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Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:56 GMT

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Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:49 GMT

♥ LOVE & BROKEN HEARTS </3
Last Updated: 8/26

my dream is to be the only ones at the drive in movie
sitting bare-foot in the bed of your truck, hand-in-hand
under a blanket and have it start pouring and you asking
me to dance . <3

all she really wants is someone who will sit
with her under the stars && not want anything
more but to look into her eyes && say you're
the only one i`ve been waiting for *

i should pin my heart to my
back .. so when i walk away;
you can see it breaking..<//3

and even though i know he`s a jerk. and i know
that all he`ll do is hurt me . . i still love him. i still
want him. and i hate myself for it.. <|3

i want a boy who will give me his favorite sweatshirt
& he will always whisper something sweet in my ear.
even if we are a million years old,
butterflies will still go crazy inside me

These Days
everyone is depressed;
No one cares about your personality anymore.
There are few songs with out cuss words.
You bring up the Lord && people look at you weird.
You stand up for someone && get called a bad name &
the type of clothing you wear describes you.
How much money you have gives you your popularity.
Everyone breaks each others hearts && doesn?t think much of it
you can become so lonely.. And no one would notice

You don't have to say a word.
Silence is good enough for me...
Just as long as you're here.

i dont know if i [ like ] you or [ love ] you
[ want ] you or [ need ] you all i know is
the feeling i get when i see you is just'..
____________U n e x p l a i n a b l e

& when you held me that one night
things never felt so right.

if he takes time to argue with you then
he cares more then you think he does*

the only thing harder then walking
away -- is never looking back <3

SHES SEARCHiNG F0R S0ME0NE T0 SAVE HER
FR0M THiS PLACE T0 RESCUE HER FR0M WHAT
SHE CAN'T ESCAPE. THERES N0T MUCH H0PE
LEFT, SHES THR0WN iT ALL AWAY BEEN ;;
KN0CKED D0WN S0 MUCH SHE CAN'T GET UP
SHE CRiES 0UT iN PAiN, TAKE ME FURTHER
AWAY 0UTSiDE 0F THiS. iM FALLiNG APART
L00KiNG F0R WHATS 0UTSiDE 0F THiS __ </3

youu know it`s meant to be when ;; at times youu can`t
stand him, yet he`s still the only person on your mind.

one day your gonna look back and think
"..damn, that girl really did love me.."

I'm twisted cuz one side of me
is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry'

i wanna be his favorite hello
and his hardest goodbye <3

if love is a sickness...
then you're my disease

Dear Girl,
i just thought i should let you know, that i
--MELTED-- when i heard HiM
call you `Beatiful`
Love always,
your heart x33

SITDOWN&SHUT UP
so i can sing you your
fucking LOVE SONG

I want to be someone's last call of the night
& their first thought in the morning.
I want those 5 hour conversations that end in 'no you hang up first'.
I want the heart racing, palm sweaty,
'what's gonna happen next' moments.
I want the hugs that you never want to let go of
& the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest.
But most importantly,
I just want to know someone considers me theirs

*hOw cOmE* you can hate somebody
-» s O . D a M n . M u C h . «- ; yet love
them . . . even more ? __ *`

the more i [ t H i n K ] about you
the - m o r e - i *miss you* . . . the
more i m i s s y o u . . . the more
my heart breaks into two AGAiN

hide my tears when i say your name
for the pain in my heart - - » is still the
same. . . although i *smile* and i seem
to be carefree . . . there is nobody on
earth who misses you more than me

with you it`sz like i keep holding on for some reason
even though every inch of me wants to just l e t g o </3

they say that you "never forget your first love"
well; do you ever forget your first heartbreak?

they told me that this would pass... that everything would be alright soon enough and that my tears were going to dry up quickly... that i was a strong person and that i would be able to get through this. well 1,000 tears later, and a million prayers to god asking him to send you back to me; nothing has changed. i guess they were wrong all along

&i don' t want to live the rest of my life
thinking of you, and what might have been

i made the choice to finally let go
because my heart can't stand `'
this pain. it's time for my last tear
to fall && for me to smile again

                             the greatest challenge in life ;;
                             is to find someone who knows
                             all your flaws && differences `
                             and mistakes yet still loves - - '
                             everything about you . .

I don't understand how I can
miss you when I never even had you
& I know I never can...

It's funny how you don't seem to remember
anything we went through, I never did completely
get over you.. I wish you could understand just
exactly how I feel..but the past is the past & love
is a battle field.

as i stand here tonight & look up at the huge sky filled with all those stars i think of you. i think of the times we were together & i think of the times we looked up at the very same sky. & then i realized how much i miss you. i thought i could get thru it, i thought i would be ok.but how can i be? w/o you i stand alone.in the huge world .. i stand alone

i want to be
everything you need;
every sight you see.
making you go c r a z y;
slightly your disease.
a love without a cure;
no uncertanties for sure.
the closest thing to alcohol;
that calls you back for more.

for the past hour...
i`ve been sitting here
typing, backspacing, writing, erasing.
editing, revising, and scratching.
i just want you to know,
pouring your heart out isn`t very easy.

I can just sit here all night
and think bout one thing . . .
y o u

dont worry if he saw you looking at him... it only means he was looking back.

So here's to teenage romances
& not knowing why they hurt like hell

i've changed my mind,
i don't want to ~~forge~~t
anymore... after all...
memory is better than
n o t h i n g

there's nothing scarier than gettin
what u want because that`s when
you really have somethin to lose

the worst thing a boy can do is make a girl
fall for him with no intention of catching her

all i want is for one guy to prove to me..
that they arent all the same. ____</3

it's the worst feeling in the world having to wonder
if they are feeling the same about you <3

if only he could understand
how much shit he put me
[ t h r o u g h ] ..

i`m not the girl who runs up to youu when i see youu
&& i`m not the girl who jumps at every moment to talk to
youu ; but i am the girl who keeps it all inside and regrets it later.

why do girls always run from the
guys who try to make them h a p p y
but fight for the ones that make them cry?

I want real love
inconvienient...consuming...
cant-live-without-eachother LOVE

i wondered why i couldn't even look at him,
without getting tears in my eyes... then i realized...
my heart was broken and it shattered into pieces. <//3

I just want that one boy who will make *everything* seem -right- when he asks "whats wrong?" and i say "its a long story" he'll be like... "baby i got all night"

We're all a little weird. And life's a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up in mutual weirdness and call it love.

HATE iS A F0UR LETTER W0RD BUT [ <||3 ]
LOVE iS A F0UR LETTER LiE...

[ i bet you'll never remember ]
[ the things i'll never forget ]

There are certain people who are not meant to fit into your life,
no matter how much you want them to. </3

When you meet that special someone,
you'll understand why the others didn't work.

S0 0NCE AGAiN..i'LL FEEL MY HEART
BREAK 0VER S0METHiNG THAT WAS
0NLY IN MY HEAD --/> BUT D0N'T
F0RGET..i MEANT EVERY W0RD i SH0ULD
HAVE LEFT UNSAiD

every penny in a well ; every broken wishbone
every 11:11 on a clock ; every finger crossed, every
turn of a necklace pendant ; every star in the sky;
every fallen eyelash, every blown out candle - every
wish i could make .. will never give me you <3

Y0UR MiSSiNG WHATS RiGHT iN
FR0NT 0F Y0U.. A GiRL THAT W0ULD
GiVE UP ANYTHiNG JUST T0 BE WiTH
Y0U.. <33

if hes the first thing you think of when you wake up,
the only thing you think of when you're awake, &
the last thing you think of when you sleep, then he is
really something SPECIAL <3

Do you know what makes letting go of a crush so hard?
The fear that the moment you let go, they'll catch on.

and lately she'd say anything to make him turn his head...
anything to make him laugh and look at her.

love is when thoughts of him fill your
heart x3 when he means more than
[ life ] to you & when you know you
would never be the same again if he
was taken from you *

What hurts more?
Thinking that you should hate him,
or knowing that you don't? x3

i`VE BEEN HiT WHERE iT HURTS THE M0ST.....
SURE GUYS HAVE BALLS;; BUT GiRLS HAVE HEARTS

I don't even care anymore because every time I do I just get hurt. <||3

all girls are suspicious of girls that are "just friends"
because we know ; the guys we've had that were
"just friends" we once thought of as more than that

iF 0NE DAY Y0U SEE ME
SL0WLY FADiNG iT'S N0T
CAUSE i D0NT CARE NE
M0RE..iT'S CAUSE Y00U
PUSHED ME AWAY </3

there are moments in my life that i will always remember. not because they were important but because they were with you

i don't know how to describe the feelings you give me, there are no words;
the only thing i do know is that you're the only one that makes me feel that way <3

never thought i would risk the
chance of getting hurt again
but for some reason when i am
with you it all seems to be worth it

&& she had always loved him
but he would never know
for she covered her love
like the stars cover the sky <3

she ignores the ones who want her
because she's too busy waiting for him

A boy & a girl stood in line for his favorite rollercoster. The girl shuddered in fear ;; her fear, heights. she glanced at the boy with watery eyes and managed to say "I cant do this." he put his hand on her cheek and smiled. "I promise you. If you fall out, i'll go with you"

I flipped the cards over & saw hearts.
I folded & said ' I don't deal with love. '

our memories are my lullabies
they sing me to sleep everynight

i' m still walking
down memory lane
' cause i know i' ll be
running into you <//3

you know it's real when you can't stop Smiling,
when your thoughts revolve around him & he's
the one you feel the happiest with.. there's just
that something about him you don`t see in
other guys.. and when you're not with Him, the
only place you want to be is in his arms xOox

and he grabbed my hand and half of me wanted to say not
to touch me, & the other half wanted me to tell him to '
. n e v e r . l e t . g o .'

&& if it makes a
difference, there
isn't one day
that you are not
on my mind

i've been dying to tell you anything you want
to hear because that's how much i want you </3

we could make the whole world jealous <33

There are two tragedies in life: to lose your heart's desire; or to gain it.

Guys are like stars..so many to pick from, but only one can make your wish come true!

everyone has their weakness.
you just happen to be mine.

close your eyes and count by two's; and when you get to five, thats when i'll stop loving you <3

the opposite sex is the most dangerous &
most addictive drug out there . . .
but the high is unlike anything_ x3

i wish you stared at me...
the way you used too...x3

Its Like Were More Than *Friends* But Still
____ x3 Less Than Lovers*

dOesn`t it suck ... when he
knOws juSt hOw yOu feel
abOut him and he doesn`t do
a thing about it cus he just
* |[ .d.o.e.s.n.`.t. .c.a.r.e. ]| *

i know youur hear me say i love youu. but i dont think
youu realize how much i really do, no one in this world
could make me feel the way youu do.

Do me a favor.
Watch what you say around me.
Maybe you're too blind to see it,
but I'm still in love with you.

and if i had the chance all i would
do is stare into your eyes and never
look away untill the day i hear youu say
" I love youu in every way "

LOVE:; i've never felt anything like it--passion, pain.. all of it, and even though it feels like it's killing youu, at the same time.. it reminds youu that you're still alive.

why cant I make up my mind..
everytime I fall its for the wrong guy.

Promise me...that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you

youu know when youu start out friends,
and every little joke is hilarious .. , then
evertything he does annoys the hell out
of youu. then finally one day, youu look at
yourself and think "Fuck, i fell in love"

I looked at the stars.
Closed my eyes.
And wasted another wish on youu. <//3

What would you say?
I wonder would you just turn away?
Or would you promise me
That you're here to stay?

I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same - - -
<3 Always and Forever <3

no matter how many times you see a shooting star
how many times you make a wish at 11:11
no matter how many coins you throw into a fountain
or the number of fingers you cross .. if its not
meant to be .. its not going to happen

If it were up to me...
We'd have everything we need
You'd have me, and I'd have you
<3

I love it how you make me laugh;
when i don't even want to smile .

you should open your e y e s ;;
im completely crazy about you _ <3

everyone keeps telling me to just get over him && move on, but they obviously don't understand just how hard i've already tried

sometimes you make me so mad. i want
to put you into oncoming traffic, but then
i realize i'd kill myself trying to save you ..

don't you know that all i want is you? <3

sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is you

he said, "i love you." i laughed &&
said, "sorry im allergic to bullshit."

and no matter where life leads you i'll
always be the one right by your side

i want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles;; even when her heart is broken && she is torn into two .. but can still brighten up your day, even if she couldn't brighten up her own

find the one you can be yourself around;;
you can say whatever you want and you can
laugh, you can smile, you can scream, and
you can hug .. you can kiss, you can fight
&& make up the very end of the night .. but
still be absolutely crazy about eachother

i'm holding onto a dream that won't
come true... i'm holding on to you

i dont love you like a fat kid
loves cake, my love for you
is deeper. i love you like a
rocker loves his guitar

      she wanted to tell him how she felt
      tell him how many hours she cried
      her heart out » finally one   day she
      got the courage up to try ;; he just
      [( i g n o r e d )] her && walked on by

Break my heart, its okay its not like i
still love you or care about you or anything
its okay, its not like i think about you
all the fucking time. Thats because i hate you
as much as i love your fucking guts

& she finally told him how she felt
she downright spilled her heart out
& she prayed to herself that he would
care, but he just walked away as she
silently stood there __________ </3

i AM N0T 0VER Y0U
i JUST LEARNED H0W
T0 LiVE LiFE WiTH0UT Y0U.

it`s the kind of crush where i
just finished putting up my away
message && about to walk out then
door when he signs on && suddenly
whatever i was gonna do .. doesn`t
matter talking to him does .. *

-------» just when i thought i was over you,
my heart screamed out im in love with y o u !

..what am I supposed to do ?
he HAS my heart..

Let's start over. Let's forget all our problems. Lets put our past behind us and never bring it up again. Like they said, We can't live or love in the past. Lets throw all our problems away. I'll give you my trust, if you give me yours. Lets fall in love... The right way.

some people are eazy to get over. they
only take a day or two, but sooner or later
you`ll find the one who has changed
everything about you, and no matter how
hard you try, youu can`t find the words to
say goodbye.____________________<3

                                   love you when your here
                            i forget about you when you`re gone
                                  my feelings are so miixed
                                      so for now its so long

                                loved you then
                                L0VE you still
                                ...always have
                                & always WiLL

rembering you is easy
i do it everyday
missing you is the heartache
that will n.e.v.e.r go away

and even though i know it' s not true,
i can' t help but hope that everytime you
smile or joke or show off --
that you' re doing it for me

it' s hard to stop waiting around
for something you know won' t happen
but it' s even harder to stop
when you know it' s everything
you' ve always wanted

the truth is, i miss youu with all my heart and i can`t stand the sound of
   your name because it hurts too much. the fact that i might never see youu
   again makes it even worse. i was, and still am completely and utterly in love
   with youu. youu make me feel like no one else can and youu always know
   how to make me smile. and not one of those fake smiles, i always have on..
   but the ones that when youu`re around, i can`t seem to get rid of. and the
   worst thing is that you push me away, or, at least, i feel that way, and you`re
   hurting me; hurting us. and everytime i see youu, i just want to jump into ur
   arms in hopes that things will be okay. but now that you`re gone, and may
   not be coming back.. i need to let youu know just how much i love youu.
   just how much i need youu and pray that youu do that riight back. i hope
   youu hear this because with all my heart, i love youu, i miss youu, i need
   youu, and i`m not afraid to scream it.

if youu dress nicely, he says you`re a snob. if youu dress sexy, he says
   you`re a slut. if youu argue with him, he says you`re stubborn. if you`re
   quiet, he says you`re stupid. if youu call him, he says you`re needy &&
   clingy. if he calls youu, he says youu should be grateful. if youu don`t love
   him, he`ll try to win youu. if youu love him, he`ll leave youu. if youu don`t
   fuck him, he`ll say youu don`t love him. if youu do, he`ll say youu`re easy.
   if youu tell him your problems, he`ll say you`re irritating. if youu don`t,
   he`ll say youu don`t trust him. if youu lecture him, he`ll say youu`re bitchy.
   if he lectures youu, it`s because he "cares". if youu break a promise, youu
   can`t be trusted. if he breaks it, he had to. if youu cheat, he`ll expect it to be
   over. if he cheats, he expects to be given another chance either way ..

you grab my attention when youu walk into view. it could be
past midnight, but i`m still thinking of you. i can`t control the feelings
you got me going through. i want to be your baby, but that`s all up to you.

show me love the way it`s supposed to be.
lock me in your heart <3

he`s the cutest nicest greatest
sexiest most romanctic most
intensive asshole i have ever
met. <3

youu know youu really love someone
when youu don`t hate them for `-----
b r e a k ii n q __ your heart. <3 xo0x

&& the way you make me smile could
out-due a million beautiful sunsets <3

youu`re a freak, but i still love youu more than anythinq <3

sing me the lullabie of your lies, again.
feed me those words i long to hear.
you love me, you care for me, i crave to hear them
sing me those sweet words .. {lie to me}. <33

When you look at me, it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up hope. But i want you to know something, i almost have.

one smile from him makes my 5am wake up, cold shower, nothing to wear, no hairspray left, missed the bus, late for class whole day, worth while.

i could fill up a thousand pages telling you
how i feel & you still wouldnt understand
so i`ll just leave without a sound except
my heart shattering as it hits the ground

you have this funny way of meaning everything && nothing to me at the same time

I remember every word you said okay? I`m not naive and I`m not that stupid. I`ve been broken before. I can deal. I`m not scared of moving on with my life. What I`m scared of is that I`ll realize somewhere along the road that you were my life.

It's like I can't think without you interuptting me
in my thoughts & in my dreams
It's like you're taking over me /// <3

everytime i get you off my mind..you find a way to get back in </3

And breaking hearts has [ never ] looked so cool._</3

`- -» if i told you how much you mean to me
i`d [ n e v e r ] qet a chance to finish '

youu don`t get to choose, youu just fall
& youu get this person who is all WRONG
& all RiGHT at the same time. & youu know
that youu love them so much. EXCEPT
sometimes they drive youu completely
insane & no one can explain it. & the
reason why it`s soo confusing is because
it`s LOVE. but, if love didn`t have any
CHALLENGES. what would be the point?

He can't be the perfect guy until he wants you as much as you want him

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is ::Incomplete::

last night i fell asleep to our song
on repeat & every moment , every
word. everytime it played, there
wasnt a minute i could keep my
mind off of you.<3

Love is a state of mind that begins when you think life can't be any better, and ends when you think life can't be any worse.

Liking him is hard to forget, loving him, I'll never regret, losing him broke my heart, sad to say my world fell apart. I guess it's time to hold my head high, blink back the tears, and say goodbye.

for some effed up reason you're still in my heart _ x/3

I Love You... the truth is i always did... when you were coming on strong it scared me...i guess i just never wanted to admit it to myself... i didn't want to be fragile and another one of those girls who become infatuated with a guy.... but honestly... with everything i have... i want to be with you, and only you.... to kiss you every chance i have... to hold hands... to smile... to feel special again.... i just want to be with you... even if i have to wait forever... with everything i have... I'll be waiting

it takes a billion people
to complete the world;
but it only took y o u<3
to complete m.i.n.e

they ignore eachother & look the
other way ; but they both know
deep down inside, that it wasn`t
supposed to end this way </3

LOVE is like a rumor;; everyone talks about it
-- but only a few really know the truth --

just wait one minute more, cause my heart
is halfway torn and your already gone </3

i don`t want to like him anymore & i just can't, im
obviously not good enough & im not gonna sit
around waiting until my chance -until i am good
enough for him... so im just over him ; but there`s
seriously something about him that makes me like
him so much since i met him there was something
about him that makes me go - -crazy over him <3

without you - my yesterdays wouldn`t
be worth remembering & i couldn`t look
forward to all of my t o m o r r o w s *

i’m still here waiting for you
i’m lost when you’re not around
i need to hold on to you
i just can’t let you go___x3

i don`t know if i like you, want you,
love you, or hate you -- all i know is
that i hate the feeling i get when
i`m not with you <3

Love is a c r a z y messed up emotion
It will make you smile...make you laugh
get you c r y i n g - make you feel like
dying but in the end no matter how it
makes you feel you know it`s worth every
..single second _______________ x3

i think about you all the time, if I'd have
known missing you would hurt this bad, I never
would of started Loving you___x3

A priceless moment is   when' the
person // you have fallen   in love
with - -» looks you    right in the
eyes and \\       tells you that they
have » fallen    in love    with you

you've already won me over in spite of me. dont be alarmed if i fall head over feet. don't be surprised if i love you for all that you are. i couldnt help it. it's all your fault <3

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:32 GMT

**One Tree Hill**
Last Updated: 5/31

It's important to have somebody that makes you laugh, somebody you can trust and somebody that knows how to turn you on, and it's really important to make sure these 3 people don't know each other!
- Brooke

... i realize now that when your heart
breaks` you have to fight like hell to
make sure you`re still alive ... cause
you are, & that pain you feel' that`s
life, the confusion & the fear` that's
there to remind you that somewhere
out there' there's something better
& that something is worth fighting
for - Nathan

I could've held you in my arms forever, and it still wouldn't have been long enough.
- Jake

And for those who say they¡¯re too young, let me just say; hell you can drive at sixteen,
go to war at eighteen, you can drink at twenty-one and retire at sixty-five so how old do you have to
be¡¦before your love¡¦is real?
- Haley's Dad

'the journey lasted eight months, sometimes i traveled alone, sometimes there were others who took the wheel, and took my heart. but when the destination was reached, it wasn't me who arrived...it wasn't me at all'
- Peyton

'because sometimes you have to step outside from the person you have been, and remember the person you were meant to be, the person you want to be, the person you are'
- Mouth

"You ever wake up from a really good dream and just try to get back to sleep? Or you have the flu and promise yourself taht you'll appriciate normal so much more if you could just get back to it? That's the way I feel. I just want things to go back to the way they were."
- Lucas

heres what you need to know about the past:if you're fat, dumb, sexual, & a guy you're ok. If you're a girl, not so much. Please tell me thats changed in the future. Somebody tell me you've got love figured out cause i've got news for you-its pretty darn messy right now. But I guess its always been that way. Wanting to be loved, to find somebody that makes your heart ache in a good way-feeling understood. If ur robots or aliens or something & you're watching this tape & that feeling no longer exists- well then you missed it. And I feel sorry for you. Because that's what its all about. and that's what i think it should be about.
- Brooke ( on the video for the capsule )

'its not about being perfect; i'ts about living your life and doing the best you can'
- Erica

George Bernard Shaw once said there are two tragedies in life¡¦ one is to lose your hearts desire the other is to gain it... clearly Shaw had his broken once or twice.
- Brooke

As far as I am concerned Shaw was a punk cause you no what, tragedies happen... What are you going to do, give up? Quit? No¡¦ I realize now that when your heart breaks you have to fight like hell to make sure you¡¯re still alive... Cause you are, and that pain you feel, that¡¯s life¡¦ the confusion and fear, that¡¯s there to remind you that somewhere out there, there¡¯s something better and that something is worth fighting for
- Nathan

George Bernard Shaw once said there are two tragedies in life¡¦ one is to lose your hearts desire the other is to gain it... This year I got everything I wanted and everything I wished for but in a way I lost even more.
- Haley

Shaw was right¡¦ As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better; money, popularity, fame¡¦ we ignore what truly matters¡¦ the simple things¡¦ like friendship family love¡¦ the things we probably already had.
- Lucas

Yes losing your hearts desire is a tragedy but gaining your hearts desire is all you can hope for¡¦ This year I wished for love¡¦ to immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel¡¦ my wish was granted and if having that is tragic then give me tragedy¡¦ because I wouldn¡¯t give it back for the world.
- Peyton

Talk about my friend one more time and ur next periods coming out of ur nose.
- Brooke

"When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you... I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you... and how nothing else matters."
- Nathan

There's no shame in being afraid. Hell, we're all afraid. What you gotta do is figure out what you're afraid of, because when you put a face on it you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it. Think about it.
- Whitey

someone once said it's the good girls who keep the diaries...the bad ones don't have the time. Me? I just wanna live a life I'm gonna remember. Even if i don't write it down.
- Brooke

ONE LifE, ONE ChANCE ..
What we do with it, is up to US
- Not sure who that was..

just so you know, the only thing i really want..
is to see him again. you know, hear him sing off
key, watch him roll his eyes at me when i steal
french fries off his plate. i guess what i'm trying
to say is i'm crazy for him* --One Tree Hill [ Brooke ]

** as for which episodes all those came from, i'm not sure..most of them are from the season finale of the second season and all of the others are just from random episodes.... well hope u like 'em!

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:28 GMT

» LiFE
Last Updated: 7/10

life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances, you just have to live life to the fullest. laugh as much as you can, spend all your money, tell someone what they mean to you, tell someone off, speak out, dare to be different, dance in the pouring rain, hold someones hand, comfort a friend, pig out, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, && smile till your face hurts. don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because when you look back someday, knowing you have no regrets its going to be what makes you smile.

Nothing should ever bring you down
when you know that what goes around,
comes around *

Take chances...
Tell the truth.
Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no.
Spend all your cash.
Fall in love.
Get to know someone random.
Be random.
Say i love you.
Get angry.
Be the first to say i'm sorry.
Scare yourself at least once a day.
Sing out loud.
Smile often.
Dance in front of the mirror.
Laugh at a stupid joke.
Cry.
Get revenge.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Tell an asshole how you really feel.
Let someone know what they are missing.
Stalk someone.
Blackmail.
Laugh till your stomach hurts.
Live Life...

SHES SiTTING 0N A BRiDGE
GAZiNG AT THE WATER ;;
SHE'S T00 SCARED 2 JUMP
YET SO0 'AFRAiD T0 STAY

its so nice sitting very still, in a room where noone else can feel the pain that breaks my heart each day.. im not okay.sunlight shining throo my window.. lets me know im still alive, sitting very still

i hurt becus nobody in this world
knows who i am nemore . . . ii
havent told neone about my secrets
'nd they havent asked . . . im soo
confused 'nd just dont know what
to do nemore.. wont someone please
help me think this through . . . `*`

Dance if you don't have rythym, sing even if you can't hit the note, scream at games, cry at movies, forget whos watching you and wat they may think, live up to ur own standards instead of thiers... because lifes too short to try to be perfect.

i miss the innocence i had
before reality raped me.

you know that girl who is always lost? the one with the pretty smile that no one could tell is fake? that girl who seems to be so strong, but daily continues to break? you know, that girl who is always there and seems to have no problems of her own? the one who holds back tears until you are off the phone? that girl who is in love with a boy who tries to understand. that girl who if you reach out always pulls back her hand? well, what a lonely life, what a sad girl she must be, maybe you didn't realize it but that girl is ME.

The feelings that I hide, the lines you never read.
You can see it in my eyes, read it on my face, trapped
inside are lies of the past I can't replace. With memories
that linger; won't seem to go away, why can't I be happier?
Today's a brand new day. Yesterdays are over, even
though the hurting's not.

you just have to live your life not caring and shake off the drama just to prove that your better than they think you are

when life doesn`t go the way you want it to
sit back, relax, and enjoy the detour =)

Always remember to slow down in life; live, breathe, and learn ; take a look around you whenever you have time and never forget everything and every person that has the least place within your heart

You know life is worth the struggle
when you look back on what you lost
and realize what you have now is way better

Life isn't about keeping score. It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated, are dating, or haven't dated at all. It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn't about that. But life is about who you love, and who you hurt. It's about how you feel about yourself. It's about trust, happiness, and compassion. It's about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It's about what you say and what you mean. It's about seeing people for who they truly are.

life is not about waiting
for the storm to pass,
it's about learning to dance in the rain.

i am the author of my life..unfortunatly, i'm writing in pen...and i can`t erase my mistakes

LiiFE iiSN"T ABOUT THE BREATHS YOU TAKE...
iiTS ABOUT WHAT TAKES YOUR BREATH AWAY..

the past can hurt but you can either
run from it or learn from it - - </3

stay true and be you
live life to the fullest
and never look back
theres a reason for everything-
love till it hurts `
laugh till you cry
have a little faith

one of the toughest parts
of life is deciding when
to give up .. or try harder

people say i have a perfect life, i say they have a great imagination

life is too short .. so love like youu can`t get hurt.
smile like it`s going out of style, and have no regretss
because it`s all |[ worthwhile ]|

there`s nothing like the deep breaths after laughing that hard.
nothing in the world like a sore stomach for the right reasons <3

ii love this crazy . tragic sometimes
almost magic - awful ; beautiful life =)

*don't be afraid of change...you may lose something good, but you will probably end up gaining something better

youu gotta take chances. youu gotta |[ risk it all ]| youu gotta close your eyes & jump.. cause it might be worth the fall

she`s the kind of girl who is constanty
making mistakes && having them
shoved in her face

hope for the best´&& expect
the worst life isn`t a movie ;;
it's all »u n r e h e a r s e d *

for once instead of tellin me reasons why i shouldn`t
cry , actually pay attention to the reasons why i am *

Live every moment like
There will never be a
S e c o n d c h a n c e

made my mistakes
i’ve got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as i’m fading away
i’m sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me?

whether you are rich or poor,
whether you are hot or not,
whether you are hyper or quiet,
whether you are wierd or cool,
no matter who you are it doesn`t
matter what people think because
who you are is who god wants you
to be so fuck them because this who
you [ s h o u l d ] be

    got a problem with me?
     S0LVE iT.
     think i`m trippin?
     TiE MY SH0ESz.
     can`t stand me?
     SiT D0WN.
     can`t face me?
     TURN THE FUCK AR0UND.

Thanks to those who hated me,
You made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me,
You made my heart grow fonder.
Thanks to those who envied me,
You made my self-esteem grow stronger.
Thanks to those who cared,
You made me feel important.
Thanks to those who entered my life,
You made me who I am today.
Thanks to those who left,
You showed me that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed,
You showed me the true meaning of "friendship".

     words never [ hurt ] me
     change never [ kills ] me
     lover never [ breaks ] me
     fear never [ shakes ] me
     my hopes never [ fade away ]
     i never need to [ break away ]
     my tears are never [ here to stay ]
     i`m always [ happy ]
     i never [ lie ]
     yeah.. [ once upon a time ]

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:21 GMT

<3FRiENDS<3
Last Updated: 8/26

A friend will know by the sound of your voice,
by the look on your face, by the way you walk,
by the things you do, exactly what kind of
day you're having. <3

Laughing so hard we practically cry .. sitting home bored until we basically die .. craking jokes about the physcos' we know.. causing some drama where ever we go.. we're down for whatever cause we make it together <3

Best Friends are the ones who are
there whenever and wherever`
however and most importantly;' forever <3

somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, & the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the i miss you`s, & the i love you`s, & the what are we doing tonight`s, somewhere between all of the changing and growing, & the skipping classes, the studying for tests, & the downright not studying, i forgot, i forget what it meant to cry . . . i forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart didn`t make you smart. & that pretending to be ok doesn`t make you ok. i forgot you just can`t forget the past in fear of the future. i forgot that you can`t control falling in love. & that you can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned . . . i learned that i can love. i learned that it`s ok to mess up.& it`s ok to ask for help. & it`s ok to feel like crap. i learned that it`s ok to ask for help. i learned it`s ok to complain & whine to your friends for a whole day. that somehow they`ll make it better. i learned sometimes the things you want most you just can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about school isn`t going to be the most popular or going to parties. or drinking -- not even the hookups. it`s the friendships, which means taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive & forget are the things we need to talk about most. i learned that letters from friends are the most important things. & that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. but basically, i learned that my friends, old & new, are the most important people in the world *

a stranger would stab you in the front;
a friend would stab you in the back;
a boyfriend would stab you in the heart;
a best friend doesn't carry knives

<33 A friend would call you a retard. A best friend would call you one and act like one with you!

BESTFRiENDS are totally aware of how retarded
you are and still manage to be seen with you.

Best friends hang tough. They don't come with ¡®Fragile¡¯ stickers and are not easily scared off, or ticked off. Best friends help you out whenever they can, make time for you even when they don't have any, and trust your friendship enough to say ¡®No¡¯. Best friends are cross-your-heart-and-hope-to-die, good-times-and-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-and-forever friends

For so long my heart ached for friends ¡¦ true friends ¡¦ who I could laugh with and cry with, and who, through thick and thin, would always stick by me. And I have learned through experiences that these types of friends are hard to come by. And when you find them you have to hold on and never let go because you will never again find friends as true as them.

Friendship is more than just a phone call or a birthday present every year. It is more than just a ride to the mall or a study partner. It is a person who is by your side and sticks with you ¡¦ just when you feel you¡¯re on your own.

you never know how much you need your friends in life until you look back over the rope and realize how many knots they've tied to keep you from slipping_<3

it's the days we're so crazy
people think we're ::high::
the times we're so bored
we laugh till we ::cry::
all the inside jokes
and the ::remember whens::
these are the reasons we'll
::always:: be best friends

What is a friend? I will tell you...it is someone with whom
you dare to be yourself

Friends are ones who are there to catch you when you fall. The ones your closest to... and know all your embarrassing secrets. Who knows you inside and out. Who are confidential with whatever you tell them, no matter what its about. You are able to tell them anything, and they can tell you anything in return. You don't just get along well.... you feel like your siblings, who don't fight. And even if you do get in a fight, you find a way to forgive them. You also find ways to tell them what's on your mind, and can talk over any hard times you may be having, or to just chill and hang out. Your practically inseparable. You give each other great advice, while respecting their opinions and beliefs. Even guys couldn't come between you. Now think about your closest friends... your best friend? And always keep in mind: Fights last for hours-days, perhaps weeks. But a friendship... a friendship lasts a lifetime...

A best friend is a sister that destiny forgot to give you

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:15:04 GMT

<3RANDOM
Last Updated: 8/26

do you know how it feels to be dead while alive, to fall asleep; each night to the sound of your cries, to have your life change in the blink of an eye, to discover your reality was nothin but lies? Do you know how it feels to want someone to blame, to find yourself alone when you`'re in the greatest pain, to shed a river of tears at the mention of a name, to realize that from this date forward things will never be the same? Do you know how it feels to learn your best wasn`t good enough,; for some one you love to violate your* ultimate trust, to find out all those words were just cold-hearted bluffs, to accept that the future holds no more promise for us? ;Do you know how it feels to make a fresh start to keep a smile on your Face after your whole world fell apart?

everyone keeps asking me if i'm okay;
what am i supposed to tell them?
no, i'm not okay .. and then what?
so i just smile and say i'm fine
even though i'm really dying inside..

I know there's a reason for everything..
& that's why i keep believing

iM NOT EVEN GONNA GET MAD ANYMORE
i JUST GOTTA LEARN TO EXPECT THE LOWEST
FROM THE PEOPLE i THOUGHT
THE HiGHEST OF.

Behind my smile is a hurting heart.
Behind my laugh I’m falling apart
Look closely at me and you will see….
The girl I am isn't me

behind every love
     is a story
behind every friendship
     is a secret
behind everyone
     is a person to see

FORCE A SMiLE ; BLiNK AWAY THE
TEARS i`M SUPPOSED TO BE STRONG
SUPPOSED TO HAVE NO FEARS BUT
i`M FiNDiNG iT HARD NOT TO FROWN
i`M SUCH A STRONG PERSON WHY AM
i BREAKiNG DOWN?

and i`ll let the words kill me.
because truth is..
i`m already dead

.. p e O p l e c h a n g e ..
* [ it doesnt mean forget the past ] *
* ( it just means treasure the memories ) *

G0OD GiRLS ARE JUST BAD GiRLS THAT D0NT GET CAUGHT

BRUNETTES do it better...BLONDES just put it on video ...haha even tho i'm more of a blonde i thought that was funny

how are we expected to live in
- real world - when most of
the people in it are fake

no matter how serious life gets..
you still gotta just have that one
person you can be stupid with*

the hardest things to say
are the ones that mean |[the most]|

It's amazing how one day someone walks
    into your life, then the next day
    you wonder how you ever lived
    without them

worry about your character
not your reputation because
your character is who you
are && your reputation is
what people think you are

i'm a strong girl, keeping my shit in line » even when the tears are streaming down my face, i still manage to say the words, "i'm fine."

sometimes the only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy

When i stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a BiTCH. when i stand up for those i love, they call me a BiTCH. when i speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a BiTCH. being a BiTCH means i won't compromise what's in my heart. it means i live my life MY way. it means i won't allow anyone to step on me. when i refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, i am defined as a BiTCH. the same thing happens when i take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when i act a little selfish. it means i have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who i truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think i "should" be. i am outspoken, opinionated and determined. i want what i want and there is nothing wrong with that! so try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. you won't succeed. and if that makes me a BiTCH, so be it.

im so tired of pretending everything is okay
my tears are starting to [[show]] and
my smile is slowly --» f a d i n g a w a y

Maybe someday we’ll meet again … when our two roads hit the same dead end

Imagine the people u see everyday right now, the people you would least expect to not see tomorrow, in a year, college will come and with it new friends, and new experiences, the people you see everyday in the halls, your friends, and some of them, your best friends, will disappear from your life, each going their own ways, you'll see them once every ten years at some random reunion if that, these are the people u have grown up with, and friends with them or even if your not, there will come a time when many of them wont even cross your mind, the truth is, you'll see your best friends maybe once a year, because time goes by so fast and everyone is so busy. Enjoy today, and enjoy tomorrow, because these days come but once in our lives, be thankful for what u have and most of all, for who u have in your life because life’s plans for u may bring u away from these people, but no matter what anyone says, and no matter what time can do, your heart will always bring the best back, and your memories with them will forever hold a place in your heart.

have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry ? &didn' t you wish that you could go back in time when everything was simpler and CarEfReE ? those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives ... the ones that bring back our childhood, best friends, first love, first broken heart, and the memories.

If only they knew
They`d be surprised
I`m just a good pretender
With a great disguise

It's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone: you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for granted ~~the days spent doing nothing~~ when you could have been with them. Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

"if you're not willing to sound stupid, then you don't deserve to be in love" -- a lot like love

What hurts the most about goodbyes are when someone leaves without saying them..

you just have to learn to forget about the people who forget about you_</3

eventually all the pieces will fall into place..
until then you gotta laugh at the [confusion]
live for the *moment* and know that
e v e r y t h i n g happens for a -reason-

people always bitchin about things that aint their business
.. i never asked, cared, gave a shit, or wanted opinions

love and life - lets face it ; right when you get the best of it
it makes a U-TURN and smacks you in the face <3

in every barbie and ken relationship,
there is always a theresa to
screw it all up <|3

i don't believe in miracles -
i rely on them.

it`s funny how certain things trigger memories.
songs, smells, and such. some make you sad
and some make you just close your eyes & for
that one moment you are captured in the past.
it`s moments like those that make life confusing.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. -- TEN THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU

"just be yourself,
and if people don`t like it,
well fuck them,"
-- Paris Hilton

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:14:58 GMT

&& LYRICS
Last Updated: 6/08

Did you think it wouldn't show, you're here with me, but I'm so alone
And now this house don't feel like home, I can't believe how much we've grown
So far apart, so far away, you just can't hide something as plain as day
I think it's safe to say, that's it's just no good
And I don't need you in my life, the way you cut me like a knife
You burned me once, but now that it's done, you'll never burn me twice
Now that it's all been said and done, do you like what you've become
Now that it's all but over, you haven't changed, and what a shame
I know you think you're always right, and just because, you've got God in your life
But he don't appreciate the way you lied, he can't believe how hard you tried
To take me down, to take it all, hanging around, and making sure I fall
Then say it was me to blame, and I was, for trusting someone like you anyways
Tesla- What a Shame

You're making me insane
All I can say is...
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand
Papa Roach- Scars

Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate
what creates my own madness
and I'm addicted to your punishment
and you're the master
and I am waiting for disaster
I feel irrational
So confrontational
To tell the truth
I am getting away with murder
and is it impossible
to never tell the truth
but the reality is I'm getting away with murder
Papa Roach- Getting Away With Murder

I feel like there is no need for conversation
Some questions are better left without a reason
And I would rather reveal myself than my situation
Now and then I consider, my hesitation
...
The more the light shines through me
I pretend to close my eyes
The more the dark consumes me
I pretend I'm burning, burning bright
...
I wonder if the things I did were just to be different
To spare myself of the constant shame of my existence
And I would surely redeem myself in my desperation
Here and now I'll express, my situation
......
There's nothing ever wrong but nothing's ever right
Such a cruel contradiction
I know I cross the lines its not easy to define
I'm born to indecision
There's always something new some path I'm supposed to choose
With no particular rhyme or reason
Shinedown- Burning Bright

Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
Puddle of Mudd- Blurry

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...We call a tragedy.
Come back to me, Back to me, To me.
I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need to break the routine.
From Fist to Last- Note to Self

---Cauterize

I know that I should probably hurt so bad but I can't feel a thing.
I know that I should probably say something but I can barely breathe.
And I'm sorry if I'm giving up too easy
I just don't have the strength to fight no more.
- I'll Cry Tomorrow

Tear me open at the seams.
Take everything you need.
Take my heart if you like the beat,
take my lungs if it's hard to breathe, to breathe.
- Still Breathing

A simple touch, the look in your eye, the sound of your voice.
They do something to me I've never felt but I don't ever want to leave.
Looks like it's happened to me once again.
Things are over before they started, another goodbye,
unless you want to...try and I'll promise you I'll try.
- Promise Me

---Yellowcard

I remember the look in your eyes
When i told you that this was goodbye
You were beggin me not tonight not here not now
We're lookin up at the same night sky
and keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Womewhere somehow
- Ocean Avenue!*

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
- One Year Six Months

Here. A little jealousy
I hope you think of me
Hope you wonder where I sleep at night
Cause I feel like I'm inside out
You got me upside down
Maybe I was holding on too tight
- Inside Out

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you be
may a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me
I'm finding my own words, my own little stage
my own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
are friendly intentions and fair-weather smiles
- Rough Draft

---The Starting Line

He loves you?
who loves you more
To let you go ?
.....
I can wait until my heart mends
so I can finally go outside
and I tell myself,"Well Ken,
It's better to have lost love
then paint a smile and pretend"
.....
The last time I saw you
you were standing by his side
the last time you saw me
was in a crumbled photograph
that missed the bin
- Decisions, Decisions

Say another word
and i'll sit on the floor
Keep talking down to me
You're not only losing me
You're losing whats in store
- Almost There, Going Nowhere

--- Sugarcult

Love is like Novocain
And it leaves a little stain
The beauty in all this pain is I can¡¯t get away from you
So bowl me down and don¡¯t make a sound
- Champagne

Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
When they say give up
Turn up your radio
All the sentimental memories you own
When they say grow up
It¡¯s just like a funeral
...
Keep your head up
The colors are beautiful
Keep your head up
It¡¯s all right in front of you
When they say wake up
You¡¯re braking ridicule
When all the sentimental memories you own
Keep you trapped inside your room there all alone
- Head Up

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Cannot be your enemy.
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.
- Memory

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
....
She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
- Pretty Girl

--- Fall Out Boy

i was terrified and would you mind if i sat next to you and watched you smile
so many kids but i only see you
and i dont think you notice me
- Pretty in Punk

And I'll keep my jealousy close,
'Cause it's all mine.
And if you say this makes you happy,
Then I'm not the only one lying.
- Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner

On the drive home
Joke about the kid you used to see
And his jealousy
Breaking hearts has never looked so cool
- Tell That Mick He Just Made My List Of Things To Do Today

--- Armor for Sleep

I hope that dreams
come when I die
so we can talk
I won't wake up
I'll ask you how
your life worked out
I'll never know
that I'm just dreaming
I wake up and think dreams are real
I sleep so I don't have to feel
the truth that you can never be
the one person that won't ever forget me
Lemme sleep some more...
- Dream to Make Believe

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is i would still die for you.
Leave it up to me. to burden you again.
This ones not your fault. Please forgive me.
- Car Underwater

Started looking out for myself today
but then I stopped cause I don't care
I'm feeling bored of feeling numb
So now I'll stop cause I don't care
So get it get it get it right
I'm not holding on to a thing here
Get it get it get it right
I'm not holding on and I can say now
Holding your head up
is hard when you just want
To stay on the ground
To stay on the ground
- Stay on the Ground

I'm gonna close my mouth now
You don't need more noise in your life
I miss you more than you know
But I know time makes you move on
- Basement Ghosts Singing

Friday, August 26, 2005

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 18:14:51 GMT

REALLY GOOD STORY!..definetally worth reading <33

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.

I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.

All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.

I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.

Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.

I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.

Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.

One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?

I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.

The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.