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Name: Jenny
Country: United States
State: Texas
Birthday: 5/14/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Spending time with friends and fam, reading, starbucks, social justice..going to Amy's with Anna..hagning out with all my TCF buddies, social justice, late night trips to walmart... : )..hangin out with my SA buddies.. Chick-Fila is the best evar...everyone knows about my crush on harry...he knows that pink roses are my fav :) ..but most of all spendin time with God :)
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Member Since:
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| Life or something like it.Well, I haven't written in here in a while. Usually something I do when I should be going to bed..just so happens that I should be going to bed right now. So I graduated from college. I'm pretty sure it is possibly the worst thing that ever happened to me. Haha..its not that bad, but no one ever tells you how hard it is. I guess I'm not like most people who can't wait to graduate, I actually was quite happy where I was, but I guess that is also how God works, just when we get comfortable he pushes us out of our comfort zone and stretches us a little more, asks us for a little more faith, a little more obedience and in return we get to know Him a little more deeply with each step. Even though I decided to stay in Austin for the next semester or so, I'm still not sure where I am going exactly, and some days I am not entirely sure that I made the right choices. I chose to get a "real" job in order to honor the sacrifices my Mom made in putting me through 4.5 years of college, however the job I took doesn't exactly match up to her expectations of a "real" job, so I am not sure that I am meeting the goal of honoring her. Over Christmas break I went to Urbana, as expected it was awesome. The second time around it was far less overwhelming and had much less of a shock factor, yet I think God still spoke and moved in powerful ways. The theme was "Live a life worthy of your calling" taken from the book of Ephesians. The whole week I struggled and wrestled with God about what my calling in life is. I wanted him to lay it out for me and tell me step by step and detail by detail what his plan for me inculded, or at least the next couple of years. Intstead He chose to remind me that His plans are good! That I should fully trust Him with my future and whatever he may have and chose to reveal to me or not. I was also reminded that in most cases if He told us everything he had planned for us in advance we would run screaming in the complete opposite direction like Jonah did, and that is definately not how I want to respond to God's desires for me. I was also pretty convicted by a specific speaker one night. Brenda Salter McNeil spoke from the book of Genisis about Abraham's calling to leave his family, his home, and his people and to go the land which God would show him. She talked about settling for less that what God has intended for us and it really struck me that in my heart I had begun to settle for the life that my Mom wants for me and not the one that God desires for me. I think he also spoke to me about how we have desires in our hearts for a reason, and passions for a reason and that many times his will intersects with what we love. Many times I found myself standing in front of the IV staff display not knowing why I was there, because I had already applied I didn't need more information. I think what I needed was God to remind me of what He has been telling me all along, to shut out the demands and wants of my parents (not to dishonnor them) but to remember that God comes first and to trust what he has said no matter how hard or scary it may be. I think I have known all along that God was calling me to serve him full time, and one point I was really excited but I think over time I just became overwhelmed by the negative opinions of my parents and possibly even the cost of doing ministry and fundraising my salary. Since I have been back I moved into a new apartment with Amy, which has been great. I have been taking the Perspectives class which is sooo much work, but completely blowing me away. One thing that has completely stuck out to me was one reading which again talked about Abraham and God's promise to him that he would bless all people of the earth through him (directly after he says to leave your family, life community etc) to the land God will show him. Abraham wasn't even told beforehand where he was supposed to be going. God said GO! and I will tell you when you get there, and Abraham did. whoa. Why do I have so much trouble responding in faith that way? Also since I have been back I started my new job. It is a lot to get used to all at once. I like it, but it definately is not what God made me for. I have been learning a lot about purspose through perspectives and the concept of feeling fulfilled in your work. Not necessarily happy, or things going great but having the feeling that where you are is exactly where God wants you and having complete joy knowing that you are fulfilling the works he prepared for you to do. I hope I find that soon. I missed the first TCF large group, but went to Chili Night. It is a weird feeling. Even though the majority of the people there are my closest friends I felt oddly out of place, like an outsider looking in on something. It was sad to know that I have given so much of myself to TCF and to know that that chapter of my life is really coming to a close. As much as I would love to continue to be totally involved over the next semester I can't help but feel that in a sense I need to distance myself a bit and figure out what it looks like to follow Jesus outside of TCF. The saddest part is that I feel in some capacity I will miss out on the amazing things that God is doing in my friends lives. Not that we won't continue to be friends, but I will miss out on a lot of the day to day stuff that I think is one of the best parts of living in a college community. Well I should get to bed, especially now that I have rambled on.
"Inside the seed is an apple that can't yet be seen. Good things will come."-a card from Keelah :)
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| i graduate in about 3 weeks. i don't have a clue what I am doing after that.
I am going to Houston this weekend. Pretty excited. I love roadtrips..especially with some of the best ppl ever. Everyone is staying at my house and then we're going to Kingwood. I can't wait!
ok im tired..and its past my bed time
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| update:
i am done working at the daycare...i miss my babies.
i wrecked my car
my brother moves to college tomorrow
i start teaching tomorrow
corey is back :)
i graduate 5 months from wednesday...scary huh
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| When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!
-Maya Angelou-
I have seen this poem in a lot of places lately. I think it is fitting for my life right now. | | |
| a little bug followed me home So, I thought I could make it in Mexico for four days without having the usual stomach culture shock with food, and I almost did, I didn't get sick until I got home. Spent most of last night awake because my stomach hurt so bad..but hopefully i feel better now ::crosses fingers:: Mexico was awesome. Sergio met me at the exit to customs which was a relief because I wasn't all too sure where I was being picked up. Sanrda Heidi and Mama were all at the airport too. We went to Abuelita's house for comida (hamburguesa's) and then we got in the camioneta (all 8 of us it was squished but thats ok) and drove to cuernavaca. It is supposed to take no longer than an hour and a half to get there from mx. city but it took more like 3. We hung out with family till midnight..(i had been awake for over 30 hrs at this point) we went to bed. The next day was Cintia's fiesta so we decorated this salon they rented and it began about 12. We had comida, there was a church service and then everyone went swimming. We went home about 9 and it was Nissi's birthday so we had a birthday celebration when we got back to the house. Sunday we went to a waterpark, and as smart as i am i forgot sunscreen so i am soooooo burnt. Also apparently at least one of the pools we were swimming in did not have chlorine but it was still a fun day, then we drove back to mex city with 10 ppl in the van. Monday Heidi and I met David (one of the guys from my team last year who stayed the year) and we went to help with a vaccation bible school with some of this years team. It was so much fun. It was really cool to see what God had done through David in his year in Mexico and how much his spanish had improved. When I left last summer the only thing he knew was Hola! That night we hung out with our family and Abuelito got the whole family together to pray for me before I left at 5 am the next day. Sergio, Mama and Sandra took me to the airport and I almost missed my flight because the line to check in was so long, we stood in it for 2 hours. I had to run to my gate across the whole airport but I made it! and now i am home. and i miss mexico.  | | |
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