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Saturday, July 05, 2008

Wow... This time last year and the year before that going back four years I would be in Kansas right now. I would be with my best friend getting ready for a week of stress, fun and drama. Alas, here I am in my bedroom looking at my computer screen realizing as I have been for the past year that I'm not a kid anymore. It's no fun. There are things about it that I love, don't get me wrong it's just that once again things that I did for years and years came to a complete and extremely abrupt stop and it catches me off guard sometimes. I am going to Kansas and I'm going to see my friends and I'm going to hang out and even see at show at Baker, but it's going to be so weird because for the past four years I was on that stage looking at the audience, but come July 27th I'm going to be BE the audience looking at the campers on stage, marveling at the fact that they put on a great show in one week and thinking about my time at that place with my friends. What a feeling THAT'S going to be. Part me is happy that I'm not going to be at Baker because right now if I were there I'd be a ball of nerves. Dreading the auditions and the waiting. Loving hanging with my friends but Sundays were and still are the most trying day of the week. The way I see it if you can get past auditions you can do the show without problems. And here I am stress free and I kinda like it, but I miss it at the same time. I can't WAIT to get to Kansas to see everyone and to hang out and have fun and just remember the fun times.

On another note, I'm thoroughly enjoying my summer. I'm hanging with my little sister. Seeing all the new movies on the day they come out. Relaxing which I don't EVER get to do during the school year and it's just nice to be able to do that every once in a while. Yea, I'm not making as much money but with money for the most part comes stress and with stress comes anger and God knows that I want to enjoy this summer the first and probably only one for the rest of my life that i won't be working. I'm going to take full advantage of it and try to take nothing for granted. Well i think that's all I have right now. Kansas is 21 days and I can't wait! It's going to be a blast and a half. :)

Peace

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I'M FINISHED! Who would have thought that this day would come? But here I am. My first year completed without any problems. I can't believe it's over already. The one thing that i had been dreading and concerned and stressed over it DONE! I can't believe it. This past year has been more than a learning experience. It's been a life altering experience. I have been forced to grow in almost every area of my life in order to survive. I think that I have become a better person, but also a no nonsense person as well. College and being away from home has definitely shown me that i CAN be independent and that although I love my parents I don't need them to survive. Everything is making more sense in life after looking at through the lens of college, I feel like I can actually do something with my life. I loved every minute of college, but on that same token couldn't wait to get out and just LIVE this summer without fear of school work, finals, etc. I just needed this summer to remember what a vacation felt like. I miss all my friends dearly and can't wait to see them this coming semester, but I'm taking this opportunity to make it so that by the end of the summer I'm going to want to go back to school because I've done everything that I needed to get done and everything that I wanted. I want my summer to be so packed with fun that I have nothing else to do but to go back to Drew. I don't know what the summer holds, but I can't wait....

Much Love,

Julian

Friday, March 28, 2008

AHH! It's been so long! Well I'm going to try and keep this short since I should be in bed and have class tomorrow....

Life is busy but I love it! I've been singing a lot as per usual and really learning mucho about who I want to be after i leave school and go out "into the world." I've really been working hard in school and so far it's paid off. What I can't believe is how fast the end of the year is coming. I mean it's ALMOST APRIL! That means a month and two weeks and I'm out! This past Easter it actually dawned me how much I missed my family. I stayed in NJ so that I could sing at a church on Easter. I went to my director's house for dinner with his family, and as I was sitting there looking at the family and everyone just having a good time and thinking about that "days of ole" haha.... I realized that I really missed my family and that I was never going to miss another Easter again because I couldn't take it. It's just times like that make you think about how good you have it to have a family that loves you and that you love as well. Well I guess that's an okay update but it'll have to do. The clock is getting towards 2 am and I have to get up tomorrow. Alrighty....

Peace and Love,

Julian :)

Thursday, January 24, 2008

It's been a while, but life is good. I have been so busy since my last entry. I made Dean's List this semester which I'm very happy about and hope to make a growing trend. I also sang at Carnegie Hall, which was a blast and something that I won't forget anytime soon. By the end of the semester I was so ready to go home is wasn't even a joke and Once I was done with my Psych. exam I ran out and got right on the train home. It's been so good to spend time with my family. I never realize how much I've missed them until I see them. This break has been SO LONG, but so wonderful at the same time. I have been "working" at a church in NJ where I get paid to sing and so i went up to sing there once during the break and that was nice. The highlight of this break was going on tour with my school's Gospel Choir "Ubuntu". We got to sing on the Early Show for MLK's birthday. That was fun, but it was FREEZING outside and I don't know how we did it. It must have been 17 degrees or something.... AWFUL, but worth it. We also got to sing at The Riverside Church for their MLK celebration and that was fun also, although they did catch an attitude with us and almost got it BUT it all worked out. The we sang at Juilliard which was so much fun, especially afterwards when we all stood in front of the piano and belted our brains out! That was the MOST FUN I had on the tour. It showed me that music is universal and truly can bring people together. Despite, race, ethnicity, creed etc. music is the one thing that we all have in common.

To make a long story short, I had a GREAT break and I'm sad it's coming to a close but I have a busy semester coming so I have to prepare myself for that. Well I think that's all.

Much Love,

Julian

Saturday, November 17, 2007

HELLO XANGA!!! It has indeed been a LONG time. I figured I would update. Everything is going well here at Drew. I'm doing more singing than I ever thought I would be. I'm in Madrigals, Chorale and the Gospel Choir. I'm also singing at a local church. It's CRAZY, but I love it and I wouldn't do anything else with my time. My grades are also doing well. They're right where I want them to be. I'm learning so much about myself and the people I want in my life, and I'm glad that it's happening now and not two years from now. It's definitely important to know yourself even just a little bit before you go to college because there is so much going on and you can easily lose yourself in the freedom. Take my roommate for example: He didn't drink or smoke when he came to Drew. He was all about God and being a Christian.... well let's just say now he stumbles back into the room every weekend after doing both the things he never thought he'd do. He LOST himself and as I sit and watch this transformation I just say, "WOW! College can do crazy things to people." Some good some bad, but as a person only I can choose how the outcome is.

WELL enough of that little rant. Everything else is going well. I'm trying my best to keep in touch with everyone, but it's proving to be bigger than me. I'm going to keep trying. I miss home, but I love school. It's so dichotomous because I want to see my family, but I don't want to be restricted by their rules FOREVER. Thus is the dilemma

I've registered my 2nd semester classes. It's going to be busy but I LOVE it.at the rate I'm going it looks like I'm going to major in Political Science and double minor in history and music. The music kinda snuck up on me, but i realized that since I'm in two ensembles already and my professors are forcing me to take voice that I might as well take it all for credit. So yeah we'll see how that goes. I think that's all. I'm going to try and not make my next update so far away. Much Love

Julian