Damn its cold here in Montana..the wind is blowing and its so fuckin cold its not even funny ...right now it is -4 and the windchill is 41below..damn  thats what I get for living in montana..but I love Montana and could never move out of Montana...FUCKIN COLD I SAID BBRRRRR..Wish I had the man  i love here with me cuddling close to me...Oh damn wait..he is not my man yet..but I know if he was he would be cuddling with me

I wrote  this poem today and i wrote it when i  was thinking of the man I love with all my heart...here is the poem...I have lots more poems I will post them when i can...


                                                                  So Far Away

When your gone my heart stops and I may even stop breatheing.

It feels like your so far away even though you are so near.

My heart aches to be loved by you and only you...

My heart has this never ending love for you and only you.

It may seem like you are so far away but my heart knows you are closer then my brain thinks.

Your my lover  and all my heart and soul wants forever and ever

Copyright 11~28~06

    I wrote this in 2000 sometime

          A Special bond

Even though we never met

I feel this special bond between us

A bond that should have taken years to build,yet it was built in  a month or two

A bond that life long friends should have .almost never do.

A bond that I am glad to share with you

My friend and confidant

You are my body and soul

but you come ad a lighted rectangle everyday as a message on my screen.

A message that cheers me uo and makes my day

though a a keyboard we share out ups and downs

I have opened my inner self to you and you have to me as well.

we have traded secerts and laughs as well as sorrow and pain

i have never met you but I feel as if I have known you my whole life.

to most this may sound silly but I assure you it is not..

well not alot has happened since i last posted..but i have wrote a new poem and I would like to share it with my friends...

I wrote it last night at about 10 pm when I was thinking of my hunnie...

Its called.....Why I love u....

Your Eyes,when I gaze into them my heart skips a beat and I just want to melt.

Your Kisses,they are so sweet.when you kiss me my brain feels like its melting.

Your arms so strong.When your arms are around me I feel so safe and I never want you to let me go.

When you look at me I feels so special because I  can see I make you melt with love.

You sure do make me melt hunnie...

Hunnie You are the reason I love...You have made my life have meaning again..here is  the reason Why I love you most..Its because you love me for me...I want to feel this way forever and ever.

I have come to the conclusion that  this poem more leans toward Anthony then any other man i have been with..Cuz everytime Anthony comes back into my life  I just fall head ove r heels in love with him all over again...but yea this is Anthony's poem man i love hat man

her e is the poem

My Poem

 Can't Let Go

Well its been a year  since i last came in here and posted..I would post in myspace but there is something i have to say that i can not post in  there ...Jeff and I are no longer 2gether...we broke up for good in   August 19 2006...I am   so   much happier with out him in my life...I am working again   now I am currently working at a   hotel  cleaning rooms I don't  much like it but it pays  my  bills!!!!        1st off let me tell   u  how  I met this guy.....6 years ago I was  working at the hostpital   in  the nursing home...my 1st day on    the  job  the man that made my  heart skip a beat  came in..(he worked there too) he came in cuz he  hurt  himself and wanted to come tell the boss....He  came up to the ladies that were training me and  I WAS LIKE   OMG!!!   after he left I asked them  what  his name was ....one of  them  said   Anthony  and  from that day  ON  I have been  in    love with him....Well we  are now dating and well he loves me  too..He  told me  Last  Sunday night that   I could have him forever and ever...and i told him that he could  have me forever and ever...damn    I  have loved this man for 6 long years and now he is finally  mine....

Not  much else is happening in my life...Got to get some Christmas shopping done...but i have no idea what i am gonna get any one...i love to shop but  i hate having to find  the perfect present  for  people...I am getting my hunnie a Dale Earnhardt  blanket..he is a fan of  Dale Earnhardt....I like Dale Jr.....I am  going down to our local Christmas stroll later on 2day...maybe i can  find some presents...well any how i better get going...