Currently Listening Stand Still, Look Pretty By The Wreckers, Michelle Branch, Jessica Harp Stand Still, Look Pretty see related

The Wreckers-Stand Still, Look Pretty

I wanna paint my face and pretend that I am someone else

Sometimes I get so fed up, I don't even wanna look at myself

But people have problems that are worse than mine

I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time

And I hate the way you look at me I have to say

I wish that I could start over

I am slowly falling apart

I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start

And you might think it's easy being me

You just stand still look pretty

Sometimes I find myself shaking in the middle of the night

And then it hits me and I can't even believe this is my life

But people have problems that are worse than mine

I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time

And I wish everyone would just go and shut their mouth

I'm not strong enough to deal with it

I went out to the cemetary today for the first time since the funeral. It's so weird just leaving him there. He's just a baby. My mom says she feels like she should stay there with him, just so he won't be scared when he's alone...On a lighter note, Abe is doing great. He will be three months old tomorrow! We're having a family trip to the zoo on Saturday. Then I'm off to Kenny's house for a par-tay. Sunday my Aunt and three cousins are coming down.I'm going down to Foodland sometime today to get a job application.I still don't know where I'm going to school this year. My mom is so hard to read sometimes. She's very back and forth at the moment, and exceptionally confusing...

Kenny Chesney-Who You'd Be Today decided to come on the radio and ruin my day. I miss my little brother, even if I did only know him for 5 days. I never imagined that I could love someone so much when I had known them for only a short amount of time. And you can't imagine how much it hurts every day to walk into a nursery with 2 beds, knowing that only one of them will ever be used.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.

Would you see the world, would you chase your dreams
Settle down with a family
I wonder what would you name your babies
Somedays the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today.

Today, today, today
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again some day
Someday, someday...

Currently Listening Lifesong By Casting Crowns Love Them Like Jesus see related

Love Them Like Jesus-Casting Crowns

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
A little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night, blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

You're holding their hand, you're straining for words
You're trying to make sense of it all
They're desperate for hope, darkness clouding their view
They're looking to you

Just love them like Jesus, carry them to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves them and stay by their side
And love them like Jesus

Jacob Clifford Dixon, five day old son of John William and Stephanie Ann-Marker-Dixon, of Gallipolis, Ohio, died Tuesday,May 23, 2006 at Holzer Medical Center.He was born on May 18, 2006, in Pt. Pleasant.He was preceded in death by paternal grandparents, Cliff A. Dixon and Sharlene L. Dixon.In addition to his parents, Jacob is survived by his twin brother, Abraham Charles Dixon, sisters, Deanna and Amanda Johnson, of Gallipolis, maternal grandparents, Charles and Merdith Marker, of Pt. Pleasant, paternal step grandmother, Sharon A. Dixon, of Wheelersburg, Ohio, and several aunts, uncles, and cousins. Funeral Services will be held at 1 p.m. on Fri. May 26, 2006 at the Wilcoxen Funeral Home in Pt. Pleasant with the Rev. Charles Marker officiating.Burial will follow in the Ohio Valley Memorial Gardens in Gallipolis.Visitation will be Thurs. from 6-9 p.m. at the funeral home.

This has been the hardest week of my entire life. Please pray for my family and I.

RIP baby brother.