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| Gosh I havn't written on here in forever!! Well ALOT has changed....I'm still working at Sears and I am loving it more now than I have in a looooong time. I love the girls I work with. So that is going well. About 3-4 weeks after Evan and I broke up I started dating a guy from Butler and he pretty much screwed me over. So I'm done dating now for a long time. Right now is the time that I need to be focusing on me and starting a new life as I am about to enter college as a strong and independent person. And so far it's working out pretty well! I just don't have anything to offer anybody spiritually right now. And I can't trust anyone after what happened with Aaron and I shouldn't have to make some other guy pay for his mistake. Plus, I simply don't have time for myself even right now let alone a boyfriend. The musical is going ok...we have 2 weeks till the curtain goes up and we are no where near ready...but I keep telling myself that everything comes together in show week....i hope! Scholarship auditions for Butler are Feb 3 and I have my music down pat. I can't wait either! It's finally my turn to try. I audition for the scholarship in Feb and the week after graduation in May I go back and audition for Headliners. This last part of the year is just going to fly by because we have the show, then scholarship auditions, then a concert and recital in march, then contest (regional and state) in April, then prom...then spring carousel and graduation in May......I wished time by so much and now I feel like I hit the fast forward button and now it won't stop. But this has really been a good year so far. I really am going to miss everyone next year but i'm trying not to think about that. This last Christmas was my last Christmas of me being at home full time...i cried. It definatly is a year full of changes. I have changed into a completly different person already than who I was at the begenning of this year and I continue to change more and more everyday. I really can't believe that I have reached this point in my life already...can all this really be happening?? -Jenn | | |
| Life as i know it.....is fantastic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| Breaking up is hard to do...Evan and I broke up last Friday...he doesn't have time for a girlfriend and feels bad for making me have to wait around on him to have time and I don't think it's fair for me to wait around...Plus it's not fair for him to be pulled in yet another direction and I just don't want to stress him out like that when he should be focusing on school. We are definatly still friends and of course I still love him...prolly always will...It's really hard to mutually break up with someone because you still love them and you have to do what is best for them and not think about your selfish reasons...i miss him like crazy but it is what is for the better...atleast thats what I keep telling myself. I'm just glad we are still good friends. I just wish other people would stay out of our business ya know? It's really annoying having people who you think are your friends going around spreading rumors about you. I hate high school drama...pretty much learned that I can't trust anyone and thats sad. Anyways it really doesn't matter because whatever rumor is spread, it won't seperate Evan and I's friendship. We still love each other to much to let something stupid like that happen... Anyways I have church tomorrow so Good Night!! | | |
| Senior Year....is anybody else freaking out??
I mean don't get me wrong i'm REALLY excited that high school is almost over....I'm almost ready to move on to college but at the same time i'm freaking out! It's alot of pressure! Your not really a kid anymore and your parents..ok parent...is freaking out by getting all emotional because you are growin up...My dad got his feelings hurt because i don't want to audition for KMEA....he was #1 tennor in the state his senior year and he had a blast...good for him...but he thinks that i'm being snooty and don't want to do it just because he did....that is SO NOT IT! I have alot of crap i have to audition for and prepare for this year that has to do with "did i make it or not" and i don't want one more thing to add on to that stressful list!
Then I think about high school being over and i get sad...no more concerts, no more musicals, no more hanging out with my friends....leaving my friends....i'm not sure i can do this.....Watch by april i will be SO READY to graduate but with enrollment right around the corner....i'm scared. I don't think i'm ready yet.
so like i said......is anyone else freaking out?? | | |
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