hey guys its lauren... at my dads again. yea im rly not doing this anymore, thought id let u no that. 9hundred 30-sumthing subscribers, btw.

yea i just dont have the time n plus im like grounded from the computer for the rest of my friggin life. and i have 5 huge summer projects to do, babysitting like alot, and volleyball about 4 times a week. so yea... if i get a chance, ill update.

thanks for all the comments and subscribers and stuff.

<3 lauren

hey guys its lauren... i havent done this in forever b/c my mom blocked xanga from teh computer b/c she thinks we waste too much time on it (i'm at my dads house now lol)... like jackie said, alotta crap has been going on with both of us, so its rly hard to get the time to do this... sry guys.. i feel so bad cus i loved doin this lol but when i have the time i will... thanks for all the comments n subscribtions (881!!)

<3 lauren

letting go of someone special to youu is hard.
but holding on to someone who doesn`t feel
the same is much harder. <//3

i almost had you
but i guess that doesnt cut it
i almost loved you
i almost wish you wouldve loved me too
*bowling for soup*

MAYBE if I don`t talk to youu, I can forget everything we said
MAYBE if I close my eyes when I see youu I can stop crying at night
MAYBE if I try really hard, I can stop loving youu
MAYBE is I stop imagining your body against mine I can breathe
MAYBE if I stop imagining your hand touching mine,
MAYBE just MAYBE, I could SMiLE again.

the ONLY thing standing between me and total happiness is REALiTY.

it`s so hard to be strong
when you love the thing
that makes you the      
w e a k e s t

don't worry about what others
think, because the people who
care don't matter. and the . .  `'
people who matter don't care *

go ahead;; break my heart its
useless without you anyway x/3

so i'll erase everything
& i'll forget about you
it's just too bad that this
might be the hardest thing
i will ever have to do.

its easy to believe someone when they
tell you exactly what you want to hear.

i love you he whispered
& without hesitation
she turned & ran,
tears streaming down her eyes
she just couldnt take it anymore
she was sick of his lies.

& i will never forget about you
even though you've already forgotten about me.

& im listening to all these sad love songs
because every single one of them
remind me of how much you hurt me.

i just want to fall into your arms
i just want you to hold me & tell me
everything is going to be okay.

so once again i feel my heart break
over something that was only in my head,
but dont forget that i meant every word
that i should have left unsaid.

have you ever just been sitting there
minding your own buisness when you
hear that sad song come on the radio
& you start to cry & you just cant stop
because at that moment, all you want
to do is tell him how you feel
& just hope he understands.

there is nothing more for me to loose
my heart is swollen, broken, & bruised.

guys can be SUCH dicks
yet sometimes,
they're the BIGGEST pussies
{{fuck you fuckhead}}
*writen by me and jackie lol*

i'm falling now because
i'm holding on to things
that are no longer there
*writen by me*

ps: if u cant tell... me and jackie are havin boy problems! haha... theyre dickheads.

Im doing this one for lauren, yeaa like alot of things are goin on n shitt its just a bad time so im doing thiss cuz i noe how much she loves doing the quotes on here so0o here are some quotes leave comments <3 thanx =D

The hardest things
to say are the words
that mean the most
 

The only thing better than the kiss itself,
is the moment right before it,
when the look in his eyes
leaves you breathless.

 
Take chances . Be young . Go crazy .
Drive fast . Kiss slow . No regrets

 
Even though you're not my lover
Even though you're not my friend
I would give my all
To have you here
Just to hold you once again
 *Mariah Carey*

 
The challenge is to be yourself
In a world where people try to
make you just like everybody else

 
 Never let a guy know you love him because
then he knows that whatever he does you’re
still going to love him and he’s going to
mess with your heart until it breaks in half </3

 
i hope you don’t take this the wrong way but
your body is bangin’ and it's got me attracted in a
. s t r o n g    k i n d a’    w a y .

 
I wish I had the guts to just walk away and forget about you.
But I can't because I know you won't come after me.

 
Sometimes things happen and we don't know why.
Sometimes things happen and we can't help but cry.
But, when you can't put up with it any longer,
You just have to hold on because what doesn't kill you,
Will only make you stronger.

 
The past is annoying.
It always shows up...
In everybody's words,
every song you hear,
every block you walk,
and you never get rid of it...
But, it's where you want to be.

 
There's something in my head,
Somewhere in the back,
Saying we were just a good thing,
We were such a good thing…

 
When I close my eyes, I remember why I smile.

 
Nothing is the same anymore... The looks aren't the same. The bond isn't the same. Nothing is the same. I know we've fought to stay strong for a while, but sometimes I feel that being strong would mean letting go. So maybe one day it will be okay again. That's all I want. I don't care what it takes. I want it to be okay again.

 
So, I guess this is the ending of a beautiful mistake...
& if we both agree we shouldn't be together,
why does it hurt so bad?

I gave you the best of me…
This was the girl that thought she had it all.
But, it turned out she had nothing.

Everyday I want to pick up the phone
and tell you you're everything I need...
And more. <3 <3 <3

 
Hate me now, so I can move on.
Make it easier to see that you're gone.
All the things, they're gone too...
Turned and changed into memories.

 
Once upon a year ago,
She saw herself give in.
Every time she closed her eyes,
She saw what could have been. <//3

 
I'm not the little girl my parents wanted me to be…
 

A women knows when you
look into her eyes & see someone else
*the notebook*

 
The girl who seemed unbreakable - broke.
The girl who seemed so strong - crumbled.
The girl who always laughed it off - cried.
The girl who would never stop trying -
finally gave up & quit.

 
He knows I care, that's why he doesn't x/3
 

I act like I don't care,
but deep down I'm lying.
Because every time I see you,
all over her I'm dying.

Just know I'm always here for you.
I always have been, and I always will.

 
I know you well enough to
know you'll never love me.

 
I never let the actions of
another make or break me.
i never let a single person
shake me. cuz honestly i dont
give a fuck who hates me.

 
Seems like just yesterday- you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
unbreakable like nothing could go wrong
Now I can’t breathe... Now I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on
Here I am once again… I’m torn into pieces
*Kelly Clarkson, Behind These Hazel Eyes*

 
If you have sex once every day for 365 days,
you could melt the condoms to make a tire.
You know what you would call that tire?
I’d call it a fucking Good Year!

 "Hi " is such a small word.
but from the right person
it can mean [ everything ]

 
Your eyes, they sparkled
That’s all changed into lies
That drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care
*Kelly Clarkson, Gone*

 With you, there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
*Kelly Clarkson, Gone*

 
so would i be out of line
if i said i miss you-- </3

So I guess I miss you. Everything about you,
And the way I felt when I was with you.
How nothing mattered And to you I meant
S O M E T H I N G____ Oh how I miss you </3

 
FAKE SMILE--------»
I MOVE ON WITH MY DAY
HOLD BACK MY TEARS
& PRETEND IM OK

 
so many UPS && downs.
you don’t know where to turn
so many nights you cry;
LiFE iS BREAKiNG <|3 Y0UR HEART

when she cries;
the makeup runs
from her eyes .
she spills the
truth about how
she feels
inside

tell me you've had trouble sleeping
that you toss and turn from side to side.
that it's my face you've been seeing
in your dreams at night…

all she wants is to look into
his beautiful eyes and know
everything is  |[ o k a y ]|

 
her hearts all [ b L a C k  a N d  B l U e ]
SHE'S SO SHATTERED x/3

F0R 0NCE...iNSTEAD 0F TELLiNG ME THE
REAS0NS WHY i SH0ULDN'T CRY, JUST
PAY ATTENTI0N 2 THE REASONS Y i AM

with all the things you taught me ** there's still
1 thing i don't know.... i don't know how to fall
out of love w/you && i don't know how to let go

 
memories come && go like a dream lost
in the night but i remember everything about
you . how you came and changed my life *

 
Remembering you is easy
I do it everyday
Missing you is the heartache
that will never go away

i don`t know if i like you, want you,
love you, or hate you -- all i know is
that i hate the feeling i get when
i`m not with you___________x/3