I have been on vacation since thursday. i also had orientation on thurs, and a job interview, which i got the job for. Yay for me. now i just need to find an apartment or a room mate ASAP... which sucks, but i guess that's the way it goes. uh, i need to quit eating. like in general. i was ok today though, until i came out to my grandma and grandpa's house. then i ate. i had a half a sandwich, a couple bites of hamburger helper, a hotdog, and a piece of strawberry pie. i guess that's not that bad, but it is way more than i should be eating. so that kind of sucks. before that i think i only had like 100 cals or something... i can't even remember... oh wait. no. i ate some almonds at like 5.

Haha, i left ryans, told him i'd be back, then just went home after i left crystals... he thinks that we were coming back... but i don't want to, because last night he slept with crystal on the couch... i don't think that it is inappropriate for a guy and a girl to be friends, but to hold someone in your arms all night.... that is. especially when she has a boyfriend, and she was really high.... that is taking advantage of the situation. it is dirty, and i don't care what men think, it is never NEVER ok to try and get with a girl that has turned u down, just because she is high. that is shameless.

i started my period today too, so i am all pissy and bloated and i have cramps, and i want to just die right now... but i think i am going to go home, and go to bed. i have to go to my moms tomorrow and i have to hit the human services building and pay my fines and crystal's fines. i am going to be very tired tomorrow... oh well.

Later

i don't know... i guess i haven't really been binging lately... but eating like a normal person kind of is binging for me. so i don't know. i am suer i've gained in the last couple days cuz i get munchies when i don't smoke for a while, but after i smoke for a few days, i t just kind of goes away... so i don't know. and smoking does wierd things, because last time i kept getting munchies and i still lost weight, so i don't even want to take a guess at what i weigh right now. so yeah. whatever.

Ryan is really pissing me off lately... so he needs to pull his head out of his ass... like real quick, cuz i am gonna drop him purty quick... when i met him, he was awesome, but now he is just a fucking dick. and i am about to inform him of that too. i am not happy, and being this close to moving, i am not baout to keep that a  secret. so whatever. i am prollhy going to lose him as a friend anyways when i move, so whatever. it is just a matter of if i am friends with him when i am hot or not... haha. he'll prolly want me then. haha. that's kind of funny. so whatev.

Also. i am planning to get my lip pierced. snakebite style. Any comments?

I'm not sure if i am going to have one or two. but i know i want it done. i just hope that i can get a job and use a spacer for it... but whatev.

Latuz