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Interests: 1. God.. My reason for living, my reason for singing, me reason for everything...
2. Black coffee...
3. Simple things in life.. a breath of fresh morning air, the smell of clean laundry and a bouquet of daisies, the tender smiles of the aged and the hearty laughter of children...
4. Music.. the expression of the soul and mind...
Expertise: ...shrug...
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research
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Yahoo:  ps2391@yahoo.com
Member Since:
8/11/2004
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| New Weblog EntryI had this brilliant idea of blogging in the office... Not so brilliant actually. I'm using up my lunch time to do a bit ot reflective typing and perhaps enjoying the solitude which I hardly am entitled to in the office, plus of course weight-loss from skipping lunch since I had food during the morning tea break.
Our posting was announced yesterday afternoon and I can't help but feel troubled and envious - Troubled, not knowing what is to become of me and envious since a colleague of mine got the spot I've been dreaming off... Working in Shenton Way, the financial backbone of Singapore, the most prestigeous working district in the country... And what more I don't really feel that he deserves it for what he has done during the training sessions (my apologies for expressing this loudly) and since it's his first job, why would the bank post someone will less than little experience to handle such big and major clients of the bank? Sigh...
I've been posted to Toa Payoh HDB Hub... I've had splitting views since then, some telling me that the top sales person from DBS was previously situated in Toa Payoh and another view that I would have to double up efforts since walk-in is minimum and there are no CA (teller) services at the branch, thus no referrals. SIgh... Not forgetting that majority of the residents are Chinese-speaking... And all I can speak is... Aunty, ni yau invest in UT ma? Great......
But God spoke and when He speaks, I'd say the best advice I could give you is LISTEN. I knew it'd be hard to tap into SME and Corporate Banking, especially if I'm not situated with them at all... And that was my prayer a few months back, thinking that it'd be great if I could just perhaps do a few joint sales calls with these colleagues, I'd probably be able to learn more and even specialize in future. I guess God did have a reason for placing me there... My interview with SCB was in Toa Payoh, when I met Adeline the BDM of SME and it will be great to be able to work with her.
God gentle reminded me this morning that He will hold my hand and be with me even though I've been sent to Toa Payoh and not Shenton Way (sighs... I'll still work towards that dream, perhaps join International Banking some day). He reminded me of Jer 29:11-13 which He has given me many times already and it is my pledge to excel in order to glorify His name. I may not have colleagues that I know previously going there with me or are already situated there (some of my colleagues do sigh and I think it'll be easier for them to adjust in the beginning and things may not be so daunting) but I think having Big Daddy there with me is more than enough... I mean why would I want A CSM who would "take care of me" when I have God, the Almighty who holds all things and is all things.
In fact, on Sunday during service when the pastor made an altar call for those who wanted prayer over their work, I was so close to going out as I was anxious about the targets set for me. And eventhough I did not go out, He gently whispered once again... "I will provide. Leave the figures at my footstep..."
I'm committing everything that I have and want to achieve to God and He will provide... | | |
| Get Yourself Together
Can two walk together, except they be agreed??Amos 3:3)
When it comes to faith, a lot of believers feel like they have one foot nailed to the ground. No matter how hard they try, they just can't seem to make any progress.
If you'll watch them, you can see why. They literally haven't "gotten themselves together." One minute they'll be telling you, "Oh yes, amen, I believe the Word," and the next minute they'll be spouting unbelief like it's going out of style. "I know God says He'll prosper us, but I'll tell you what, my business is doing so badly, it's about to give me ulcers. I can't sleep at night for worrying."
Dig a little deeper and you may find out that they've pulled their actions out of line with the Word as well. "Well, you understand, brother, I can't possibly tithe with my income like it is. I'd go under!"
Faith just won't work for a person like that.
You see, you're a triune being. You are a spirit. You have a soul, which consists of your mind, will, and emotions. And you live in a body. Each of those areas has a specific role to play in your faith walk. You have to get all three in agreement before you can go anywhere at all!
Start by feeding your spirit on the Word of God. Just like the body produces physical strength when you nourish it with food, the spirit produces spiritual strength when you nourish it with the Word. That spiritual strength is called faith. Develop that faith, and instead of your spirit being dominated by the other two areas, it will be the one in charge.
Next, bring your soul in line. Set your mind on "things above." Meditate on the Word until your thoughts begin to agree with it. Keep your attention on it until even your emotions yield.
Finally, bring your body in line. Once you truly get your spirit and soul established on the Word, that won't be hard. The body is a follower, not a leader. It will do whatever you train it to do. Begin teaching your body to act on the truth you've planted in your mind and spirit, and it will follow right along.
Don't try to walk in faith with your foot nailed to the ground. Get yourself together! Bring your spirit, soul, and body in harmony--and the Word will take you as far as you want to go.
Scripture Reading: 1 Thessalonians 5:14-24
taken from http://www.kcm.org/studycenter/devotional
*Thanks Yvonne for the encouragement. Sigh I need God now than ever before. I need His strength, His guidance, His grace, His providence... Most of all, I need His wisdom. God, grant me Your wisdom to know what to do that I may glorify Your name and make You happy. | | |
| The Fern and The Bamboo
One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality.. I wanted to quit my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle." He said to me.
"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?"
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. He will never give up on you.
Lately I've been rather troubled and anxious - about my new job, about what lies ahead and about my purpose in the Kingdom of God. It's been a long time since I served in a ministry and I'm still seeking, and searching to find out where I belong. I feel rather purposeless and meaningless to live on just like this, day in and day out, not knowing what I was made for. But I know God has a marvelous plan for me for He confirmed it again at Camp last year... But I'm still waiting...
The story has greatly lifted my day and strengthen my faith. May it do the same for you.
I will trust in your promises Oh, Lord for You are faithful and true, even to the end...
"For the word of the LORD holds true, and everything he does is worthy of our trust." - Psalm 33:4
"Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who trust in him!" - Psalm 34:8
"Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust him, and he will help you." - Psalm 37:5
"But when I am afraid, I put my trust in you." - Psalm 56:3
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths." - Proverbs 3:5 | | |
| Your Grace Is Sufficient
By Martin J. Nystrom
?1991 Integrity's Hosanna! Music/ASCAP
Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
All that I cling toI lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me
I'm no longer striving
To merit Your love
I rest in Your promise to me
That all of my sins have
Been washed in Your blood
Your mercy is all that I need
You see me as righteous
Because of the blood
That made the atonement for me
Your mercy has triumphed
Where I should be judged
So now by Your grace I am free
You Are So Faithful
Like the sun that rises every day
You are so faithful
Lord, You are faithful
Like the rain that You send and every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful oh, Lord
Like the rose that comes alive every Spring
You are so faithful
Lord, You are faithful
Like the life that you give to every beat of my heart
You are so faithful oh, Lord
I see the Cross and the price that You had to pay
I see the blood that washed my sins away
In the midst of a storm through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful
When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more
You'll still be faithful
You'll still be faithful oh, Lord
Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day. - Lam 3:23
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them... What can we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? - Rom 8:28, 31
I love the Word of God. Every verse, every chapter, every book speaks forth encouragement and blessings even in the hardest of times. I'm learning to bless His name even when I'm in the valley.
Lesson from my quiet time today.
I told God yesterday at service that I want to worship Him even when times are difficult now. I asked of Him to show me what it means to worship and praise Him in the midst of troubles.
I flipped open my Bible this afternoon and read Psalm 63.
Psalm 63
A psalm of David, regarding a time when David was in the wilderness of Judah.
1 O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you; my whole body longs for you in this parched and weary land where there is no water.
2 I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory.
3 Your unfailing love is better to me than life itself; how I praise you!
4 I will honor you as long as I live, lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
5 You satisfy me more than the richest of foods. I will praise you with songs of joy.
6 I lie awake thinking of you, meditating on you through the night.
7 I think how much you have helped me; I sing for joy in the shadow of your protecting wings.
8 I follow close behind you; your strong right hand holds me securely.
9 But those plotting to destroy me will come to ruin. They will go down into the depths of the earth.
10 They will die by the sword and become the food of jackals.
11 But the king will rejoice in God. All who trust in him will praise him, while liars will be silenced.
It says that King David wrote this psalm when he was in the wilderness of Judah. I recalled a sermon by Pastor Mike Pilavachi (the pastor of Matt Redman) and he described the desert being a torturous place for Moses; that the 40 years he spent fleeing had stripped him of all his self-confidence, pride and sense of self-worth. This caused me to question why would King David have wrote such a psalm of praise while he was in the wilderness.
I traced the Psalm back to 2 Samuel 15, telling us how David and his men were fleeing Israel as Absolom (his 3rd son) has stirred up a rebellion against the king of Israel, his father. As David fled he was sorrowful as the Bible says that he was "weeping as he went. His head was covered and his feet were bare as a sign of mourning." (2 Sam 15:30) Could you imagine being betrayed by your own son? And what more in the previous chapter, 2 Samuel 14 we would read that Absolom has just been reconciled to David, "... and Absolom came and bowed low before the king, and David kissed him." (2 Sam 14:33) What treachery! King David's heart must have been crushed!
And when I read 2 Samuel 15, God had revealed to me what it means to worship and praise even in the midst of my enemies, my troubles and my sadness... In the example of King David, the greatest worshipper of all times. "I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory. Your unfailing love is better to me than life itself; how I praise you!" This is indeed a revelation and I praise God for revealing such a truth to me. (Oh, I went out to be prayed for yesterday and the person who prayed for me said that I would be given new revelations with this new job. *Smiles* It's happening already!)
Yesterday's sermon was very apt as I prepare myself for a new job, a new place, new relationships, new challenges. God has been very good to me and I'm learning to lean on Him, on His every promise - He said His grace will be sufficient for me and I'm already experiencing it. When I was low I had Leon and Yvonne to comfort me. I was so afraid that night after bathing that when I returned to my room my hands were shaking. I've always hated being in the dark and my landlord's altar table scares me at night. I kept speaking in tongues and singing "In the name of Jesus we have the victory" as I hurried back to my room. As soon as I reached, Yvonne called my mobile phone and that gave me great relief... God is really good. He knows my every need and He provides.
God is amazing and as I was worshipping Him at Camp and at church yesterday morning, I thought to myself, "How can anyone not worship Him? How can anyone not see that this is the Living God?"
How can anyone not see... How can anyone not see Jesus?
"All hail King Jesus, All hail Emmanuel, King of Kings, Lord of Lords, Bright Morning Star,
And throughout eternity I'll sing Your praises, And I'll reign with You throughout eternity" | | |
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Yes this is Nat Nat, and she is growing up fast! Isn't she lovely?!
The wonderful and loving 3 sisters and their lovely mother!
David and I put this up, not that tough after all.
LOOK AT ALL THESE GLORIOUS FOOD!!!
AND THE EVER DELICIOUS TURKEY - cooked under the recipe of my mommy!
This family can really eat...
All in all, it was a great time spending Christmas back home, with all the food and everybody. Can't wiat till the Christmas!!! Hehehe...
I am sorry that there is so little photos uploaded, because I have reached the limit of 10MB in Xanga. I will upload more next time round ya.
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