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Name: Summer
Gender: Female
Interests: Current Events, Music, Theology, Missions, Japanese, Reading, Christian Apologetics, Polemics, Singing in the Shower, Peanut Butter
Expertise: In the art of clumsiness
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  summercaniglia
Member Since:
8/21/2006
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| Being DisciplinedDo you know what is really frustrating? Its when you try hard at something and you fail and its because of a lack of discipline. I have been trying to diet. To eat right and exercise. I have gained weight that I really need to lose and quite frankly its hard. Often times I just feel like giving up. Other times I have. It just seems that I can't get motivated enough to work out as much as I should, or eat the way I am suppose to.
I think there will be two responses to those that read this. Those that say
1) Summer you don't need to lose any weight
2) Its about time...
According to my doctor and BMI charts, I need to lose 15-20 pounds. That may not sound like a lot to some, but man, its been hard! Honestly, I wish that I was totally happy with myself and I could just accept where I am, but I am not. I have never been labeled the cute girl before, I have struggled with weight since I was in junior high. I feel so self conscious around other women my age. Sometimes I think college is worse than middle school or high school. After seeing recent pictures of myself, I feel so disgusted with myself. Pictures are far worse than what I see in the mirror.
The worst part of this struggle is that I know what the Bible teaches. I know that I am fearfully and wonderfully made and that beauty is vain. I know that I should focus on the Lord, for a woman who fears the Lord is priceless. I know these things. Then why can't I fully believe them? Why am I confident that there is going to be someone that thinks I am the best thing since slice bread? I mean really...
I guess for now I will continue to struggle...
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| JapanI saw that a missions organization has a semester in Japan this spring. I really would like to go, only I need to graduate... I ask that you guys pray that I be content where the Lord has me now, which is here...
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| The New Facebook is EVIL. Okay, so my words may seem pretty strong, but I am pretty upset at the latest turn that facebook has turn. I enjoyed facebook as a tool to keep in contact with people, but I do not appreciate it turning into a gossip circle. For those of you who don't know about it, facebook now follows your every move and posts it to all of your friends. It tells your friends who you wrote messages to. It tell everyone who you were in a relationship with. It even tells people the groups you have joined.
Quite honestly, I do not need this much information on my friends. I really do not care to get involved in the latest gossip of who is dating who. I believe that UMHB is already like a high school in some respects that everyone knows about everyone, but I believe facebook is only going to exacerbate the problem. I have already experienced gossip on my behalf.
I just want to let everyone I do not have to put my relationship status on facebook! Just because I take single off of my profile, it does not mean I am dating anyone. Perhaps I don't want to broadcast to the whole world my singleness! Sorry if I seem upset, but everyone is bugging me and I am finding it quite annoying. Let this girl be in peace please...
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| J-O-B Everybody, guess what??? I am the newest TELECOUNSELER for UMHB! Woohoo!
Hi, my name is Summer and I am calling on behalf of the University of Mary Hardin Baylor. Yes! Or sould I say YE$?
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| Refined By The FireI must be honest. This whole blog thing is hard for me to do. I have stuff to write about, but it seems so insignificant or strange for me to post it on the Internet for everyone to read. Sorry to my friends who keep asking when I am going to put up another post...But you have to be patient with me until I feel comfortable about writing. I am going to give it a try...
I have been going through a lot right now. I know it is from God and He is refining and I think He is working in my life as to what that means to me as Christian. The Scriptures talk about how God refines us by putting us through trials.
James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
James 1:12
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
I find it interesting that James doesn't say that if you face trials, but rather he implies that there will be trials by his use of the word "whenever." I am even more astounded that James tells us to consider it pure joy when we face trials! The Lord has been working in my life about this. I think that we don't really know the depth and ugliness of our charater until we are put under pressure. I know for me, it is so easy for me to be kind and loving when everything is going well, but I am not quick to be kind when I am hurting. In the santification process, Christ wants us to be whole, mature and complete. There is never any promise that we will be free from pain. Taking the words of James, it is expected. I have been dealing with some really hard things but instead of complaining about my struggles, I am looking to the Lord with a glad heart for the oppurtunity to be refined, to grow.
People who know me well, know that I have been through a tremendous amount of pain in my life. I have experienced more heartache in my 19 years, then some retirees have experienced in their entire lives. I have often questioned God why I have been through so much. People have asked me the same. At times I have been upset and bitter with God because I have wondered why I have been handed so much, but yet there are people in my life that have very little idea what pain is. However, the Lord spoke to me this morning in my time with Him. I was reading in Zechariah.
Zechariah 13:8-9
In the whole land," declares the LORD,
"two-thirds will be struck down and perish;
yet one-third will be left in it. This third I will bring into the fire;
I will refine them like silver
and test them like gold.
They will call on my name
and I will answer them;
I will say, 'They are my people,'
and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.' "
Those that have studied the Old Testament, knows that God promised that there would be a remnant, a portion of those that he had set apart to follow Him. In verse 9 the "third" was a remnant, a small part of the whole.These believers were refined like silver and gold through the fire of their difficult situations. I want to be part of that small portion. I want to be obedient and serve Him with my life. I want to be like Christ and be used by Him, and I have determined in my heart if that means more trials, then so be it.
Prasise be to God who is my Lord, Savior and Refiner!
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Arriving
By Chris Tomlin, Steven Curtis Chapman
Your Grace is Enough
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