prischan's Xanga

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Sat, 10 May 2008 02:29:22 GMT

This ship is sinking
I'm thinking I'm done for
I'll watch as the sails disappear under water
'Cause I'm no captain yet

Save me someone. Can't wait for the week to be over! And then I'll be totally dreading the week ahead cos of results urghh.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

Thu, 08 May 2008 06:53:23 GMT

You know what sucks?
Going to class knowing there's a 100% chance the teacher will look at you like you're incapable of thinking, and having a 99% chance you'd get picked on. Thank goodness today was the 1%.

If I don't eat recess and lunch, I will have at least an hour more to study. I like the sound of that.
UNFORTUNATELY, there isn't any time left to study.

And I'm becoming more mentally retarded day by day. I can't even differentiate my handphone from a LUNCH BOX just because they have the same colour. Not to mention, I can't differentiate ANY problem in my tys. So much for textbooks and tys being my best friends. If they're your best friends, you're supposed to UNDERSTAND them right? Well, not in my case. Gosh I'm so screwed.

Quote of the day:
"Girls, why are you so stressed out for mid years? What will happen when you take prelims, o levels, and get burnt out?"
Deanna: We become carbon.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

Wed, 07 May 2008 06:39:04 GMT

Well basically we got back our _____ test that we did (like a freaking ONE MONTH AGO omg) and I did quite well, like 10/13, which is L4 (you know, those LORMS haha). So I guess I did quite well. From what the teacher said, I gathered it was one of the highest in class. So fine. Then she was going through the paper. And I asked her what the L5 was. So I could like, you know, improve my essay writing skills.

Then after that, she was going around (or as I would put it, mercilessly going around trying to pick up at screw those that didn't do their work) checking if we did this essay outline she wanted us to do.
So she got to my table, and just because she didn't see a PRINTED COPY of what we did, happily assumed that we (my desk partner and I) didn't do our work. And started scolding us. But like, WTF?! I wrote down damn bloody a lot of things, and if that isn't detailed, my goodness, I don't know what is.

And then not only that, she had to indirectly (although if you ask me, it was blatantly obvious she was referring to my desk partner and I) scold us in front of the whole class. About how some people are not taking their work seriously, and other stuff.

Like. "Those that did their work and typed it out, this is the kind of work that will stay with them the rest of their lives! When they go back and study for their exams, prelims, o levels, this is what they will be able to see and study. But those that don't do their work properly, this is the kind of work that will stay with them one day, few days, few weeks, one month! Huh? Doing their work in pencil? ..."

WHAT THE?! Just because I do my work my pencil because I'm more comfortable with writing in pencil than in ink, plus it makes my handwriting neater, does it mean that:
1) My work is of any less quality?
2) My work will just vanish into thin air?
3) Printed work is the best just because some teacher will be able to read it?

You know I can't help it if I get a 10/13 for my essay and want to know what the L5 is.
And you know, I can't help it if I do my DRAFT WORK in pencil. YOU DIDN'T SPECIFY YOU WANTED IT IN INK. So there. And I can't help it if the sight of me makes you annoyed at me and think my work is of inferior quality.

Mind you, I'm not doing my work for YOU. I'm doing it so I will do well.
Mr Seow made history bearable
Miss Chia made history fun
You just made history a total chore for me to do. Do you know how much extra effort I have to put in because YOUR TEACHING METHODS DON'T TEACH ME?!

Good day everyone. Hope your day wasn't as sucky as mine.

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Sat, 03 May 2008 09:00:33 GMT

TODAY WAS QUITE A HAPPY DAY! Happy birthday Nic! Full story on my blogger because
1) I'm rather lazy to type everything again
2) Saying the same thing is rather lame hahaha.

Please don't get me wrong
Because I’ll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

Friday, May 02, 2008

Fri, 02 May 2008 06:22:54 GMT

I dropped Higher Chinese so I could do an easier, less daunting Chinese paper so I wouldn't freak out and die. Right? WRONG. The Chinese paper was the hardest mid year paper I've EVER TAKEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE. (ignoring the fact I hardly take mid year papers haha) But seriously. No one knew what was going on?!

Urgh.

Quote of the day: Save water, Drink Beer

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Thu, 01 May 2008 07:14:34 GMT

If I get too stressed, I just might do this.

Happy labour day everyone. Hope you're having a fantastic time studying your ass off.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 06:03:44 GMT

Okay here's an update of my very boring life
Monday: Attempted studying. Did hell loads of chemistry until when I woke up on Tuesday I realised I dreamt of KI (Potassium Iodide) my goodness

Tuesday: PE LESSON. Just when I thought Monday couldn't get any warmer... I was proven entirely WRONG. The day was so hot, I was so tired I forgot to bring my PE shirt I had to do PE in my uniform that doesn't absorb sweat well at all. And I was seriously drenched by the end of the lesson. Not to mention smelly sigh. But Rivali's words of comfort helped! "Don't worry, Mr ____'s probably drowning by now" HAHA!

Wednesday: Very tiring day, but at least I didn't sleep in school, and my piano teacher came to pick me up so I got to go home early! (For piano lesson hurhurhur haha) But I got a free Coffee Bean cookie! HAHA.

And I found on the freakiest thing ever. My laoshi actually attends the same church as me. HAHA. But it's a different service, just the same building, and that my service is after hers. FREAKY!

I should start locking up my computer heh.

Run.

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 10:31:44 GMT

I'm not a cross-country runner, or one to regularly step out of my house to go to the lake near my house to run. But when I run, I just feel a sense of liberation. It's like you're running away... running away...

But today. I realised something else about running.
In the past, when I run, I used to run for myself. Always thought of it as a challenge, to challenge myself, push myself to the limits, feel the oxygen rushing into my burning lungs. Someone that feeling of bursting ribs just makes me feel human again. That I'm able to feel pain. Running was also some form of escape for me. In our fast-paced society, just sitting down and thinking about everything but nothing in particular (or sometimes just something that is bothering you) would seem like a total waste of time. So why not go and run, and think at the same time? I remember when I used to do my 2.4 runs, I would sing the song "Running After You" in my head, or imagine someone that I love dearly is running away, and I'm running after that person, but never being able to catch up, hence I will push myself and pu(ni)sh myself, until I reach the end.

But now I've also realized that running can be so much more than that. That every step you take, shouldn't be for you own glory, shouldn't be for boasting rights, but it should be something you should be thankful for. How every step is blessed by God, how thankful we should be we have legs to run.

I have no idea what the whole purpose of that was. Just to get my thoughts out anyway.
Mid years are coming. I'm feeling the stress, and I don't know how to cope with it.
Simple starving to be safe, burying myself in books, pu(ni)shing myself to do more questions when I can't get others right, refusing to eat in school, binging at home, sleeping the stress away only to wake up and realised I've just doubled the trouble, pretending every thing's alright in school when I'm just a wreck. I don't even crave communication anymore. How pathetic is that.

But in everything, Let Go, Let God. I'm trying, I'm trying. But sometimes trying just isn't enough.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 08:30:05 GMT

Today was quite a good day because I came in 3rd for 2.4 :)
But then it was the "not as fast" batch as Tuesday.
But still. It was my personal best! :)

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 06:51:58 GMT

From Evan's blog! (Our GEL video)

I just cannot in the world, phantom why we lost. It's so freaking good and funny okay! Just because we didn't say anything about Excellence in MGS. If everyone just goes on about how "Godly" "Excellent" "Lovely" MGS is, it's just so...kiss ass. I mean okay there might be some truth to it, but surely Godliness, Excellence, and Love is not just confined to a building situated on 11 Blackmore Drive is it?

PHYSICS IS PURE TORTURE.