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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 16:04:05 GMT

I guess it's been awhile huh. Well I'm glad I can say at the moment everything is ok. You know that's ok with me. I have my ups and downs of course, plan and simple life is hard. How we are is how we view the life we have at the moment. I am probably making little sense. Anyways, to update all who care to know and those who are just bored and stumbled upon this I'll tell you a bit about me now. I graduated from college in 2004, I missed my actual graduation because my boyfriend had a hunting accident and was in a hospital awaiting his above knee amputation. I would much rather be with him at a time like that then walking across a stage to get a piece of paper. (I only put that in because some people were upset that I did not attend graduation and I really couldn't see the comparison). His operation went as well as could be expected and he recovered quite quickly and I am happy to say is currently able to walk with a prostetic leg. I am now a full time counselor at a small non-for profit agency. Within this agency I help women and children who are having family problems access different services within our county and I help them work through their problems. I also facilitate a women's support group once a week. Were a small agency but for our size I think we make a good impact on the county. My son is now 6 years old and has recently just started first grade. He is learning how to read and although he gets very excited about being able to read his attention span often gets in his way and we both get a little frustrated at night when he reads to me. We will definatly keep working on it though. My boyfriend started a band about 3 months age and that also keeps me busy. He has done 3 gigs already and sounds great. He is the singer, it's something he has always wanted to do so I'm really glad he has the chance to follow this dream. He also has two sons with his very soon to be ex-wife. He tries to spend time with them when he can but since school started back up it's harder to arrange times. We also just recently moved and are in the process of building them a room to stay in. We'll get into the swing of things again though. I also have to mention my puppy Stormy. We just got her about 2 months ago. She is an 8 month old Pitbull and she is the sweatest thing, a little hyper but really not bad. Yesterday I took her outside with my nieces and we were playing on the swing set and Stormy comes over, climbs the ladder to the slide following me and then goes down the slid after me. It was so cute. Well, that's some of my hectic life, it's good though.

Monday, April 14, 2003

Mon, 14 Apr 2003 23:23:56 GMT

It was actually warmish today. Tomorrow is supposed to be warmer, but then it will turn back into winter and our two day summer will be over at least that's what they are saying on tv. I really didn't like the last pic I had up I looked very zombieish. This one is much better because it has my cute little son Zachy in it. I look different now because I just got my hair dyed again. It's kinda fun, blond, red and brown streaks. A couple of people told me they liked it today but most just stare. It's somewhat daring around her anyway I guess. It's mainly just the blond that is the oddish part. The lady who did it decided that a big clump of blond on each side in the front would look good and then just a few really thin strips on each side of blond. The red is very red, not natrual red or anything like that just very red. I love the red the blond will be ok for shocking value for a while. I'm back to school again. No more spring vacation...if you could call it that. Might as well of just called it a second winter break.

Thursday, April 03, 2003

Thu, 03 Apr 2003 16:06:46 GMT

I want spring and I want it now! It's so cold here still like 30s and snow. ITs just dreadful dreadful. I'm on spring break next week too and I'm not going anywhere for it. Probably just a spring break full of mittens and warm clothes. Now does that sound right, (don't you dare say yes) I want to hear hell no or something of the sort. I'm trying to be more opptimistic about things though (can't you tell?) so I'm going to say, at least it's a week long break that I'm adding on to because I'm taking tomorrow off too. Just because my boyfriend is having reconstrutive surgury on his shoulder though. I'm only missing one class because the rest were cancelled. I'm trying to get an internship for this summer but this whole interview thing is really getting in the way, why on earth would a company want to put me through this is beyond me. I know who I am and that I can do the job, they should just go with that and trust me. You would think that they care on who they hire or something. (If you think I'm being seriouse, I'm not) Ok so I'm shy and I want to work with people, I don't know why they won't hire me, just because I don't talk much? Stupid reason if you ask me, well if you asked me I probably wouldn't say anything but I wouldn't say anything in a loud way, so there! Or at least that's what my proffesor told me the other day, he's like, "Sarah, your what we call a loud quiet" HUH! What is that supposed to mean I just nodded and smiled, ok whatever you say. But he said it in such a nice way. I know the internship guy is thinking, you picked the wrong career choice, sociology is definately not for someone who can't talk. I know he's just itching to say it. I'm thinking it too though, do you think it's to late to quit my sociology and psychology majors and start a different one? I don't even like them anymore. I really don't know what I want to do at all. I mean sure I would like to help people, believe it or not I do like interacting with people. It's just I don't know. But anyways it is too late because I only have one more year left. I really hate to take the last three years and throw them out and start over again. So I'll finish it up and then...uhhh I really don't know. Ohohoh Greatest news ever, as of March 19th 2003 I am officially DIVORCED! I'm seroiusly thinking about hanging the papers on the wall, they are so beautiful I just want to cry. And in celebration of my new divorce I bought myself a fourwheeler. Yup yup and I absolutly love the thing. It's a Bombardier Quest 500, Viper red, 2003. SO it's not a race type one but it can get up to 60 or so, I really don't know much about them except that I love riding them. My boyfriend has had several and my last boyfriend had one which is what got me started on them. I just love to go fast though. We are thinking about getting a race type one this summer, either that or a motercycle. I love those too. I rode on one with my cousins husband last summer and I kept telling him to go faster, we had it going at least a 100 but he had on an open helmet so he didn't want to go any faster then that. Lots of fun. The faster the better. I rally want to go skydiving again this summer and maybe bungee jumping if I can find some place near by that does it.

Tuesday, January 21, 2003

Tue, 21 Jan 2003 19:48:36 GMT

Aghhh College starts up again tomorrow. Just three more semesters...just three more long semesters...Just three more really long boring semesters...Gotta go get Zachy in the tub. At least someone is excited to go back to school/daycare. He can't wait to see his friends and teachers again.

Friday, January 17, 2003

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 19:17:23 GMT

It wouldn't be so bad if the packing hadn't been spread out over the last three weeks and if I wasn't moving just up the road. No new people our places for me just yet. Just back to the same place I lived from the time I was 3 till 16 then again from 19 till 20. Oh well. I'll live.

Thursday, January 09, 2003

Thu, 09 Jan 2003 10:31:05 GMT

I guess I'm not good at keeping up on this. Christmas went good for me and New years I guess. It's just different then it used to be but that's ok. I started to right once right after Christmas but the electrician came over and turned the power off on me before I got a chance to finish. Then Jon took my computer to have some new programs put on it and I haven't gotten it back yet. It will probably be awhile, but he knows a guy oh can do everything so it won't cost much...you know how that goes. So other words he will get it done in his own sweet time but hey I really can't complain it's alot cheaper then taking it somewhere. Jon moved into my moms apartment that she is renting to him last weekend. I talked myself into moveing in with him now instead of waiting till this summer. Maybe not the wisest dicision but we will see how it goes it's not like it has to be final. I'm happy though and it is what I want right now. I just have to figure out a way to tell his friends they won't be staying the night as much as they have this past week once Zach and I move in. We did talk about it with each other and we both agree on it it's just figuring out a way to say go home to them with out hurting their feelings. But we also agreed that if it comes down to it we will hurt some feelings if we have to. It's not that I don't like his friends, the two that have been staying are both really nice guys and all it's just that they both have places to stay and I'd really just like some time alone with just Zach and Jon in our new place. They can come over all they want as long as they go home for at least during the night. Oh well we will also see how that goes. There's just to much to do to move stuff. I hate moving but I think I'm almost done. Just some books and glass stuff left to move. Then Jon has to do the rest like the dressers and my trunk and stuff.

Monday, December 16, 2002

Mon, 16 Dec 2002 19:55:52 GMT

Everything good here. My sister had her baby on Nov. 30. Named her Amelia Claire. Very cute baby. Zach so loves her, when she cries sometimes he will sing to her. It's sooo sweet. What else...My friend Heather has mono and so does my cousin. I've been really tired lately and sick feeling I'm hoping it's just some kind of stomach flu sorta thing. I'm all done with school for this semester. I think I passed everything, really can't wait for the grades to come out. I just turned 22 the other day. Arn't Birthdays wierd. It seems like you should feel something. Like feel older right on that day but you don't. Got some new clothes from my mom and sister Couple of sweaters, pair of jeans, t-shirt, a Jacket, scarves and a pair of black boots, and Amber got me a movie. Jon got me new snow boots and sneakers. Zach (Ryan) got me the Ashanti cd. My uncle got me a t shirt and my Grandma and Grandpa gave me some candles and a check. Oh and I got a birthday card from Heather, my Aunt and my cousin. The best part was I had an icecream cake from Dairy Queen. I'm pretty sure my mom spoils us,I'm probably parshial but she really is the best. I've almost got all my christmas shopping done. I'm so sick of shopping, I say this every year but next year I'm getting this done early. Like the first of November. What no the first of August, what no maybe I'll finish this years shopping and start next years now. Then by this time next year I'll probably be almost done. There really is no help for me. Well Jon is supposed to be coming over, he really isn't supposed to lave the base tonight because he has stuff he is supposed to be doing but he just called and he had a really bad day and I didn't make it any better. I guess, which really doesn't come as a surprise it's so mixed up, his lawyer told him today that he probably won't get his kids back, ever, he's still going to try but I don't know. I did ok on that but just before he told me that, I told him that I really wasn't all that sure about us, I still want to see him but it always seems that we plan long term and I don't want him to plan his life around me and then not have it work out and not have gotten to do the things he wants to do. Like he is planning on going back to college after he gets out of the army and I just want to be sure he goes to the college he wants to go for and not just go to the college that is closest to me. So I kinda depressed him, I didn't mean to. I just think about these things to much and I really should stop doing that. Oh well it will work itself out when the time comes, right.

Saturday, November 30, 2002

Sat, 30 Nov 2002 09:45:17 GMT

Thanksgiving went good. Zach had alot of fun playing with all of his cousins. I had to drop Zach off at his dads at 3:30 and he did not want to go. Which really sucks because I have to leave him and he is sitting there clinging to me trying desperately to get me to take him with me and not leave him there. And then to make matters worse Ryan gets there (he wasn't there when I got there)and he's in this god awful mood. Starts being very rude to me telling me to just leave and then follows me outside and calls me some choice words which really makes me mad after I sat there with Zach trying to make him feel better and explain to him how much daddy loves him and wants to spend time with him. If you ask me Ryan is really lucky I'm not like a lot of people and just take Zach from him and never let him see him. Then he called last night and was all apologetic and said he was just haveing a bad day. Well he doesn't have to take it out on Zach and me that's part of why we left him in the first place. But other then that thanksgiving went well. Jon came over on wednesday night and stayed until yesterday. He had never seen my whole family together. There were 30 of us for dinner that night.

My sister is having pressure in her belly so hopefully that means she will have the baby soon. Her due date is the third of December so anytime now...Well gotta get back to my reports that are all due this week, why do I always put these things off till last?

Tuesday, November 26, 2002

Tue, 26 Nov 2002 16:32:28 GMT

Once again its been awhile since I wrote last. Wow I just glanced over at that pic of me on here and it looks so different to me. I can't even remember when I put it on here but now I don't even have bangs, I'm sure I look pretty much the same but it still looks wierd. Ok anyways I'm so happy it's finally thanksgiving break! I'm so sick of this semester and can't wait for it to be over. After this week I just have next week and then finals week and I'm done until next semester starts at the end of January. Jon, my boyfriend, is back of course. Last weekend he took me to meet his family for the first time. Well I've met his twin boys briefly last summer but I only saw them for a few minutes. He has twin three year old boys, Hunter and Christian, they are one week younger then my son Zach. And then he has a four year old boy named Alexzander or AJ. They really are the cutest little guys. It makes me so mad that they can't live with Jon. This is what is going on; were told that his ex wife is abusing the kids. I guess she is sorta crazy or something. From what I can see she is only keeping the kids because she knows how much it hurts JOn not to be able to see them much ,that and the money she gets for them. Last month Jon got a call from some social welfare type people in canada saying that they had the boys in their custody because somebody called them and said that his ex was abusing them, when they went to pick them up the boys were locked in the basement. The twins were undernurished and AJ was borderline undernurished. The first time I saw the twins one of them had a big bruise on his back, his ex said the other twin bit him but it didn't look like a bite mark. Then this time when we went down, Christian had a big bruise on his cheek, his ex said that AJ did it but the kids were all confused on which one of them did it. Plus when they ate while I was down there the ate so fast as if they were scared the food might be taken away from them at any time. You should have seen them dig into a bowl of raisans. They were shoving them in their mouths as fast as they could. It's so confusing to me who has custody and who doesn't have it from what I understand Jon has custody of the kids. But for some reason he can't just take them. His ex keeps opening cases against him like she is trying to buy herself time and in the meantime she is trying to get him to sign full custody over to her. I know he loves his kids and I know he wants them away from her. He is trying to do it the legal way to make sure he has full custody before he tries to take them away from her. But she really does seem to be crazy or maybe just really stupid. She's got to be doing it just for the money. When they were still together she was cheating on him I guess with anything that crawled by, I don't know how anyone could do that to him, he is really the sweetest guy I've ever met. But she did and the last guy she did she stayed with and moved to Canada with, now they have a chubby little baby that I saw in a pic. Compared to the other kids he is so fat and healthy looking. We spent the weekend everytime we went somewhere trying to shove the 3 kids into way to small snowsuits, boots and either way to big clothes or way to small. They all had blisters on their ankles and at one point Christians sock was soaked in blood from his boot being to small. It was so pittaful to watch the twins trying to run with their boots on, they would clump back and forth and you just knew it was hurting them but they are probably used to it and just keep trudging on. At least she hasn't broken their spirits yet. I was around the twins more this weekend because AJ wanted to stay with his grandparents and the twins went with us. But the twins are such happy, lovey little guys I don't know how anybody could ever do something to hurt them or any kid for that matter. When I got Hunter ready for bed saturday night, I was trying to squeze him into his pjs and they were very tight and I looked at the size, they were a size 1T when he should be in at least a 3T. Their smaller them most three yr olds but still. Then Christians pjs were a size 5T but at least he could breath in them. I wish there was something I could do for them but until he gets a court order saying that thay are definately his we can't even buy clothes for them because she won't use them if they come from Jon. He was going to talk to her about the clothes though because he is paying her child support and there is no reason why they can't have boots and snowsuits that fit them. Plus I think they should have regular jackets too. Snowsuites are good to go out and play in but to go to stores and school and everywhere in they are just a pain. He is supposed to have them again this weekend when he goes home again for a couple of days. Really if I could I would just take them and keep them. I heard stories that she locks them in the basemeant and outside when she doesn't want to deal with them and all of the bruises they have...Them being so far away and not knowing all of the details is the hard part, I'm not sure what to believe and I really don't want to acuse someone of something if that's not what is going on but I really don't think these rumors would be going around if some of it wasn't in part true there is definatly something wrong here. Everybody pray that its not as bad as it seems and that Jon will get custody of them soon. I just wish there was something I could do to speed it up.

On a brighter note everyone have a happy thanksgiving!

Saturday, October 26, 2002

Sat, 26 Oct 2002 10:57:22 GMT

Today is my sisters baby shower. She is supposed to be having a girl and she originally thought she would name her Emily. So my son has been calling her Emily all of this time. And now she's not sure if she wants to name her Emily or not. This could cause some confusion for Zachy if she does change it. So the party is at 2 and I guess I have to pick up one of my good friends so that she can come to. What happened was that she went to pick up her husband on the army base yesterday and her car broke down and of course it's the weekend so they cant buy a new car right now but they are going to have someone take them to look for one for awhile today. I don't know why they don't just get a good car. Yeah it will cost alot more but in the last year they have had I think 5 different vehicals. So I'm hopeing they will get something a little more reliable this time. But anyways I'm going to go pick her up around 1 so that I have time to get back and help set up for the party.

I'm so excited, my boyfriend is coming home tomorrow. Well I'm excited and I'm not but I won't go into that right now. He's been gone for a month because he is in the army and had some army type thing to do. But he will be back so I'm happy.

On the school front everything is going pretty well. I didn't get the homework done that I wanted to today yet so I'm going to have to get working on that. I hope I have time for it but if not oh well. I think we are going to carve Zach's pumpkin tonight and I have to get his costume made still too. He decided on being a dog. He went through so many ideas. But I think this was a good choice he will make an awful cute pupper dog...