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Thu, 28 Dec 2006 23:00:16 GMT

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the one way i still get by is claiming that you're ugly when deep down i think you have some kind of charm that makes you terribly attractive. i sound as harsh as i can so everyone will believe me, and i hope to God you never hear me.

You’ll fall in love with the most unexpected people at the most unexpected times.

I know that you love me so why say goodbye? I'm frozen in our kisses as your body pulls me near.

my whole world surrounds you, i stumble and i crawl

she was always second best, so she never thought she'd be the first he picked. she never thought he wanted her so bad.

People said Ive changed so much. The honest truth.. I grew up. I stopped letting people push me around. I learned that you cant always be happy. I accepted reality.

so here i am, waiting for you to come
tear my heart into even more pieces.

lets be together & try
to survive this crazy world.

Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it. --JK Rowling

Give her two red roses, each with a note; the first one saying "for the woman I love" the second one saying "for my best friend"

and now that i think about it, all i did while opening those emails was let him break my heart even worse. i wonder now why i let him do that. i think it was because i was ALWAYS just a litte hopeful that he'd say "I'm sorry. I do love you... and everything will be okay." Because if those words had ever been spoken to me by him, I would have risen from any sadness I had ever felt, and just been purely happy.

But I thought he made no sense.
But now I see... he made perfect sense.
Breaking my heart was something he truely needed to do.

So in love.
So in pain.
So hurt.
So hopeful.
What a summer...

Just for the record,
the weather today,is
slightly sarcastic
with a good chance of:
A. Indifference or
B. Disinterest in what the critics say
[ PANIC AT THE DISCO ]

LIVE FOR THE MOMENTS
that make you laugh so hard
you piss your pants

I remember every single word you said.. Okay? I'm not naive and I'm not that stupid. I've been broken before. I can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road you were my life.

People never tell you
The way they truly feel
I would die for you gladly
If I knew it was for real

you finish all my sentences before they begin &&
i know that look in your eyes its like i've seen before
about a million times in another life you must've been mine

The funny thing is, he doesn`t even know what he's doing to me on the inside
&& how much it acutally hurts

And ultimately, he's going to find out...
how you chew,
how you sip,
how you hum,
how you dance,
how you smell at every point in the day.
The fact that most of your friends are shallow.
That you hate sitting in an aisle seat,
how you sometimes can't seem to listen,
how you get hyper when you travel,
how certain games or shows make you really happy,
how you get cranky because you're too stupid to remember to sleep,
how you don't like the way you look in most of your pictures,
how you can't get off the phone when you're late
because you don't want to sound like you don't care,
how you have no ability to save receipts...
He's going to know all of it;
everything about you, he's going to know.
And he's still going to love you.

And she said, "Please don't give up on me, just don't let me push you away, because I've been known to do that."

real love stories
never have
happy endings
because real
love stories
never end.

watch your mouth
hold your tounge
some things are
better left unsaid.

every saint
has a past
&every sinner
has a future.

she's my best friend.
mess with her heart.
i'll mess with your face.

You just don't get it, do you? You really don't understand that I'm not over you. I was never over you. The girl who's normally so strong is falling apart, and you're not even realizing it.

We walk around talking
to 'l|[complete]|l' strangers
laugh for absolutely no
reason at all .&&. have stupid
fights that are over in ten minutes,
gangg up on the ;; chick that has
a problem with one of us [ have ] a
billion "you - had - to - be - there" times
:: attempt to dance like they do in
music videos, make fun of each
other when we walk into stuff.
Were Just Bestfriends.

i guess it's typical to cling to
memories you'll never get back
again and to sort through old
photos of a summer long ago.

I couldn't make you see it, that I loved you
more than you'll ever know,
a part of me died when I let you go.

She drowns in beauty and in brains.
everyday she sulks and strains.
Her life is worse that it seems.
all Because she isn't with the boy of her dreams

Yeah, I may jump up and down and
go crazy over you, but I would never let
you know it.

all i want is to make him happy
so i could see that gorgeous smile of his

Dear Cupid--
Don`t forget to hit him with an arrow too. . .

a kiss shows love. the rest is just overused teenage hormones with a bit of lust.

i love you more with every second even the seconds i spend missing you and if i ever felt this way again for anyone but you, well i cant possibly imagine that being so because yer the first person that ive truly missed like this and i want you to be with me so much and im absolutely crazy about you baby.

writing down how i felt
how my heart, you bent
twisted it in many ways
i continue to vent

the only thing in life that is truly yours is your health and your grades. but when life goes bad, they're the first things you throw away [actually said by my english teacher. but i really liked it.]

to be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent on looking down at the bottom. you don't care its going to HURT LIKE HELL when u hit the bottom, all you care about is that for just for that short period of time...you feel like you can fly..

you torture me. this is not the kind of crush that i can just "get over". it's on such a different level. you keep me hanging there, like a little doll. playing with my heart because you know you can.

you think that by ignoring me, you can ignore my feelings. you think it'll all just go away. maybe for you it will, but truely, u can't escape me. not with these feelings.

so there's this guy.. right?... and he kinda sorta just might mean more to me than i ever thought possible.

yes i've been in love
i've been in love so bad it hurt
he didn't care
it wasn't good enough for him
but i keep wondering...
did anyone ever love me?
has any guy ever been in love with me?
has any guy ever
been unable to sleep
tossing and turning
losing nights of sleep
because i didn't smile at him that day?
or is this just a girl thing?

but baby it was ever so true
i love you like never before
i'm sorry i made a mistake
&& if you let me
i'll have you all over again.

i dont update unless i get at least

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 15:58:41 GMT

7 comments on my last QUOTES entry, from different people

and if i dont soon, ill probaby delete this

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Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:24:57 GMT

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wtf? no comments?

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 14:24:35 GMT

i'm sure SOMEONE read these and yet i got no comments??

if u want to comment me, and if you WANT an update, comment the entry below this

extrememly unhappy. only 1 comment. [[471 subscribers]]

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 05:13:58 GMT

im leaving some of my poems. i found a small book of ones that i had written in the last couple months that i thought i lost. i'm not shure if i really wnant put them, but i will. i better get comments. i don't like updated when my last entry has one comment.

if you have myspace and you like those photography sites:
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so:: ALL OF THE FOLLOWING ARE 100% MINE, WRITTEN BY ME. i need comments. tell me if u use them!

you watched me cry,
you watched me break
and you knew every reason.
the reasons i didn't know.
you watched me walk
with only pain in my heart,
you watched it freely
knowing you caused it.
every day you made it worse,
every day you hurt me more,
every day you watched me hurt,
and told me i'd be okay.
and now i sit without you,
happy that you're gone,
but you told me i'd be okay
and that was just a lie.
but what is that to you?
just another lie on your list,
im just another lost friend.
another life you fucked up.

i love you so much
but the feeling isnt enough
to keep you around
to keep you loving me
let me hold your hand
let me kiss those lips
boy, im needing you now
i want you around

everytime you walk away, i hope to God its not the last, i wonder when we'll meet again.. i'll keep your goodbye in my heart.

i started to walk away, but the way you called my name... i knew there was something special

am i just crazy enough for you to love?

when you said, "yeah, she doesn't like me anymore", it crushed me that you could believe such a thing.

if someone asked me why i like you so much... i wouldn't be able to say anything at all except, "he's... well, him"

promise me again
hold me tight
and dont let go
all through the night.
so i think of you
about the way i feel,
when you are near
i can't just 'deal'.
everyday your thought
everyday its here
for you forgetting me
is something that i fear.
if you love me
please just tell me
if you care at all
don't just let it be.
put your arms around me
promise me it all
without you here
i might as well fall.

grow up and kiss me already.

inspiration seeping in
the thoughts of you occur.
remembering what you said to me
the smile across your face.
the tears that shed
with words so harsh
like we were nothing at all.
it hurt so bad
you left me open
the first guy i saw
was the next guy you hated.
being with him was nothing at all
not after how i felt around you
baby, the trust hurts but
just for the record,
i fucking love you.

he's got her knees shaking
her face glowing
he has no idea...
how happy he makes her
she's at her happiest
as long as he's around
she's too scared to tell him
he might not care
but the girl doesn't realize..
she makes him smile.

you left her heartbroken
you left her in pain
you shattered her soul
but you never knew
she thinks about you everyday
you'll never mean less
you forgot who she is
but she'll never forget you
you were her first love
you never knew
you never gave her a chance
you cared
but never enough
it's been a year now
months have flown by
you two no longer speak
but she still feels the pain.

to my favorite liar
to my favorite mistake
to my favorite everything
this is for my favorite guy
the one that makes me smile
the one that makes me cry
you're the one i always wanted
the one i always needed
you left me here to shatter
you left her here destroyed

when the sky caves in
when the oceans are gone
when love cannot be
baby, that's when i'll stop
so listen to me now
as i write to express
my feelings that i have for you
they drive me so insane
you have no clue
because of baby what you do
it keeps me smiling
keeps me laughing
just when i thought nothing could
never met anyone like you
never felt like this for so long
you're my reason for waking up
the favorite thing that occupies my mind
now i'm starting to get worried
you have been keeping me guessing
i want you to like me like this
i want me to occupy your brain
want me to be the one you want
i wanna keep you smiling and laughing
i want you to feel like me
we can be so happy
if you just open your eyes

she brashed out
she let him know
never got a responce
it's like nothing has changed
she doesn't wanna ruin it
she doesn't wanna do this
but little does she know
that she's making it so much worse
for him, her heart beats
for him, her words are spoken
but when he's around, she just looks down
with everyone she finds a way to ruin it
"why can't he like me?"
runs through her mind daily
he's what makes her happy

&& when it comes right down to it, she doesn't care about looking great. she has hopped out of bed late for school. she forgets to put on makeup, but that's the last thing on her mind. because when she's with him, she feels like she could only be the most beautiful girl in the world, if he's hers. she's never met anyone but him that made her feel this way before. she had never thought he would have noticed her at all, but now his arms are wrapped tight around her && hes not letting go.

torn apart into pieces
heart is shattered
you're my year old memory
one that is not tattered.
never faded in my heart
i can still hear your voice
i'll see you every now and then
no one quite has your poise.
i continue to always wonder
do you even know what you did?
recked me bad, right into two
but to you, i'm just another kid.

handwritten note
unsure of her words
scared for her life
as his eyes scan the paper
she hopes he understands
she wants him to care
but as he turns away
the note falls to the ground

let's keep this a secret
hearts on the line
whispering in shadows,
'will you be mine?'
scared for our future
we're holding on tight
please no letting me go
i think i'll be alright
promising me the world
how long will the promise last?
until our hands break free
and you'll be in my past

the silence burns deep inside
when he looks at her that way
the longing, the passion, the love
never to be confused
she loves him like no one else
her heart is throbbing
this hurts so much
as he denies his love

sooner or later;;
for better or worse
would run out.
sooner than later;;
your promises would fade
disappearing with you.

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Thu, 20 Jul 2006 17:05:52 GMT

these are mine. if you use them, comment. at the very least, subscribe, but i would really like a comment. i mean i wrote these && im just letting them out.

wind drifting, head is bowed
skies are tinted orange
i can hear the storm
fingers crossed as promises are made
the lies have become usual
why is there no wrong?
halds left with spaces inbetween their fingers
my love is gone.

rainy skies with dark lies
your promise was nothing
your love was fake
i would walk 100 miles
but the pain of my feet
would be nothing when compared
to the pain in my heart
as you slam your door shut
leaving the rain to fall on me
because i left my heart exposed

he promised me forever
i never got a day
he promised me his love
in which he took away
weeks and weeks i cried for him
i would never be the same
trust shattered && heartbroken
all because his love never came

feelings whirling in a dark circle
good times are not to be forgotten
creativity runs through my blood
as the rain poars down thick
i think of you now
as it happens daily
as like in my heart,
a part of my brain is yours.

nothing in the world can protect me from you...

heart broken
tattered and thorned
nothing else matters
please love me
its all i ask of you
its not that hard
i know you once did
love me again... please?

is it too late?
too late to realize how many chances you gave me
is it too late?
to late to realize how much you mean to me?
is it too late to say im sorry?
because this time-- i truely am.
im realizing now how much you cared
im realizing now that i ruined many chances
im sorry for everything
but i think its too late
but if its not...
if i may have just one more chance...
please love me too.

&& when u held my hand... begging me not to leave... i swear i couldn't ask for anything more

I look down
You've been looking down
Don't think I don't see you
You think I'm no one anyways
But there is no way I can miss
That heart pounding
Stomach wrentching
Heart craving
Weird, horrible, strange
Just totally unexplainable
Kinda feeling you give me

I pretend to be mad at you
Not too hard
After everything you put me through
But truth is--- I'm not
I'm sad
I'm heartbroken
I'm have been ripped in two
And even though it's all your fault
I don't believe it is.
I'll never be mad at you

and since i dont have a lot of those, here are ones i found:

I know I shouldn't like him because I know it could never work. So, I convince myself I don't. Then I see him, he'll smile or put his arm around me or just say...anything & then all that logic & convincing myself just evaporate

meet me at our old spot.
i know it's been awhile, but i think we need to talk...
i'm falling again.

She's beautiful, but she'll never admit it
Music is her life, literally
Ask her for 1 good song, she'll give you 5
Jeans and Tshirts are her trademark
She is afraid of the dark
And obsessed with the internet
When she smiles, her whole face lights up
And her hearts been broken
By a guy who doesnt love her anymore
But you know what??
She DOES care

now when I see you I don't think about all of those sleepless nights, the late-night phone calls, or even the hugs that lasted forever. No, when I see you I think about how you lied to me, broke my heart, and still expected me to be there.

Unlike him, I can't just walk away. I can't forget what we had. It's not that easy for me to let go of something that once was my life. I guess, unlike him, it actually mattered to me

he means the world to her;;
&& he doesn't even know it.

let's run away <3
We'll never look back.

HEARTBROKEN && SOFTSPOKEN;;
so go on baby;; walk straight past me, im used to it.

She's the girl that everyone comes to with their problems, she always has the answers but what happens when she can't use her own advice?

Without him she is torn apart
& full of pain that no one can see
& at night all she can do is think of what will never be
When she finally falls asleep she dreams of him
his sexy smile and the way he makes her laugh
This is the only time she is ever truly happy
because in her dreams they`re not just friends
he loves her back
She wakes back up and knows she has to face reality
he does not love her, the dream is just a cruel joke
Played by the crushed heart he doesnt even know he broke

Don't you just love how every girls profile is about a guy, but he doesn't understand that every single word of it is for him...?

Pictures show the meaning of what things were once like

Whoever said "what you don't know can't hurt you" was a complete and total moron...for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world

Heres to life, as beautiful & as painful as it may be

How to get over love: Say goodbye but never say hello again. Forget but never regret. Pick the pieces up but never fix them. Feel the pain but never keep it. Move on.

Once you've crossed the line between liking him & being in love you can't go back

I hope one day you'll realize how lucky you were to have someone love you the way I did & how stupid you were to let it go

Every night I think to myself "don't mess up, he's all you've ever wanted"

Who knows him as well as I do? Who knows his laugh, his smile, the way he moves & throws his glances? Who knows the scent of his clothes, the way he drives, the things he does? The curl of his hair at the back of his neck, the words he uses, his sense of humor? Each of these things I know & cherish as if they were my own. Who else but I could love his taste in shoes, his gestures, his gently curved features, his smooth skin when he shaves & his stuble when he doesn't? Who knows him as well as I do? And who could love him as much as I do?

Excuse me, have you seen my heart? I was going to give it to you but I think perhaps you've stolen it away

It's those feelings, the ones where you get the good kind of goosebumps in 90° weather, you sit there thinking about him & you can't help but smile whenever you see him, the need to kiss him takes your breath away, you'd rather spend the rest of your life sitting there with him than winning the lottery or becoming famous because when you're with him, you have everything

The only thing I want is to heart his laugh. You know hear him sing off key, watch him roll his eyes at me when I attempt to talk about sports, lay around all day together & then fall asleep in his arms just to wake up with a kiss

My feelings for you are completely unexplainable

I am missing you to death...

&& its so messed up;; cuz as i sit here && daydream about you && me; youre sitting over there daydreaming of you && her.

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Sat, 24 Jun 2006 06:34:46 GMT

Right now, all the poems/quotes are purely mine because the same way that I don't feel like going to get the quotes from other sites is the same kinda way you don't feel like commenting.

no more update until i get at least 6 comments. this is NOT asking for much! =/

This just might work
I'm making it through
All of this horrible pain
That I got from you
I think I can finally
Just open my eyes
Realize you're nothing
Compared to these guys
You may think that you're better
But trust me, you're not
You're mean and it hurt
Whenever we fought
I'm trying to move on
There's this awesome boy
He's amazingly sweet
He doesn't treat me like a toy
So here I go
Getting over you
I think it's working
Guess you're not so cool
So why do I still love you?

remember this day, remember it well
i'm telling you long ago for you i fell
please remember me as this tough little girl
kept it all inside && thought u were so cool
never told you how i truely felt
loved you, && at the sight of you, melt

here's his picture.. that's the boy that meant the world to me. yeah, that's me in his arms. I miss it <33

no reason to breathe
no reason to live
not as long as
you won't be my friend
the tears are shedding
the distance is growing
i wish you could understand
what you're doing to me
how much pain this is causing
how much heart you are breaking
best friends we have been
but now its all changing
you say i'm different
but you need not be talking
once again
i've done nothing wrong
but i'm the one broken
&& you're standing tall
tears are left silent
nothing remains
who should i lean on?
you let me fall.

thought we were friends
thought things could not change
you tell me i'm wrong
you tell me i've changed
thought you were true
thought you were real

you would never guess
you have forgotten about me
but i will never forget you
you would never guess
how much i am now hurting
how much it is killing me
to think of you
and how i feel.
its never hurt like this
why should i survive?
you dont even notice
you forgot who i am.

And between me and you.. i guess we'll never been the same.

the way you laugh
the way you talk
everything you do
you can't even notice
that i notice you
and when i see you
my heart goes nuts
i get all crazy
i don't mean to
but i change.
i would do anything
for you to notice me
the way i notice you.

feel the way i feel.
you promise?
kiss the way i kiss.
you promise?
hug me tight.
dont let go.
you promise?
stay with me
in hard times
you promise?
i dont know
how to do this
keep me safe
give me love
you promise?
i'm so sick
of broken promises.
dont be one.
you promise?

wow.. you can just tell how happy he makes her. && he has no idea.

a smile appears
her face lights up
her heart is racing
the knees are shaking
her face is glowing
her hopes are up
and all he did
was walk in the room.

baby baby
kiss me now
kiss me hard
and kiss me proud
look into my eyes
say you love me
mean it

The boy with the blondish brown hair and the amazing brown eyes. Thin but strong.. got an amazing smile. The one that when I talk about, my face glows and my smile won't leave. It's him I want. It's him I need. The boy that takes my breath away.

nothing matters
you did it again
shes screaming your name
shes crying your tears
once again
you left her in pain
so nothing will work out
the feeling is the same
you ruin her.

&& he's gotta be the most beautiful boy she's ever seen in her life

sometimes when i think of you, i cant believe you're actually real. you've always been ideal to me, i couldn't believe when you would talk to me. So now I think about you day and night, you never leave my mind. I can't make this feeling stop as you can't make i start. Days will go by, won't hear from you, I wish you liked me back.

over&over again.
she thinks about him.
the moment she saw him
she knew he was better than all other
some say shes got a chance
others laugh at the idea
but here she goes
she prays to GOD
tht everything works out
...he knows...
and its driving her insane.
kauz he hasnt said a thing
he's been in her every waking thought
she's even DREAMING about him
every single night
shes never said,
"hes all i've ever wanted"
about any boy
but him.

once you've been in love... something happens. and it makes it so you are never the same again.

I would have put up with anything you put me up to, just so you could love me.. but that didn't matter to you. you pushed me away and when push came to shove, i wanted to stay but you just wouldn't let me. now i go on with my life, without you, and you had no clue.

some people find someone they are so happy with.. guess i'm just unlucky.

im so happy when you're around. why don't you notice?

everynight i dream of you
i dream of how happy you make me
i dream of how sad you make me
i wake up and wish for you more
spend all day thinking of you
talk about you
&&drive my friends insane
kauz im talking all about you
then i think of you before sleep
&&i WISH you were mine
and i get ready for another sleep
one where its the only time in my day
when you feel the same way.

when i think about being happy.. i think of you.

he has yet to drive her insane
he has yet to give her some love
he has yet to promise her life
he has yet to notice her beauty
he has yet to love her
he has yet to be annoyed by her
but he tripped her into something awful
he didn't even mean to
all he did was smile

music.... that's what i lean on when there's nothing else.

&& heres the truth: you make me feel like no one else

when the day is done
i'll remember you
as the boy that didn't care.
i'm the girl that never mattered
you won't remember
but i'll promise you
you still mean all to me
no matter what you say
no matter what you do
the feeling won't fade
the feeling doesn't end
nothing you can say
will make me feel any other way

look what you've taught me
i don't [need] to be accepted.
i'll have a friend
as long as i'm myself.
&& if i can get that friend
that will always be there for me
i've got EVERYTHING,
everything i'll ever need.
you are an amazing friend
i thank my lucky stars
that you came into my life so early
&& taught me such a valuable lesson
with my young child heart.
thank you
for being you.

i never thought i would met anyone like you
the second i saw you, i couldn't believe you were in my presence
now i'm friends with you, and it amazes me
but now you know my feelings
&& im so scared to talk to you
im scared to lose our friendship
because you've never meant more.

shes just a shy little girl, liking a loud crazy boy one who has yet to mature, one who hasnt noticed her. she talks to him whenever she can, shes too scared to call him. but he already knows. he noticed the shy little girl. around her he has become quiet, hes keeping his feelings to himself, never to let them be known. he could make her so happy, she remains quiet. maybe one day he'll like her, but for now, no one knows for sure. she's hanging onto everything he's ever said to her.

im kinda waiting for that guy, that when I finally say "you know what, i'm in love with you" and turn around and begin to walk off, will chase me and turn me around into a kiss and say, "i love you too"

you know, you make a lot of girls happy. you don't even try. you talk to them, and it makes them happy. you have something special inside of you, but you're not willing to use it.

either way you WILL break my heart. why not just make it worth it? because for that time when we are truely happy, it makes up for the pain. but when you don't do it, what makes up for the empty feeling?

never known.
silent words.
tears dried.
whispers only mouthed
he never knew
she kept herself quiet
her silence is fatal
as he walks away

the darkness surrounding
walls are closing in
circles are moving
shadows are bouncing off the wall

did i deserve this?
did i deserve what you did?
did i deserve to be forgetten,
heartbroken and torn apart?
is this what was meant to happen?
is this what is right?
everyday i think of you
maybe we were never right
but the thought remains inside my mind
i would have done anything to be with you
my heart remains a mess
after months and months went by
we havent talked
remained silent
i know you must be hurt still
if you're not willing to be friends

i guess im just getting sick of it all...
you put me through so much.
how many months have gone by
since the last word you said to me?
i still remember our dorky moments
your smile at me as i walked by
i still remember listening to you breathe
i remember how your only hug felt
we never made it through anything
you didn't give me a chance
i think about you now and then
remembing how your presense felt

the boy made me smile
the boy made me laugh
the boy made me think
and wonder
and wish
that boy made me cry
with a heart full of pain
that boy comes to mind...
i know that
that boy was never mine

i do need to get to know him. i wanna be his friend. i have a crush on him and i find him attractive. i really like him.... and i wnt him as my boyfriend.. im just scared that he wont WANT to go out with me or anything like that. im scared that he doesnt even wanna be my friend. that he doesnt even wanan get to know me

its like i'm just a moth
and you're just a light
i come again and again
back to you and only you
but everytime you sting me so
but baby, i'm coming back for more

<//3 Jaymie

icons&&my quotes... i might quit now...

Mon, 29 May 2006 00:47:29 GMT

only 2 comments??? wut is the point of updating if i only get 2 comments?? i write and write and i give it out freely, and i only get 2 comments. well i WROTE these so i really hope i actaully get comments this time. ugh im just wasting my time..

450 subscribers, and 2 comments.

any ideas for how to get more commetns? plz tell me if you have any.

I look at pictures of myself
And I wonder "Who is that?
Who have I become?
Who is the pretty girl?
It can't be me"

sometimes not understanding is the best possible thing

im such a STUPID STUPID bitch. i've done all the WRONG things and i've messed EVERYTHING up for two.. possibly three people. i've hurt myself emotionally and i am going to end up hurting someone i care insanly about.. and its all my fault. i shouldnt have gotten myself here.. but i did... and now i don't know what to do.

i was trying to think of a new poem
about new people
about my new life without you
but i kept thinking of
the pain you caused me
the tears i shed over you
the longing for you
the wanting i had
and how its all a numb feeling now
and when i see you
i've forgotten who you are
you've forgotten who i am
we don't know each other anymore
and its like we never even did
it hurts to know
you never knew what you did

he took me in his arms
as we started to dance
the music was playing
but all i heard was his voice
he was whispering to me
telling me how sweet life can be
when the girl you love
is in your arms.

i feel like flying
when i look into your eyes
i feel like falling
everytime you say goodbye
your eyes, they break
every bit of my heart
your body, so great
it makes me shake

and all of a sudden
ive gotten so sick
of being in your arms
and you barely even noticing

showing a fake smile
everyone believes to be real
ive gotten better at this acting
but its hurting just as much

it was all just a dream
the boy never really cared
she couldnt stand it anymore
her clock stopped right there

hearts on the line
this wasnt a fantasty
real life is now
live it now

thinking of you
too perfect for me
pressed my fingers again the glass
breathing lightly
writing your name again

nothing can express my anger
nothing can express my hatred
you want to be better than me
you want to take over
i hate you more than i can say
yet you're obsessed with my life
with my guys & my friends
i'm all fucked up
so you can have my life
stab me between the eyes
you've already done it in my back
your look makes me want to puke
your words are no help
no one cares for this feeling
my feeling towards you
get away from me
get away from my friends
get out of my life
please me for once

do you know how much it hurts inside
when you can't be accepted?
when you're no longer loved
or wanted
or needed.
& when the whole world collaspes
you just might feel better

feelings not expressed
emotions kept hidden
tears falling in shame
make-up covers all wounds
no one takes notice
no one says a word
until the depression takes over
she is no more.

she writes
from the depth of her soul
she cries
when she can't express
she hurts
when the blade touches her skin
shes happy
when left in much pain

he doesn't notice
the cuts on her arms
he doesn't ask
about the tears that fall
he doesn't wonder
about the words she writes
maybe he'll feel bad
to hear that she's gone

lying with my head on his chest
only us
i could hear his heart beat
his heart was going so fast
i had to ask why
his responce...
"yeah, it does that when i get nervous"

before i met you i didnt know what it was like to cry for no reason

yeah you know what?
i DO bad talk you
i bring you up in coversations
and never in a good way
but you know what else?
you deserve every word i say
and more.
so, tell me...
does it make you happy to be right?

beauty is bleeding away
pain is her new life
he never seemed to care
which he'll regret now

the knife is sharp
the night is young
this wouldn't happen
if someone just asked

thanks for acting like i mattered
maybe next time i'll look for actions
not just words that lead me on
i won't hurt like this again

sitting in front of the computer screen
a mother notices her daughter's face
blank and pale; its happened again
she didn't protect her daughter from his love
mother askes what's wrong
daughter mumbles quietly
if only a mother's love was enough
the mother wished she could help

the hatred for an ex-friend
the hatred for her life
is too much hatred for her
fallen again by too much pain

getting too involved with other's people lives && spending no time on her own; the girl breaks down to cry. maybe this is why she was put here.. not to live her own life, but to help with everyone else's.

Ooh God... I love the way that boy walks.. but why away from me?

undivided attention
no one else matters
when i'm with you
i just can't focus
you drive me insane
with a quirky smile
the way i love you
is like no other

baby baby i saw you today
standing in the poaring rain
how i wish i could be with you
how i wish you understood
these feelings that i'm feeling
this life that i am living
boy i can only wish anyways
because you won't notice it
and i won't say it

tears in her eyes
he wasn't there
he still isn't
he didnt hold her
he didnt wipe away the tears
he promised he loved her
what happened?

i think i got it figured out
so HE shattered my heart right?
and you fixed it up?
then you dropped it
for a new, better looking heart
and you did a bad job of fixing it
you just made it dependent on you
&& i sat there crying and crying over you
when truth is...
my heart was never truely fixed to begin with
but once i realized who you were
i was healing myself
&& boy... i never felt so good.

to all the boys
who've passed me up
to all the boys
that ignored my smile
& to all the boys
that never gave me a chance
i'll tell you so
you've missed out
on something special

you were holding her hand.
the girl you promised me
that you would never be happy with.
but what can i say?
i never even gave you a clue,
that boy, you make me swoon.
your smile kills me everytime,
&&it hurts to know how much
you enjoyed her hand to hold.

mhm, you make me smile.

one year later and i still remember your one&only hug

when you're around
i have this happy glow.
one that makes me sad
when you walk away the way you do.
when i see you
my eyes light up
and when you hug me
i pray you never let go.

stuff i wrote & a few icons

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 02:37:39 GMT

Sorry its been so long... um Valentines Day was amazing. 2 weeks later me and my guy broke up. then 2 months passed... aka last friday.. and i got asked out by this amazing guy. oh and my ex-best friend is going otu with my ex sooo yeah ahha. so for the last few months, this is how i have been feeling... so these are my quotes. dont steal.
Ill put ones that i have from people later... ima put some icons at the bottom.

PERFECTION: not possible. ..actually, its aganist my religion.

Giving up on you looks so easy

I can't hit rock bottom as long as I have you around

i don't want a day when you're not around

i keep wondering, "does he love me" and everyone says he does. his friends just say, "you know, he really likes you" and he tells me i mean everything to him, but i don't feel any love returning.

Ever remember being little? When daddy or mommy called you when they were not home, and when they had to go, you would both say bye, but stay on the line? you would both sit there for a minute, waiting for hte other to hang out. then daddy or mommy says goodbye again, and so would you... until finally someone hung up? well thts how it gets when ur older, and ur talking to your new favorite person, and you dont wanna be the first to hang up, because you don't wanna miss them for one single second. you need them there for every second u can.

How could he pretend to care?
I know he really didnt.
Because he doesn't care I'm dying.
He doesn't care I'm falling.
After everything we've been through
He never really cared.
He didn't care when we were breaking up
He doesn't miss me like I miss him.
He doesn't cry himself to sleep
He doesn't think of me this much
So now I sit alone
Crying to myself again
Only because I miss him
And he doesn't miss me back

when the world is trapping down around me.. you were always my way out. when it felt like i couldn't go on, i would call you, and you would make it alright. but then, my world crumbled because of you, and i had to turn to differnet people, and it felt different, because there was no one to kiss me and tell me it was all going to be okay...

i'm so sick of crying, i feel like dying, i'm in love with a guy tht doesn't love me back

the tears flow
& my head aches
its the pain from you
that i cannot take

ow.. ow.. ow.. oh, thts just my heart u stomped on

so when it ended i said
"i know you're not in love with me, but i'm in love with you..."
& i turned around, began to walk away.. and all i wanted was nothing more than for you to run after me and pull me into a kiss, but you just watched me walk away, and now i'm all by myself, your arms no longer there to hold me

& i let myself down
i said i would never fall in love again
and i was doing pretty good
but then i fell for you
you seemed to love me back
but you didnt.
and now im home alone
crying myself to sleep
for a boy that only pretended to care

everyone is saying
"its okay, he wasn't ready for you anyways"
and
"he wasn't mature enough to handle a relationship"
but all i want is his arms around me again, him saying
"its okay... im here"

dance with me baby, teach me to live

you only meant EVERYTHING to me

& i look at old pix
where his arms are around me
and i wish i could go back in time
and change whatever i did wrong

he said
"just felt like too young to fall in love"
everything in her life was repeating again
she didn't see the same thing hitting her again
he was just the same as every other guy
and she started to cry again

i've asked him
"Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?"
he said yeah.
but we broke up
because he never told me what was wrong

you looked right into my eyes
and you promised me a lie
how can i trust you now?

the way you look at her... it kills me inside.. and it hurts to know that you can never be mine

i look at where you once sat in my room
and even though it hurts
i smile to myself
because the memories of you come to mind
and as painful as it is now
it once made me laugh..

i remember the time i was writing away
and i looked up at you in the next room
for a second i just watched you
then you looked up and saw me
and you had that cute little smile
and you waved
and i never felt more special

i was once able to look into your eyes
and realize i meant everything to you
but now as i look
i see darkness
i guess that feeling is gone forever

i knew he was differnent. i had known since the saturday we went out to eat. he was different. at first i figured maybe it was just one day. but then on monday... he just wasnt with me there. he was somewhere else. like physically he was with me, but not mentally.. so on tuesday, i just made it easy for him. and now look, we arent together anymore. he's happy now.

hurt me again... i dare you.

pretty little waste of a girl

my ex//bf isnt a jock. he isn't god's gift to ladies and he isn't pimped out. he's not a prep and isn't gangster. he's just a little mexican guy i really thought was something special.

here i go again, trying to pretty myself up for another silly boy

i'm learning that people change. the people who promise they will always be there for you, won't. the lies they promised smack you in the face. and it hurts a lot to miss the person they used to be.

i sit alone and mutter "God save me" as i clicked on that picture of him with her...

when i see you i freeze up; i cant think of anything smart to say; you have no idea who i am; i cant find my words around you

this time when i thought of you, i couldnt breathe anymore. you're a new person, and you will go on ur little life without me, just like i thought before it ever even began... only this time you will remember my name and face and how much i once ment to you.. but i guess you wont care.

i think its FUNNY how i just want you to hold me

you had told me that if i wanted i could call you at 2AM just to talk about my problems and you would listen. whatever happend to your heart?

i remember the first time i saw you. i thought "woaah that boy has gotta be the hottest thing i've ever seen". 2 years later its still true and now i actually know you and this feeling has gotten so crazy, now that we're friends all i want is you. i also remember the first thing i seid to you, "are you 14 or 15?" and now i kno yur birthday, i gotta say, ive gotten far. youve made my knees weak from the second i saw your smiling face.

i pause to think.. maybe i'm just too much for you to handle. maybe i realized that. i still dont kno why i broke up with you.

ever been reading quotes and lyrics and all you can think is, "how fucking true"?

i talk about you everyday and i'm not even sure if you can spell my name...

i say he broke my heart; i get yelled at kauz i broke up with him. but look, his heart is fine.

i saw you and suddenly i forgot to breathe

how can i tell you how i feel. i need you so much more than i let on.

i think its funny; how you look at her the way you used to look at me. you never even liked her much, but now you're all over her.

sometimes its hard to understand why ex//boyfriends can make you want no one else.

so just sweep me away in the moment

fell to the ground and screamed. my life is coming to an end. you don't love me. the love you thought about giving to me is now given to a girl i can't stand. you gave the love i deserve to this girl who makes me cringe. you gave the love i wanted to my ex-best friend.

its done, we're over. im not supposed to feel this way. i ended it. it was time for a stop. i need to move on, but i can't as long as you are with my ex-best friend.

i sit here and smile, with a picture of your arms around me in my mind. i just wish i had you here to share my happiness.

i keep inside how i feel about you because sometimes loving the loser is wrong to some friends.

its the fact that my ex-best friend is crushing on someone as awful as my ex//boyfriend.. well its pretty sad.

the less i think of you, the better i feel. i need to forget you completely.

i didn't write about you. i wrote for you.

so tell me, if i'm acting too bitchy... how the FUCK was i supposed to feel?

all of a sudden.. memories of you flow.. the pain is staking me hard again.. right in the heart... you hurt me once, why do it again? why does this pain repeat over and over? how could you do this, i thought i was your everything?

she says to just get over him. ima guess kauz she likes him now. but you know that... i AM over him. but i miss him. i cared about him so much he doesnt even know.
if they do end up together, i really think that he will remember all the fucking pain he put me threw as he is holding her teh way he used to hold me.
i mean its not like im NOT over him. kauz i totally am. i cant stand the boy he is now. he changed and i think its partly my fault. && the fact i remember how innocent he used to be.. well it makes me sad.
but a boy taht had so much innocence, well he kant just make out with ne girl and never miss the way he felt around her. he wasnt ever like most guys. &&now he is....

dont tell me how i should feel if you only go after guys your friends want.

look at the way that boy smiles. its enough to keep me from breathing.

he taught me that it was okay to be who i am; and that who i am will always shine. he told me i was one of the best things that ever happened to him, and that every memory he had of me was special. he gave me a better self esteem and made me proud of every little stupid thing i ever did. but when he left i fell to the ground in my pain. it was impossible to move the legs he used to love, tears falling down on the lips he used to kiss. the girl he made me believe i was had left me, and i was just another heartbroken girl, crying her eyes out. the teachers understood, the classmates guessed what happened. my friends were there and kept my eyes dried. the day passed... he forgot about how he felt. but i could never forget the way i felt when his lips touched mine. the way i melted when he put his arm around me. my first boyfriend.

he has no idea what he's doing to me. he makes me feel at my happiest and he can barely spell my name. he makes me feel horrible when he walks away. every thought of him, my face lights up with excitment. Everytime I think he might not want me... I think of the misery I would become.

with you is all i want to be.

I look at you
My knees get weak
My heart speeds up
My mouth turns to a smile
I can't find words
I can't even breathe
When I am with you
It is all I need.

You know my name but not much else
Your smile kills me everytime
Your touch makes me tingle
Your hugs make me freeze
Your words make me love
You don't understand how I feel
You do not feel the same way
As you pull me into a hug
It means nothing to you..
But everything to me

Can't you see I love you?
I am always smiling around you
My only words blabber on and on
When you hug me I freeze
When you smile at me...
My world just stops.
Everyone sees it
They know how I feel
You just don't get it
I love you to death.

I broke down and started to cry
When I realized we weren't meant to be
That I didn't mean everything to you
When you meant everything to me

sitting alone
ill be okay
i have you
to make it thro my day.
you take me away
to a better place
where i can be
with only you.
you dont even know
but when i see your face
it makes my day
feel right.