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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Sep 2005 22:14:50 GMT

Well i just got back from brandons where i made a discovery... im only liked for ass.
and no, to you questioners that think , " oh, rachel you're just being a drama queen." Im serious guys, im not the one to cause a drama or start a fit over absoultly nothing.
The guys i thought i was friends with, and i mean just friends with like no tention between.. i mean one boy inparticular i thought this boy and i were like just friends. but no. he wants to get with me.. i mean yeah, him and i are close and hes a really great person but i thought we were in the "just friends without benefits." i dont know this is just really frustrating i think one thing and im completely wrong and of course. brandon had to be there to read when he said that he wanted to get with me. so now he thinks the guys im friends with are total assholes who just want ass from me. but this boy was different and i still believe he is. But it's just so confussing when you think one thing and the total oppsite occurs. grr... things are going okay besides that. i had a very fun time with bran, even though we talked about some rough issues.. and its good in paradise i guess you would say not too many fights, just would should what if's kinda stuff.. mostly on my part and i feel bad for that, but you know when you just run out of things to talk about you bring up eachothers history. well maybe you dont, personally.. but i do. and i dis like his past... and when i dis like i mean with a hot firey BURNING passion, and yes he is most likely absoultly going to read this but i tell it to his face all the time. and he has not response to it. cause ive had a great past and his is bad. w/e i love himm pcee

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 16:09:00 GMT

i jus got back from down the shore with brandon we stayed there from wens-sat<3
at the TROP so we had a mall in our hotel and a casino and it was right on the boardwalk
we had funn, no actually beach time though, we had arcade time and walking on the boardwalk time and pier time for those hot rollercoasters, sike.
&& the dollar a minute massages were BEAST!!!!!!!!! hahah we slept in the same bed bran & me. which was to be expected cause like i sleep on him. well julia && alison and poss livi are sleeping over on monday

fun weekkkkk - enndd<33

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 13:17:56 GMT

I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

Now I done been with different kind of girls
Like I done seen em all but ain't none of them at all (like u)
And I done seen the best of the best
Baby still I ain't impressed cause ain't none of them at all (like u)
If you know how I feel when I chill
If I'm seen with a girl then she gotta be just (like u)
And baby that's the way I feel
And I got no choice but for me to keep it real
Cause when we first got together started hanging out you was
Skeptical at first had to figure out if
I was the kind of guy to try to dog you out but
I ain't that kind of guy you tried to make me out
You found out when you turned into my baby
I showed them other brothers how to treat a lady
I let you drive when I ride that Mercedes
And I ain't trippin or actin shady cause baby you kno

I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

And every time I think about you (I cry)
When you ride when you call when you come I (ride)
Your love is a-mazing to me
Can't wait til I see you (I wanna be wit you again)
And every time you're out on the road (I make a trip)
And whenever I'm doing a show (Don't you forget)
That I'm your (main chick)
Who got that (game chick)
One and the (same chick)
The one you can hang with

I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

Okay when you hit the mall pop tags spend a few g's (jazin?)
Hit the runway to a new season (season)
It ain't nothin it's you the one I care for
Feel like I ain't doing enough that's when I share more (share more)
I give you this give you that what you need love (love)
You know I got it holla at me if you need love (love)
And affection cause i'll be your protection
Kinda hard job but i'll do it to perfection
And you can tell that I ain't tryna let you go
I get with you when I can so that's how I let you kno
And you be trippin cause sometimes I gotta go
But you the first one I hollared to right after my shows
And I was trippin in a sense I was tense
From my body loose around you what imma do without you
I gotta get it together say whateva
Since I met you my life seems so betta

I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

I ain't neva had nobody show me all the things that you done showed me
And the special way I feel when you hold me
We gone always be together baby that's what you told me
And I believe it (Cause I ain't neva had nobody do me like u)

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 17:07:47 GMT

new layout!! i was boredd && my other one was getting too boringg
summer is practically gone, i hope you all had a greatt summer<3 like i did. im sorta sad that it's like gone. i mean just amaZing times with youu all.. && camp
-- highschool might be cool too,, the work might be hard thoughh but yeahh.. i hope everyone had a terrfic summer, && if i didnt hear about your summer comment me itt or IM me onn- raeachance99

*the one person i have to thank for my amazing summer is the person who doesnt have xanga*

my bestfriends from maryland JULIA && ALISON are coming down next weekkk, im excitedd eekkkk<333

I miss LEAHH so muchhh <33 comee homee
Love you all

Monday, August 08, 2005

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 13:36:20 GMT

im going to sound weird and ridiclous and i should jus keep my feelings to myself and not have yall bothered but i need to say i actually am in love with my boyfriend. and i know half of you have been in love so you understand the feeling but yeah.

OH i got a cast. :( like its yuckkyyy

FRIDAY :: SIX FLAGS - AMAZING!!
SATURDAY :: ORSON, PA 18449<3 JULZ. LIV. && everyone<3
i cant believe i didnt go back i miss you all so much
SUNDAY:: SLEEP OVER AT BRANDONS., AMAZING
what a weekend, what a weekenddd<33

can i have some comments??

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 18:14:20 GMT

This is really sad. If you have problems in your relationships, try and fix them. Dont pretend its okay. Dont push your girls away, they are everything to you. Maybe the best thing for you. Listen to them, Treat them like princesses, go out of your way once and a while for them, take care of them when they are sad, and dont let go.

Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye

2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition
This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump

Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick
he opened it.....
it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you
sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to
and the first picture they took together
he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture
it looked as if in the picture she was crying
then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

awww isnt it sad??

Sunday, July 31, 2005

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 14:01:21 GMT

today is MONICA NELSONS BIRTHDAY,, love that girll

well this whole weekend was joyous i was with my love, brandon
&& umm lets start by saying thursday we went to the movies and like got caught hooking up
i was on top of him like lol on top lol riding him like a horsey lol and a cop like showed us his badge and said " GET A ROOM,"
             - on friday i made brandon come to my shabbat dinner, hehe so like my grandparents and uncles and cousins and all met him. for the most part i think they liked him, i never asked. good dinner,, my dad and cousin wippeddd his ass in ping pong, pool and frosball lol.
              - on saturday  umm we were suppost to have my old consuler pick us up and take us to six flags but something came upp, and then my dad said that he would take bran and i to dorney, but i ended up breaking my toe like discolored and couldnt move it at all, like that so it didnt matter, no amusement park that means ... sadlyyy grrrr lol so we went to a another movie, THE ISLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its good, at least thats what i thought..... and then my dad picked me upp early so yeahh

THAT NIGHT:::: the lovely MONICA SUH!!!!!!!!!! MY MIZBEHAVING STRIPPERR and my boo
all had a conversation on three wayy and it was fun. SNL! omggg whattt fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FORGOT HOW MUCH I MISS THAT GIRL SHE IS SOOOO AMAZING BFFL.

well umm leah lefton is my sister, not really but yeahh and she needs to go out with *****.... so we can double. kay??

&& my other LOVE,, ALEX BOZZI needs to hang with me. we havent hung since skool let out.. and that's not cool, well i think thats itt, i mean just about.

ORSON,, PA 18449<3 my heart is in ORSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with julz, liv, mitch,and *****
INDEPENDENT LAKE CAMP,, LOVE ALWAYS<3

SIX FLAGS FRIDAY WITHHHHH      LIZZY, STEWART - BIRDSONG, NOYSE, POLLY, SHEFFIRT
CAIT CHEATERRR- BURNELLY lol just all my lovable camp girls<333333333

that's a big enough entry for me<3 im outtie loves,

Monday, July 25, 2005

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:44:52 GMT

i got a new wet straightern that straightens wet hair.
IM PSYCHED DUDE!!!!! lol <33
now im eatting gummies and im bored... leave one?

MY ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIE:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

corsp bride, is coming out too which is another tim burton made movie.. IM DOUBLE PSYCHED!

xo raeee... leave comments.. i left a lot of comments today on peoples<3

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 13:18:12 GMT

so yeah i havent updated in a while
LEAH picked me up and took me out to applebees yesturday
and then took me to see charlie and the chocolate factory, which was good by the way.
and brandon met us there<33 and yea goooood day

EDDITTT::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::: SATURDAY<33
waitting for brandon to get here caz hes sleeping over. thats hott. lol comments?

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 23:46:56 GMT

stole this from the lovely leah..

start at 100%... now subtract 5% for everything you've done to find out how good you are...

1. smoked
2. drank
3. hook up with someone while drunk
4. done drugs
5. given a handjob/gotten a handjob
6. french kissed(made-out)
7. felt someone up/been felt up
8. given a blow job/gotten a blowjob
9. made out with 2 dif people in a 12 hour period
10. had sex/or got REALLY close to it
11. shared a man/gurl wit 1 of your good friend
12. watched porn
13. cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
14. done any sexual act on a school campus
15. peed on someone's property or goverment property
16. had sex/messed around in your room while your parents were home
17. had sex/messed around in a public place or somewhere where there was at least one person present
18. having someone of the opposite sex in your room
19. got fingered/fingered someone.
20. snuck into someone's room/your own room after being out

im not even posting my score.
lol im embrassed by it,, i have a softball game tomorrow<3 and leah and brandon is going
yay!

rae<33