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Currently Listening Disc One: All Their Greatest Hits 1991-2001 By Barenaked Ladies Crazy see related

So yeah i am supposed to be at Brennen Blacks house with the rest of the wrestling team but instead i am at home and will be returning to the meet at 5:15ish so that i can finish the rest of the wrestling matches! or more like watch the team finish the rest of their matches! Fun fun happy time! What i really should be doing is hanging out with korey,kelly and aaron before kelly leave since we havent been double dating yet with them unless you count that halloween thing that turned out to be kind of scary! I hope that i can at least hang out with them tomorrow!

Now i think that i will put some lyrics down i will find them and put them here once i pick a song that is meaningful to my life right now and below type a explianation!

"Crazy"

I climb the walls of my mind just like I'm climbing on a jungle gym
I am more than content with the
state of mind I am in
'cause I am crazy just like you
I am crazy just like you.

I don't think I need a rubber room,
but hey, that might be nice
I'm not a manic depressive paranoid or schizophrenic
so I don't need your advice.
I am crazy just like you
I am crazy just like you.

The lights are on but nobody's home
my elevator doesn't go to the top
I'm not playing with a full deck
I've lost my marbles
The lights are on but nobody's home
my elevator doesn't go to the top
I'm not playing with a full deck
I've lost my marbles.

I'm a few bricks short of a load,
but a full load always hurt my back.
I flew over the cuckoo's nest and
I'm never ever coming back because
I am crazy just like you
I am crazy just like you.
I am crazy.

I looked at so many songs some nasty, sweet, or stupid but i found this one and was like!!!!"cat in the fish bowl(meow) somebody ate it (how how)"! Oh yeah baby thats right I am super crazy but so is everyone that i spend time with(even you steph)! so it is cool to be crazy with the ppl that i hang around! Even though i may sometimes be annoying to certian ppl like(coughs) Korey!!!! I am still semi calm! More so than say kelly!(love you girl but you got that title when you kissed me, bit me, and sucked my horn!) so yeah see its the COOL thing to do now days so yeah suck someones horn or something like that and be titled crazy by those that you love....like me!

Currently Listening Queen - Greatest Hits By Queen bicycle see related

MAn i am seriously glad that we didnt have school today for several reason! 1) I satyed up way to late talking to korey making my body unmovable this morning 2) I just realized that i still had some homework let over from kurtz that i hadnt touched and i dont have a study hall before his class! 3) I love the snow and I would hate to be at school with all this lovely mess around me!

On the other hand I had a pretty good day yesterday with meg and talking to korey! Meg came over and we watched "constantine" which was the second time i had seen it! Great movie and meg jumped alot about the blood etc which made it even better! The only bad thing that happened when i got home was that my stupid cat was and still is getting on my last nerve like last nite. he wouldnt stop meowing nor whould he get the hint that i didnt want to sleep with him, since i pushed him off the bed like 20 times last nite!

Okay well i hope that you guys are having a nice day off and that you are outside enjoying this great white stuff! well i have chores and then more than likely i will head over to moms or even maybe go sledding with meg or someone!

Currently Listening Rock Steady By No Doubt #9 see related

People say that they want to know me but i guess you can say that i hate the way i am and i am deathly afraid of letting ppl see the real me and not liking it! Even to jay and meg who dont judge me(or that i dont think judge me) I am still kind of holding back! And sorry Korey but i sure as hell am not the real me when you are around because i dont know i guess i am afraid that you wont like me or find me annoying! I am so afraid of this that I hold back to the point where i just dont say what I really think! I struggle with ppl in this way because i really want certian ppl to like me and it hurts when they see me as what i really am and really hate me or find me annoying!

I AM THE FAKEST PERSON THAT YOU WILL EVER MEET!

 On the other hand i am watching Americas next top model and i am so envious! I really wish now that i was more pretty and less shy! I wish that I was a model like i used to want to be but i know now that i can never be because of the fact that I am in no way model material! Oh well I hope that I dont start up with my old ways again and that i keep it cool and not get to caught up in looking like shit like i always do! I hope that I am not coming off as a dumbass but it brings back old memories!

Okay Now i must say that I have heard from several ppl that certain ppl are trying to break korey and I up that so far hasnt worked!I just hope that i can open up more and not scare him off! I hate putting on a front!

"Running"

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

[Chorus:]
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up

Currently Listening The Reason By Hoobastank What happened to us? see related

Okay so I am in a sappy mood! I just watched the movie "love accually" which turned out to be a great movie! But yeah i have to say that is all i want for christmas is you and you know who the "you" is so dont act so surprised!

As most of you know I am going to Florida for two weeks with my family for christmas. And i hoped that it would be a Christmas that i could spend with korey but it turns out as a Christmas away from Ohio!

I can deal with leaving most of my family but My friends and the snow is a different story. I know that i will come back darker and hopefully happy but i will serverely miss all the times that i could be spending with my friends especially korey and meg!

So i just thought that i would mention that i will miss all of you! But since I am "with" korey I think i will miss him most of all! I wish he was here now so that i could see those brown eyes staring into mine while we joke around and beat each other up!

What more can I say except that i think that song was great that he said he though was great for us at the time! the more i think about it the more i find it true except i hope that we never give up and leave each other! Yet there are times where it seems impossible to keep it together i still want you with everything that I am! ~ I care for you korey and you know it!!!!xoxo

3. What Happened To Us - (3:59)
I thought it was too good to be true
I found somebody who understands me
someone who would help me to get through
and fill an emptiness I had inside me
but you kept inside and I just denied
some things that we should have both said
I knew it was too good to be true
cause I'm the only one who understands me

What happened to us
we used to be so perfect
now we're lost and lonely
what happened to us
and deep inside I wonder
did I loose my only

Remember they thought we were too young
to really know what it takes to make it
but we had survived off what we have done
and we could show them all that they're mistaken
but who could have known the lies that would grow
until we could see right through them
remember they knew we were too young
we still don't know what it takes to make it

What happened to us
we used to be so perfect
now we're lost and lonely
what happened to us
and deep inside I wonder
did I loose my only one

We could have made it work, we could have found a way
we should have done our best to see another day
but we kept it all inside until it was too late
and now we're both alone, the consequence we pay
for throwing it all away, for throwing it all away

What happened to us
we used to be so perfect
now we're lost and lonely
what happened to us
and deep inside I wonder
did I loose my only

What happened to us
what happened to us
what happened to us
what happened to us

~ I dedicate this to korey hoping that this never happens to us but that we do make it no matter what or who comes between us! Will i loose my only???There is just something about him!!! I dont know what but i When i find out i will be ready to die!Because that day will be the day i find the true meaning of solace!