update

i think its necessary, haha. obviously i havent been blogging as much... theres just too much on my plate. i dont even know where to start. perhaps family? sure, okay. its not like anything bad is happening. its just... hard to explain. ive explained to marckley, cause i trust him. just so you know... thats a FREAKING lot of trust, pal. school, church, everything else: i think its okay. haha

friday was okay, i guess. i knew i acted bratty, but i had my reasons. hopefully, not many of you guys saw that. it was pretty hard for me to like do what everyone else was doing. it wasnt easy to do. looking back, what could i have put on there? that i was pretty much abandoned? that i was nothing? that i wasnt good enough? i could go on forever, but i wont. i was just sitting there, trying to think of what to put... and at the same time looking back and trying to find something i could say. i went to the bathroom and i finished it. even though i couldnt find anything to say, i finished. honestly, it was really difficult to write. i got it over with. after bible study, i got into the car. i was just sitting there thinking and having those stupid flashbacks. and then nathan, miko, and aa hopped inside. and i forgot about everything. it was funny. we were like screaming in the van. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! i thought we were going home, but we actually went to carls jr. i was kinda hyper. we ordered. sat down. played sasaw sasaw suka with marckley. HAHAHAHAAHAHA! "chow chow chuka!" i laughed too hard. he made me happy that night. i love him<3 

saturday was so boring. woke up at 9:58. fell asleep again til mama shouted at me to get up. we left at like 1. we had mcdonalds. fell asleep in the car. woke up at 3:25. we got lost. so we got there at like 3:40. we were 10 minutes late. but it was SUPER short. miko now wants to have a "Christian wedding because theyre short!" i laughed. we got mama really pissed. so funny. yeah, the rest was really boring so i wont bother talking about it.

today was okay. woke up at 7 but didnt get up til 7:45. got ready. left for practice. helped decorate the lunchroom. practiced. service. ate. waited for papa. thats basically it. i wanna write about kanina, but im kinda scared cause i know theres a certain someone who might read this and is gonna tell her. so id rather not.

im not in that great of a mood.