Currently Listening Rock Steady By No Doubt #9 see related

People say that they want to know me but i guess you can say that i hate the way i am and i am deathly afraid of letting ppl see the real me and not liking it! Even to jay and meg who dont judge me(or that i dont think judge me) I am still kind of holding back! And sorry Korey but i sure as hell am not the real me when you are around because i dont know i guess i am afraid that you wont like me or find me annoying! I am so afraid of this that I hold back to the point where i just dont say what I really think! I struggle with ppl in this way because i really want certian ppl to like me and it hurts when they see me as what i really am and really hate me or find me annoying!

I AM THE FAKEST PERSON THAT YOU WILL EVER MEET!

 On the other hand i am watching Americas next top model and i am so envious! I really wish now that i was more pretty and less shy! I wish that I was a model like i used to want to be but i know now that i can never be because of the fact that I am in no way model material! Oh well I hope that I dont start up with my old ways again and that i keep it cool and not get to caught up in looking like shit like i always do! I hope that I am not coming off as a dumbass but it brings back old memories!

Okay Now i must say that I have heard from several ppl that certain ppl are trying to break korey and I up that so far hasnt worked!I just hope that i can open up more and not scare him off! I hate putting on a front!

"Running"

Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side

Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love

[Chorus:]
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated

Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up