleep! Arm in a sling. Medication to numb it? What the………………? Not me. Someone close. Oh so different from even a few weeks ago, let alone a few months ago! A little lost right now. A little….not, scratch that…Completely unsure of the future when stopping and takin a peak. Just thinking, ten more years, and I can be in the Tawas Harbour on my 44’ Marinette. Wake up around 8, drink a little coffee, and think about what I want to do today. Not too far off, but…Can I get there? Like a little kid, with a dream of the future. Yes, Mr. Hollis. The shadow has power we cannot imagine. That power, when seen clear, can also be channeled. We can bend and eventually break under it’s power and be led in our lives with rings in our noses. Sure we can. But jumping to the flipside…we can see each moment in our life with the power behind it from our past and feel a new drive, a new motivation that is familiar. We see the many times from the past that it feels as if we have either gone back in time, or that time has become nothing. Yes, nothing. Instead of feeling and thinking of ‘time’ as a line that we are progressing on, time doesn’t even matter. Like when on vacation in Florida and the sun on you on the beach, with the sound of the waves putting you in that transe with the warmth of the sun, unlike any moment ever experienced. Then you have brought the past to the now, the gift, the present. You are who you have been, but most importantly, you are, exactly who you are right now, with that past vivid with you as the main character. Finally tired. To sleep like I did new years eve!! To know that tomorrow is the next chance to prove it at work. ….Yeah…finally tired! |
